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I just woke my sleeping little girl to hold her.

Lauren79Lauren79 member
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I was checking out what has been happening on facebook today.  So many of my friends we talking about a little boy who died from brain cancer today.  I haven't lived in NY for almost 7 years so I am out of the loop. 

I looked up this little boy.  Saddest story ever.  His mother has a blog and updates it almost daily.  I started crying and I just needed to go get my daughter.  I sat and rocked her for about 45 minutes.  It's like she knew something was wrong and was holding me tightly back.

I was crying for the little boy and I think for myself.  It scares me to think of anything happening to my baby and my only baby.  I freak out at the thought of never having more and then what if something happens to my only baby.  Ugh, all this can be so scary. 

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  • SigmundsGirlSigmundsGirl
    HUGS!!! I think that is every mother's fear. My heart goes out to you and the mother of that little boy.

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  • jeannaqueenajeannaqueena member

    I have 3 friends who have a friend that just had twins.  It seems like one twin is fine and the other is having major complications and surgeries in all of their stories.  It has been really heartbreaking seeing all their stories on FB or hearing about them recently.  It does make me hold my healthy happy boy tighter.

    But, I still long for a sibling for my son and another baby to fill my heart.

     

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  • SigmundsGirlSigmundsGirl
    imageLeahB12:
    Poor little boy. I agree that it's every mother's fear. I've been having dreams lately of somehow getting separated from DS. I hate them. I wake up feeling terrified. Such a horrible feeling.
    Me too. I've had 2 in the last week. And I have never had dreams like this before. Miserable.

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  • Melis-n-MikeMelis-n-Mike member
    imageLauren79:

    I was checking out what has been&nbsp;happening on facebook today.&nbsp; So many of my friends we talking about a little boy who died from brain cancer today.&nbsp; I haven't lived in NY for almost 7 years so I am out of the loop.&nbsp;


    I looked up this little boy.&nbsp; Saddest story ever.&nbsp; His mother has a blog and updates it almost daily.&nbsp; I started crying and I just needed to go get my daughter.&nbsp; I sat and rocked her for about 45 minutes.&nbsp; It's like she knew something was wrong and was holding me tightly back.


    I was crying for the little boy and I think for myself.&nbsp; It scares me to think of anything happening to my baby and my only baby.&nbsp; I freak out at the thought of never having more and then what if something happens to my only baby.&nbsp; Ugh, all this can be so scary.&nbsp;


    I used to be a regular on here before I had my daughter....I was just lurking and saw this post. I know the family who lost that beautiful little boy. Just wondering where you are from in ny?

    I was crying for the little boy and I think for myself.&nbsp; It scares me to think of anything happening to my baby and my only baby.&nbsp; I freak out at the thought of never having more and then what if something happens to my only baby.&nbsp; Ugh, all this can be so scary.&nbsp;


    I used to be a regular on here before I had my daughter....I was just lurking and saw this post. I know the family who lost that beautiful little boy. Its just a devastating situation, that I couldn't imagine having to be in myself! The family is asking for all of us to do exactly what you did, give your child that extra hug, let them jump in puddles, give them that extra piece of candy, and just let them be young and carefree! Just wondering where you are from in ny?
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  • Lauren79Lauren79 member

    One of my best friends lives in Pawling which I think is where the little boy is from.  I am from Peekskill and lived in White Plains as I was older.  I went to JFK in Somers.  Where are you from? 

     

     

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  • ceebeeteeceebeetee member
    That's so odd bc there is a similar situation here in ky. The little boy here passed away last night and it has been all over fb. I read that he was diagnosed with cancer on the day my son was born, so it has really stuck with me how fleeting life is. In the day we were celebrating my sons birth this other family was getting devastating, life changing news.
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  • Melis-n-MikeMelis-n-Mike member
    imageLauren79:
    One of my best friends lives in Pawling which I think is where the little boy is from.nbsp;nbsp;I am from Peekskill and lived innbsp;White Plains as I was older.nbsp; I went to JFK in Somers.nbsp;nbsp;Where are you from?nbsp;
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    i grew up in Pawling, but no longer live there. What is your friends name? It's such a small world! I also had heard about the little boy in KY the passed away from cancer also...it's so sad such young children being taken before they are able to live their lives!!
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