When the depressiona nd the daiily crying still happens almost 15 months after my traumatic c-section birth?
I think alot of the upset has to do with the holiday season coming up and it being a reminder of last year when I had to go back to work because I am the primary breadwinner for our family.
My daughter will likely be our first and only child as I had many medical issues during pregnancy and birth. The priority when at home is enjoying her, but I am over an hour drive from home while my husband has just a 5 minute commute to his job. also, he is very close to my daughter's daycare.I am the one that must drop her off and he gets to pick her up.
This is all so very hard, it upsets me every day and in turmn gets my husband very angry and hurt, Does this ever get easier? .
Re: Is it still postpartuum depression...
Man do I understand how you feel!
If this has been an ongoing issue since your birth- quite likely PPD. Regardless of what it is though, if you are crying everyday and depressed, you should get some help. No one should have to live in that state. It can get better! You need to reach out to your doctor or a therapist. The sooner you do that, the sooner you will feel better.
I also had a troubled pregnancy followed by a traumatic birth experience.(I had a c-section too). My son was due in Dec. and I was induced at Halloween instead. As soon as I see all the Halloween stuff out in the stores my mood gets a little gloomy. Anniversaries of traumatic events are difficult. It's totally normal to feel that way . I recently started back in therapy because this time of year always seems tough for me. That stress on top of having trouble TTC #2 and worry about horrible things happening again is just a lot for me to handle.
My son is almost 3 now. It does get easier, but it doesn't go away. No other pregnancy, no other experience will undo the hurt I feel over my sons birth, but with time it matters a lot less than it did before. I think therapy helped a lot with that. It takes work to manage your mental health. And I really feel like it gets a lot easier the moment you ask someone else for help. It's a tough step to admit you can't fix everything yourself but, as soon as you reach out, everything will feel a little bit easier.
Owen Matthew 11/1/2009 4lbs 10oz 16.5in
Born 5 weeks early by C/S | Severe Pre-Eclampsia
BFP #2 5/1/2011 | M/C @ 7 weeks | D&C 5/25/2011
TTC #2 | HSG Clear | SA 2% Morph otherwise great
3 failed Femara/TI cycles moving on to IUI
I would say yes!
I also had a c-section and had some troubles with different things. My PPD/PPA kicked me in my face 7 months PP. 27 months later...still dealing with it and still on my meds and seeing my shrink and therapist. She told me we could deal with it for a good 2-3 years after the birth. I am slowing weaning off one of my meds now, but it has been a long process and I still cry and have issues. I still think I have a long road to go too...
Keep your head up...things will get better, one day! By the way...your LO's are super cute!
Mom to Carter (6), and Calianne (1).
Proud VBAC, natural birth, breastfeeding, cloth diapering momma!
I am going through the same thing right now. About 6 weeks PP, I was in a full blown tail spin of PPD. It was horrible, dark, and a time I'd like to never repeat again. I started medication and immediately started feeling better, and I could make decision, and not feel so pathetic and apart of normal member of society.
Now my LO is almost 7 months and I feel like I'm started to head down that road again. The past few weeks have been really difficult as I've gone through a lot of different changes with my mom. She had been watching my LO a few days a week and due to some of her poor decisions, I'm now having to put LO in daycare. This is a big change, that was alot sooner than I was expecting.
I had a terrible birthing experience and as for us too, DS will likely be our only child. I've been back to work for a few months now, and I literally hate it. I mean, I have separation anxiety when I have to leave him, I cry every morning, and all day I worry and fret over what he's doing and invariably what I'm missing out on. Unfortunately, I have to work, but this is so hard. I just feel overwhelmed and frustrated and I can feel myself getting angry that I'm going to be missing these upcoming major mildstones.
Anyways, all this to say. I understand where you're coming from. I think it's totally possible to suffer with PPD even years after giving birth. It's such a big deal and an emotional experience, but unfortunately I think it carries this stigma of incompetence and untrusting. I'm hoping it gets easier for all of us mommies out there suffering and dealing.