Got off work at 3:30.  Came home, laid on the couch and thought, "Hm, Chinese food sounds great right now."  Googled different Chinese delivery places around me and picked one.  Ordered $13 worth of fried, fatty food.  Watched YouTube videos while eating said fatty fat fat food.  Husband came home, laughs at my funny ways.  Then asks if (TMI ahead) we can "have some fun 
 ."  Um, I just ate a crap load of gross food and now you want to have sex?  What?!  So I go upstairs, thinking he got the message, and he didn't (sex on the brain = a man without ears).  He said, lets just cuddle.  We cuddle and he still is acting like we're going to do it.  I get all sad and teary because he isn't listening to me.  He says he's ok, but he isn't acting like he's ok.
."  Um, I just ate a crap load of gross food and now you want to have sex?  What?!  So I go upstairs, thinking he got the message, and he didn't (sex on the brain = a man without ears).  He said, lets just cuddle.  We cuddle and he still is acting like we're going to do it.  I get all sad and teary because he isn't listening to me.  He says he's ok, but he isn't acting like he's ok.  
I am so angry at myself for eating all this crap, not doing anything when I got home, and then not fulfilling my husbands needs. Bah!!!! I hate it! I wish I could let go and give myself a break, but I feel like I need to give 100% all the freaking time. Sorry for the long rant...I don't even know if this made sense!
Re: I am so disgusted with myself.
Cut yourself some slack. It's ok to indulge yourself sometimes, and to NOT indulge your husband sometimes.
January PAL siggie challenge; Good advice:
Dont feel bad. Most of us all feel like garbage right now.
Maybe throw him a nice little hand whammy next time
DX: PCOS/Recurrent losses/MTHFR mutation (compound hetero)
5 hysteroscopies/2 surgical
3 Inject IUIs = 2 m/c's and 1 BFN
IVF #1= BFP. m/c at 7w6d. Needed 2 D&C's and scar tissue removal. Mild OHSS
IVF #2 = BFP. Severe OHSS. 4 Drainings. TWINS!
You have no reason to be upset with yourself. So you ate some unhealthy food and sat on the couch all afternoon. Who cares? If that's what you wanted to do, that is absolutely alright.
And I hate guys who get all pissy because their partner doesn't want to have sex.
Omg this made me laugh so hard. Excellent suggestion!
Me: PCOS, DH: normal
Started seeing RE 11/10/2011
8/31/2012 = BFP!!
First Ultrasound... TRIPLETS! EDD 5/11/13
Baby w/ no HB @ 10w4d - We love you angel baby.
Baby A & B doing great. A/S 12/10/12 - Healthy BOYS!
Sawyer & Silas born at 33+6 on 3/29/13
+1 to this! I completely understand feeling gross, but don't beat yourself up too much.
BFP #2 9/5/2012 -- Born 5/20/2013 -- Welcome, rainbow baby!
BFP #1 1/24/12 -- No HB 2/16/12 -- Misoprostol 3/10/12
That's my favorite line so far today. Hand whammy!!! The best. You need to have a word of the day from here on out.
I needed a laugh bc DS is les mis right now and it's early beddy bye time tonight! Grrr
Lol, sorry girls. I have a really fresh mouth. I hope it keeps everyone amused and not offended.
I blame it on coming from a family of truck drivers
DX: PCOS/Recurrent losses/MTHFR mutation (compound hetero)
5 hysteroscopies/2 surgical
3 Inject IUIs = 2 m/c's and 1 BFN
IVF #1= BFP. m/c at 7w6d. Needed 2 D&C's and scar tissue removal. Mild OHSS
IVF #2 = BFP. Severe OHSS. 4 Drainings. TWINS!
My husband has explained to me a few times that he always wants to have sex no matter how he feels. Like not wanting to have sex just does not compute. Now that hasn't kept me from using the "I'm nauseous" card multiple times over the past few weeks, but makes me feel a little sympathetic for the guy!
First comes love, next comes marriage, then comes...
FWIW, keep the trucker mouth going!