Ok, I'm not pregnant again yet, but we are thinking about ttc in another 6 months or so (DD is 18mo now). The thing is, I don't know if I want to go through with it if I will have a high probability of another c/s. I don't want to be cut open again. I was treated like an animal and I feel like my daughter's birth was something that happened to me (as opposed to being an active participant). I know that any pregnancy can result in a c/s, but I really want to minimize my chances.
So here goes:
For DD I had gestational diabetes, and my OB advised an induction at 38
weeks. The GD was controlled with glyburide, and DD was measuring at the 50th
percentile, so I declined. They insisted that I needed to be induced prior to
40 weeks, so I agreed to an induction at 39w6d. I had been contracting about
every 5-6 minutes for about 5 hours before going in. I was 2cm, i don't know
how much effaced, and DD had not descended. I got induced with cervadil and
within 15 minutes began having major contractions. They got closer together and
very strong, so the cervadil was taken out after 30 minutes. I was having
full-strength 8 minute long back labor contractions with 45 seconds in between.
I was being monitored intermittently, and spent most of my time in the shower
and bouncing on my birthing ball. I did this for probably 6 hours (Idk exactly
how long, because time was kind of fuzzy). I had 1/2 of a sandwich about an
hour after I arrived because I was hungry and thought I would need the fuel
(despite them telling me I couldn't eat at all). Well when they tested my blood
sugar, it was slightly high, so they gave me an IV insulin drip. Then they said
with the insulin drip I had to be continuously monitored. So I was stuck by the
bed- no more shower. After several hours of those mutant contractions, I was
only 6 1/2cm, and DD had still not descended. I broke down. I asked for the
anesthesiologist and got an epidural. It was put in during a contraction since
there was no time to do it in between, and it didn't take fully on my right side.
In order to make the pain bearable on my right side, the epi had to be turned
up so high that I couldn't move or feel my left side at all. It was awful. The
epi completely stalled my labor and caused my blood pressure to drop, so they
loaded me up with tons of IV fluid and gave me pitocin. That caused LO's heart
rate to drop, so they turned off the epi and broke my water. When labor still
hadn't progressed they gave me more pit, and when LO's heart rate dropped
again, I was taken for a c/s 16 hours after I first got the cervadil.
In the OR I was not allowed to hold my baby, and when they brought her in to see me in recovery, I couldn?t sit up because my BP was too low, because I had lost a lot of blood, so I couldn?t latch her on laying flat on my back. I saw her for only about 5 minutes and they took her away when my BP dropped further. I remember drifting in and out of consciousness while the doctors debated giving me a blood transfusion. In the end I didn?t get one. It took about 4 hours to stabilize me, and I finally got to hold her. The hospital stay was horrible because we couldn?t afford the $850/night for a private room that would have allowed my DH to stay with us, so I was alone recovering from a major surgery and caring for a newborn with hospital staff that was downright barbaric.
I was in daily pain for 5 months after the c/s, and had some pain for about 9 months. The area of the incision still feels weird.
Needless to say that is not something I ever want to endure again, even though I have a happy, healthy baby to show for it. I want to trust my body, and I want to have a good chance of having my next baby the way nature intended. So what do you all think? Were the reasons I had a c/s likely to be an issue the second time around? I know there are no guarantees, but idk if I even want to get pregnant if there is a high probability for a repeat c/s.
Idk if the reason for my c/s would be classified as failure to progress or fetal distress, or if it was all due to the induction.
If you made it this far, thank you.
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