I feel big. That is pretty much it. I look down at my belly, I think, "Wow. This is only half way there. And probably not really." And then I get freaked out.
I have gained weight, but I try not to get overly panicky. I gained about 10 pounds in the "before conception time" which was really hard on me, mentally. Last year I was really, really foxy. This year, I'm boxy and solid, like a Volvo. I've gained about 12 pounds from conception forward. Which sounds like a lot when I hear girls say they gained 2 or 7 or 9 pounds. But I know we are all different and our bodies are going to do pretty much what they want, although regular exercise and good eating habits are key.
My boobs are, well, enormous. They are big enough that my coworker said, "I don't want to say anything inappropriate, but your boobs are huge." I think it is that I am kind of a regular sized lady with huge ta-tas. I made a joke that they over-shadow my belly and probably my belly will never stick out more than my boobs do. They could shelter small countries under their vast reach.
I really, really want to be able to get back to some level of fitness. I had my last baby 10 years ago and gained most of my weight after the baby was born and have always gone up and down 15 or 20 lbs, sometimes looking fit and awesome, sometimes being "regular."
I know this is a non-issue, in the end. I am lucky, lucky, lucky to have a baby in me, so don't get me wrong. Anyway, I just wanted to reach out and say this for anyone who feels nervous about being just plain "bigger." You are not alone! And there are plenty of people who are gaining weight, I know. : )
Ha! There's my picture!!!!! That fish is 3.7 lbs. Baby should be twice that big, which is roughly 11 times larger than my head, if we allow for optical illusions and perspective. : )
Lots of people on FB were oohing and ahhing over my belly, which is kind of awesome, but seems to have taken over overnight.
CageyMack
37, married to my favorite person in the world, DW! One darling surfer-girl (12) and one darling, sweet boy born 3/16/13.
5/2013 Started TTC #3, DW's turn: 5/2013: Diagnostics (shg) and surgery (polyp rem.) for best chances. July-Oct: IUI # 1-4, medicated, monitored, triggered. All BFN. IVF in Jan May. Sheesh. Whoop! IVF#1 cycle started 4/2/14. 5/1: 19 eggs retrieved, 8 matured, ICSI'd. 4 fertilized. Only 2 to transfer/freeze stage. 5/6: Two embryos transferred. 5/15: Beta #1 9dp5dt is 134! BFP! 5/19: Beta #2 13dp5dt is 672! B'erFP! 5/21: Beta #3 15dp5dt is 1853. Yay!
"Things separate from their stories have no meaning. They are only shapes. Of a certain size and color. A certain weight. When their meaning has become lost to us they no longer have even a name. The story on the other hand can never be lost from its place in the world for it is that place.” ― Cormac McCarthy, The Crossing
Re: Well, now I feel big. How about you?
Edited to fix pic snafu. Sorry, ladies!
CageyMack
37, married to my favorite person in the world, DW! One darling surfer-girl (12) and one darling, sweet boy born 3/16/13.
5/2013 Started TTC #3, DW's turn: 5/2013: Diagnostics (shg) and surgery (polyp rem.) for best chances. July-Oct: IUI # 1-4, medicated, monitored, triggered. All BFN. IVF in Jan May. Sheesh. Whoop! IVF#1 cycle started 4/2/14. 5/1: 19 eggs retrieved, 8 matured, ICSI'd. 4 fertilized. Only 2 to transfer/freeze stage. 5/6: Two embryos transferred. 5/15: Beta #1 9dp5dt is 134! BFP! 5/19: Beta #2 13dp5dt is 672! B'erFP! 5/21: Beta #3 15dp5dt is 1853. Yay!
"Things separate from their stories have no meaning. They are only shapes. Of a certain size and color. A certain weight. When their meaning has become lost to us they no longer have even a name. The story on the other hand can never be lost from its place in the world for it is that place.” ― Cormac McCarthy, The Crossing
I think we all have that freakout moment when we start feeling big, and no matter how happy/excited/overjoyed someone is to have a miracle growing in them, that doesn't stop the freakout/minor anxiety about your body doing its own thing. And like you said, we all know we are going to gain weight and get bigger but that doesn't change what's in our heads. I promise, for every woman on here that's gained 2 lbs by 20 weeks, there is another one who has gained 20 lbs by 20 weeks.
With DD I gained 65 lbs, I had gained 25 lbs by 24 weeks- not a good situation. No working out, eating like crap, etc. etc. This time around I had only gained 2 lbs at 16 weeks, my doctor told me to eat and I did... And I gained 10 lbs in a month... You will see growth spurts in your LO (and in yourself as well).
Any level of fitness now is good, I used to run a lot and lift weights 6 days a week- my body pretty much gave my the big "haha, you're funny" when I tried running past 8 weeks, just didn't work. So now I will do the eliptical and lift light weights as much as I can, eat healthy (most of the time) and hope for the best. You've been through this before so you know you're gonna get big regardless, it's just how you handle it in your head now.
Your post came right on time. I had my freakout moment yesterday as I was cleaning out my closet making room for fall/winter clothes (that I can still fit) and packing up workout clothes I can no longer fit. I had a mini breakdown when I realized I could only still wear about 3-4 pairs of my jeans (and 2 REQUIRE the Bella Band).
As PP said, I'm sure almost every pregnant woman goes through it. If it makes you feel better, I workout 6 days a week (still able to do my pre pregnancy routine :-)) and watch what I eat and although I'm in the appropriate weight gain range, I'm on the high end. As someone who has never had problems maintaining her weight, I used to feel like I was doing something wrong when I would read the boards and women who were 18-20 weeks claimed to have lost weight, gained no weight or only gained a pound or two. All you can do is what you think is best for you and your baby.
Finally, I think we always think that we're bigger than we are. I always get the comment that I look small to be as far along as I am. I'm sure people are looking at you thinking the same thing. I love your pic and based on how far along you are, you don't look big to me. :-)
Funny thread.. I'll play
Now I'm starting to show I'm getting all freaked-out too, since where I'm at now seems to be a comfortable size and I'd like to stay this way, thank-you-very-much.
I think the boobs/belly thing is all an optical illusion, to be honest. My boobs are MASSIVE right now (as in, an 'H' cup size isn't cutting it and I'm dangerously close to outgrowing my generously-sized Bravado nursing bra) ... which makes my bump look little by comparison. ... Yay? My co-workers STILL don't have any idea I'm almost 5 mos. along!
But even this last week I feel like my bump's been growing at an increased rate, which I understand is going to happen and will only get worse the further along I am. Blarg.
I'll just say from the other side - I'm plus sized - always have been since grade-school and have always struggled with it.
I am so jealous of all of you that have cute baby-bumps... My co-worker is due 1 day after me and we'd stand next to each other and people ask when she is due and she says "March 12 - 1 day after her!" and they look at me like, "oh- I thought you just eat too many doughnuts"
I understand freaking out over having a major difference in body type suddenly but it is amazing and I wish people knew I was pregnant and not just fatter than I always have been... You all are lucky.
Haha! I am with you. I also was trying to lose 10 lbs before getting pregnant which makes me feel even more "in the hole" when I think of losing that and much more. My jeans haven't fit. Since about 8 weeks cause I wore them super tight in the first place and felt too darn bloated. And today my 34 DD became a 38 D when I bought my first granny bra (my husband could not stop laughing when he saw it). I am super excited to have this little one but I love fashion and its hard playing the guessing game every morning to figure out which clothes still fit.
Oh! And one of my coworkers told me they forgot I was pregnant. She said she noticed that my face was getting round and she thought I was just gaining weight. And then she told me it all made since cause she remembered. Thank you, rude coworker. Lol