I find myself often wishing for a magic remote that takes me past this time of unhappiness like in the movie "Click". I was so happy before the pregnancy, overjoyed when I took the test, now I cant stop crying and being depressed and consumed by the thought of pregnancy. I know that every woman's experience is different. I was only 3 months pregnant, but my heart hurts sooooooooo bad. Almost every woman I know has had a mc. Why don't they tell u this when you get pregnant? How do u know what God wants for you? Should I start trying right away or wait? How can I tell what He wants over what I want? When I had my first son I was 19. I was so scared. I didn't know how I was going to provide for him by myself, but I found a way. I think if I have this on my heart and mind, then maybe that's what God wants me to do. Not worry about what might hold me back or let the bad things consume my life. My brothers wedding is in june, If I start trying again and it happens with a healthy pregnancy, then the birth would be in july along with the rest of my family (both my boys 6 and 9 yrs old, my husband and both his brothers). I would be 8 mos preg at my brothers wedding as a bridesmaid. Can u imagine that? lol How could something sooooo right, turn out to be sooo wrong? Im not worried about the inconveniences in my life because I feel that those are the things that help u to live. I just want my baby back. My doc tells me to wait until after my 1st period because of hormones and mental stability, but frankly I feel like I will be more mentally stable when I get pregnant again and sooner the better. Im going to wait till my 2 week check up next week to start trying again, but how do they expect me to wait longer when I keep hearing of women having such healthy pregnancies right after the mc. I dont want to miss my chance. I know I am all over with my feelings and what I'm talking about with this post. It's just what is in my head right now and I had to get it out. I don't really want to keep bombarding my family with my mc and my feelings so I figured why not pour my heart out to strangers that are going through the same thing I am. Thanks for listening. Oh and I see a lot of women are "sprinkling baby dust" on some boards that I've been on. So, if by chance that actually works, I wish you all are sprinkled with baby dust. God bless and keep the hope. I am trying too.