I don't even care if anyone reads this but Ive got to let some of this go. For the most part Ive done really well with the loss and staying positive. My husband took it so super hard I really kept alot in trying to be supportive to him and not wanting to make it worse.
A close friend of mine and I, started trying at the same time. We got our + opks at the same time and our + pregnancy tests on the same day and of course we were due within days of each other. Well they got to find out the sex this weekend and posted beautiful sonigram pictures, seriously some of the clearest Ive ever seen that weren't 3D and all my walls came crashing down. That should be us this week too. I want to be running out this week to buy something pink or blue and announcing a name. I wanted to find out via a sonigram of a healthy, kicking, baby, not at my two week check up without warning because they did chromosome testing. A loss sucks regardless but prior to knowing it was a girl I thought and spoke of it in terms of losing a pregnancy. I was pretty detached to it all, but learning it was a girl meant I had to accept I didn't loose a pregnancy I lost a baby, our daughter. I didnt ask to know, I didn't want to know that I wanted to stay in my little detatched bubble.
Anyways, thank you if you made it through that. Knowing my friend and I should be celebrating together just really hurts today now time to wipe the tears and put on a happy face for work. We have a huge event and its biketoberfest here in FL which means LOTS of business so Ive got a lot to do today.
Re: Just a bad day (pregnancy/mentioned not mine)
(((Hugs))) honey. I'm sorry you had to find out that information that you weren't expecting. Maybe now that you know, you could give her a name. It might bring you a little peace. Sometimes I wish I knew the sex of my babies.
More (((hugs))) because I'm sorry you're hurting.
So sorry you are going through this. ((Hugs))! Did the dr ask if u wanted to know before telling you?
BFP #1 6/14/12 EDD 2/23/13, mm/c at 8w2d, D&C 8/1/12
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BFP #2: 8/31/12 EDD: 5/18/13 Chemical pregnancy: 9/4/12
BFP #3: 5/17/13 EDD: 1/24/14 Loss at 5 weeks: 5/29/13
Lots of testing, all clear with the exception of compound heterozygous for the MTHFR mutation.
Cycle 1: Femara, trigger shot, Bravelle added due to slow response = BFN
Cycle 2: Cancelled due to two cysts =(
Cycle 3: Femara, Bravelle, trigger shot and IUI = BFP then loss #3
Cycle 4: Femara, Follistim, trigger shot and IUI = BFP! EDD: 6/7/14
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BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
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TTC since March 2010 ~ Dx Unexplained IF September 2011
2011: IUI + Clomid = CP#1
2012: 3 more IUIs + Clomid = 3 more CPs. One on-our-own pg, also CP
2013: BTB IUI + Lupron/Follistim/Prometrium/PIO = CP #6
IF testing, RPL testing, Autoimmune testing = all normal
So lost.
Missing my May Bloom baby: BFP 09/16/12. EDD 05/25/13 m/c 10/09/12
BFP#2 12/06/12 EDD 08/17/2013
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TTC since August 2011
BFP#1 3/16/12 EDD 11/21/12 Delivered 6/1/12 at 15 weeks 2 days
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together... Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever." ~ Winnie the Pooh
BFP#2 4/14/13 EDD 12/24/13 Please be our rainbow after the storm!





Beta#1 @ 15dpo 274, P4 16.9 Beta#2 @ 18dpo 940!! Doubling time of 40 hours!! u/s @ 6w2d showed a beautiful HB of 120! u/s @ 10w1d HB 174!! Grow, LO Grow!! Found out 7/22 we are TEAM BLUE!!
Zaiden Harper was born 12/22/13 at 1:46 am. 9lbs 8oz and 22in
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Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
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TTC Since 8/2011
BFP #1 5/13/12 * EDD 1/24/13 * MC at 7 wks 4 days on 6/11/12
BFP #2 5/13/13 * Current EDD 1/23/14
Baby N born 2/8/14
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #1 3.16.12. mmc 5.7.12 at 11 weeks ~Avery Cameron~
BFP #2 12.12.12. mmc 1.22.13 at 10 weeks ~Theodore Michael~
D&C #2 Chromosome analysis results: Translocation Trisomy 14
My RPL Testing: Homozygous MTHFR, normal karyotype
DH's karyotype results: Robertsonian Translocation 13:14
BFP #3 9.10.13 mc at 4 weeks~Our little May Flower~
BFP #4 10.13.13- Our Rainbow Baby, a little girl, arrived June 25, 2014!