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>>> Crazy Train Cycle Check-In <<<

 All aboard the TTCAL Crazy Train!!!  Hurricane edition! Come on ladies! Lets hear it!


This is the place to vent about your cycle, symptoms, MF, obsessive FF checking, 5dpo BFN's, and all things TTCAL that are driving you completely out of your mind! 

Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 

CD /or DPO: 

Can I just ____________ already ?!?!!???? 

Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: 

Additional crazy rantings here:

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  •  YAY!! I'm definitely riding today!

     

    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  9

    CD /or DPO: cd23/ 10dpo

    Can I just ___POAS!!!____ already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined:  A Little bit in the sore boob department, vivid dreams, easily fatigued, I had a tiny bit of spotting for about .5 seconds over the weekend, and lots of creamy cm before, during, and after the spot. 

    Additional crazy rantings here: Trying not to get my hopes up, but having a hard time. And I seriously want to PEE ON EVERYTHING!!!! Holy crap! DH wants me to wait to test as long as possible, I got through this morning's FMU without testing, but it was REALLY hard. I seriously want to test, just to see... but I know if it's a BFN I'll be a bit crushed. I think I'm going to try to hold out until Wednesday... but it's going to be a real struggle.


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    BFP#1 6/2/12 EDD 2/17/13 Natural M/C 6/19/12
    BFP#2 10/30/12 EDD 7/12/13 CP 11/2/12 
    BFP#3 11/29/12 EDD 8/10/13 CP 12/2/12 
    BFP#4 12/26/12 EDD 9/7/13 
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     YAY!! I'm definitely riding today!

     

    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  9

    CD /or DPO: cd23/ 10dpo

    Can I just ___POAS!!!____ already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined:  A Little bit in the sore boob department, vivid dreams, easily fatigued, I had a tiny bit of spotting for about .5 seconds over the weekend, and lots of creamy cm before, during, and after the spot. 

    Additional crazy rantings here: Trying not to get my hopes up, but having a hard time. And I seriously want to PEE ON EVERYTHING!!!! Holy crap! DH wants me to wait to test as long as possible, I got through this morning's FMU without testing, but it was REALLY hard. I seriously want to test, just to see... but I know if it's a BFN I'll be a bit crushed. I think I'm going to try to hold out until Wednesday... but it's going to be a real struggle.


    Your chart looks pretty awesome! Fx for you

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    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 9.5


    CD /or DPO: 11DPO

    Can I just _____Get to Thursday!_______ already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: Mostly imagined emerging triphasic chart pattern, low appetite, mild skin breakout.

    Additional crazy rantings here: Staring constantly at my chart, trying to resist the urge to POAS early. DH is starting to get a bit nutty this cycle too, every day he asks 'can you test now?'. It's not helping the craziness.

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    Ugh you think it was another CP? I'm so sorry. I hope you get some answers. It's not f'ing fair.

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  4 or 5, not too bad I think!!!

    CD /or DPO: CD32/10DPO

    Can I just POAS already ?!?!!???? I know everyone wants to be able to test right away... but for my own sanity I decided to wait until 12 DPO because at least until then I can hold out hope for a BFP and hopefully a stronger positive if that happens!

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: I am a very low symptom girl, I don't get cramps for my period or anything like that so I think any/all symptoms are less for me and not really noticeable

    Additional crazy rantings here: This is my 2nd to last cycle before my EDD. I really would love to get a BFP for many reasons but one of the biggest being that my fam is going to be around for thanksgiving and it would be wonderful to be able to tell them all together :)

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  • Also boarding on the train here! 

    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 8

    CD /or DPO: 21


    Can I just ___Ovultate/get AF_________ already ?!?!!????

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: Got and + OPK yesterday, after a temp spike and fall back....let'see what happens.

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    BFP#2 12/06/12 EDD 08/17/2013

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  • imagekatharine25:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    I just looked at your chart....that sucks Katharine, I'm sorry you have to keep going through this! ((HUGS))

    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
    BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
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  • imageweaslewam:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  4 or 5, not too bad I think!!!

    CD /or DPO: CD32/10DPO

    Can I just POAS already ?!?!!???? I know everyone wants to be able to test right away... but for my own sanity I decided to wait until 12 DPO because at least until then I can hold out hope for a BFP and hopefully a stronger positive if that happens!

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: I am a very low symptom girl, I don't get cramps for my period or anything like that so I think any/all symptoms are less for me and not really noticeable

    Additional crazy rantings here: This is my 2nd to last cycle before my EDD. I really would love to get a BFP for many reasons but one of the biggest being that my fam is going to be around for thanksgiving and it would be wonderful to be able to tell them all together :)

     FX for you this cycle!!

    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
    BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 3

    CD /or DPO: CD 12

    Can I just ____Ovulate____ already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: I think I'm starting to get super mild O cramps, so the big day should be coming up. Maybe by CD 14 or 15 I hope.

    Additional crazy rantings here: Not temping is actually a nice break, but I'm dying to pee on an OPK! It crossed my mind to go get some at the dollar store, but then I talked myself out of it. I want to try to get through this cycle without them!

    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
    BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
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  • imagekatharine25:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    I was just looking at your chart. :( I'm so sorry.  

    BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

    BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 8

    CD /or DPO: CD22/9 DPO

    Can I just ____________ already ?!?!!???? POAS!

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: Twinges/cramps in my lower belly yesterday/today, acne... still getting some random creamy CM

    Additional crazy rantings here: Besides staring longingly at the wondfos every time I go to the bathroom, not much.

    Mr. & Mrs. B, Est. 10.23.2009
    m/c: 9/06/12
    LTB: 10/23/13
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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  5

    CD /or DPO: cd17


    Can I just _O_ already ?!?!!????

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined:  None yet other than EWCM nearly each day.

    Additional crazy rantings here:  Not too crazy yet, just anxious to O and get CHs.

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

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  • imagekatharine25:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    Ugh I'm so sorry. HUGS

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

     Lilypie - (L84X)Lilypie - (D4Hj)

     

     

     

     

  • imagekatharine25:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    I'm so sorry Katharine. ((((hugs))))

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    BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
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  • Ok, so I need to add to my completely insane symptoms...

    DH and I took a run to Costco (wholesale club) this morning before the storm really starts to hit and they were doing their usual sampling (my favorite!) But half the stuff literally made me gag. Strangest thing. Totally MF, but woah!

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    BFP#1 6/2/12 EDD 2/17/13 Natural M/C 6/19/12
    BFP#2 10/30/12 EDD 7/12/13 CP 11/2/12 
    BFP#3 11/29/12 EDD 8/10/13 CP 12/2/12 
    BFP#4 12/26/12 EDD 9/7/13 
    1/18/13 HB 140! GROW BABY GROW!

    Welcome to the world Little Girl! Born on her due date! September 8, 2013, 7lb 11.8oz, 19.5" long. 

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  • imageSopranoMama:

    Ok, so I need to add to my completely insane symptoms...

    DH and I took a run to Costco (wholesale club) this morning before the storm really starts to hit and they were doing their usual sampling (my favorite!) But half the stuff literally made me gag. Strangest thing. Totally MF, but woah!

    I love it! I gagged brushing my teeth the other morning and thought 'yeeees! this must be it!' LOL

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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  • imageBootsOrHearts:
    imageSopranoMama:

    Ok, so I need to add to my completely insane symptoms...

    DH and I took a run to Costco (wholesale club) this morning before the storm really starts to hit and they were doing their usual sampling (my favorite!) But half the stuff literally made me gag. Strangest thing. Totally MF, but woah!

    I love it! I gagged brushing my teeth the other morning and thought 'yeeees! this must be it!' LOL

     

    Whoot Whooot!! Chugga Chugga Chugga Chugga!

    Glad I get to ride the crazy train with such an awesome lady :) 

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    TTC#1 since May 2012 
    BFP#1 6/2/12 EDD 2/17/13 Natural M/C 6/19/12
    BFP#2 10/30/12 EDD 7/12/13 CP 11/2/12 
    BFP#3 11/29/12 EDD 8/10/13 CP 12/2/12 
    BFP#4 12/26/12 EDD 9/7/13 
    1/18/13 HB 140! GROW BABY GROW!

    Welcome to the world Little Girl! Born on her due date! September 8, 2013, 7lb 11.8oz, 19.5" long. 

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  • Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10: 0, I feel so done with all of this...I'm too down about TTCAL to get very excited about anything TTCAL related at this point.

    CD /or DPO: CD16/2DPO (based on OPKs and CM, no more stressful temp charting here)

    Can I just test/get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: nothing new here, my fibro is kicking my butt with a vengeance and I've been a bit nauseated off an on lately, but that started before I O'd

    Additional crazy rantings here: ugh, so tired of TTC...this is our 8th cycle and I'm already to the point where I have trouble getting the motivation to care b/c I know I'll just get let down again by another BFN and AF's ugly arrival. I don't even begin to understand how some of you ladies who have been TTCAL for far longer than me can keep up a positive disposition.

    Also, *waves* hey, Katharine!!! I've missed seeing you on NO (although I do dirty lurk on your FB sometimes Embarrassed. I love the new check-in, it's so awesome of you to do this for us crazies :)

    DS1: 8/3/10, DD1: 8/17/13, DD2: 8/13/15
    Twins lost to due to partial molar pregnancy: September 2011 
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  • imagecg0112358:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 110: 0, I feel so done with all of this...I'm too down about TTCAL to get very excited about anything TTCAL related at this point.CD /or DPO: CD16/2DPO based on OPKs and CM, no more stressful temp charting hereCan I just test/get AF already ?!?!!????nbsp;Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: nothing new here, my fibro is kicking my butt with a vengeance and I've been a bit nauseated off an on lately, but that started before I O'dAdditional crazy rantings here:nbsp;ugh, so tired of TTC...this is our 8th cycle and I'm already to the point where I have trouble getting the motivation to care b/c I know I'll just get let down again by another BFN and AF's ugly arrival. I don't even begin to understand how some of you ladies who have been TTCAL for far longer than me can keep up a positive disposition.Also, waves hey, Katharine!!! I've missed seeing you on NO although I do dirty lurk on your FB sometimes [:]. I love the new checkin, it's so awesome of you to do this for us crazies :

    :::: waves Hi back!!:::: I chart stalk you often!! I'm happy to see you around these parts, though I wish it was PgAL!!!
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    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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  • imagekatharine25:
    Your Level of Crazy on a scale of 1-10:  it's back to a 2 today

    CD /or DPO: 33/15dpo

    Can I just crawl in a hole and get AF already ?!?!!???? 

    Signs Symptoms Real Imagined: none

    Additional crazy rantings here: after 3 days of BFWTF's (very faint BFP's showing up after the 5 minute limit), I'm somewhat to relieved to see a BFN. I don't know why this keeps happening... FML. 

    Ugh, I'm so sorry hon.  Sad

    BFP #1:  8/10/11 EDD: 4/9/12 Natural miscarriage @ 7 weeks: 8/20/11
    BFP #2: 8/31/12 EDD: 5/18/13 Chemical pregnancy: 9/4/12
    BFP #3:  5/17/13  EDD: 1/24/14 Loss at 5 weeks: 5/29/13

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    Lots of testing, all clear with the exception of compound heterozygous for the MTHFR mutation. 

    Cycle 1: Femara, trigger shot, Bravelle added due to slow response = BFN
    Cycle 2: Cancelled due to two cysts =(
    Cycle 3: Femara, Bravelle, trigger shot and IUI = BFP then loss #3
    Cycle 4: Femara, Follistim, trigger shot and IUI = BFP!  EDD: 6/7/14

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    imageBootsOrHearts:

    . DH is starting to get a bit nutty this cycle too, every day he asks 'can you test now?'. It's not helping the craziness.

    awww <3 How sweet. My dh keeps touching my belly to say a prayer hoping we can get a bfp. Poor guys, it's hard for them too. My dh def has baby fever and notices babies/kids and points out how adorable they are and that he can't wait till we're pregnant again.

    He sounds like a sweetheart! You're very lucky. :-)

    **Warning: Losses and living child mentioned**
    BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
    BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
    BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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