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All aboard the TTCAL Crazy Train!! 

Vent about your cycle, symptoms, MF, 5dpo BFN's and all things related to WTF your body is doing that is making you pull your hair out!

 

Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 

CD &/or DPO:

Can I just _______________ Already!!   

Signs & Symptoms: 

Additional Crazy Vent here:

 

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10:  10!! FF took away my crosshairs and I don't even know if I ovulated anymore!!! So mad!!

    CD &/or DPO: CD 26

    Can I just _______________ Already!!  Know what the fluck my body is doing?

    Signs & Symptoms: NOTHING! No AF symptoms, no PG symptoms. I'm effing tired, but I've been working overtime all week and going home and drinking wine, so I'm blaming that. I also feel llike I'm geting a cold.

    Additional Crazy Vent here: AAARRRRGGGGG ***SMASH***  pout. The end. I'm scared I'm still not "normal" from my stupid loss/D&C shenanigans.

    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 5.  I've calmed down significantly since yesterday. 

    CD &/or DPO: CD36/ 6DPO

    Can I just _______________ Already!! POAS/get a BFP 

    Signs & Symptoms: Fairly significant twinges yesterday, but they're much lighter today.  DH told me last night that my areolas looked darker, which of course made me stop and go "whattttt?". 

    Additional Crazy Vent here: This week is crawling by.  C-R-A-W-L-I-N-G.

  • imagekatharine25:

    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 10

    CD &/or DPO: 12 dpo

    Can I just get to my beta on Friday or get a BFP Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: My boobs look HUGE and my temp skyrocketed. Thank you progesterone for messing with my brain. 

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I stalked FF again looking at charts. Getting a negative at 12dpo and then a positive yielded 1000+ charts. BFN at 13dpo and then a positive...was only about 200. Cue irrational panic...you know because FF's chart gallery dictates getting pregnant or not...

    MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
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    born: 9/11/13

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    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10:  10!! FF took away my crosshairs and I don't even know if I ovulated anymore!!! So mad!!

    CD &/or DPO: CD 26

    Can I just _______________ Already!!  Know what the fluck my body is doing?

    Signs & Symptoms: NOTHING! No AF symptoms, no PG symptoms. I'm effing tired, but I've been working overtime all week and going home and drinking wine, so I'm blaming that. I also feel llike I'm geting a cold.

    Additional Crazy Vent here: AAARRRRGGGGG ***SMASH***  pout. The end. I'm scared I'm still not "normal" from my stupid loss/D&C shenanigans.

    I am sorry pkaren.  I would want to break something too. 

    MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
    Rainbow Violet 
    born: 9/11/13

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  • imagepkaren:
    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 110:nbsp; 10!! FF took away my crosshairs and I don't even know if I ovulated anymore!!! So mad!!
    CD amp;/or DPO: CD 26


    FWIW I think ff took them away because you don't have a lot of preO temps, and you current temps are dropping below the ones you are open circles, ergo the cover line was probably set a bit too high. Your cover is around 36.3 to 36.4
    That said, I think you'll probably get AF soon :X
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    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
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  • imageLSzwaya:
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    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 10

    CD &amp;/or DPO: 12 dpo

    Can I just get to my beta on Friday or get a BFP Already!! &nbsp;&nbsp;

    Signs &amp; Symptoms: My boobs look HUGE and my temp skyrocketed. Thank you progesterone for messing with my brain.&nbsp;

    Additional Crazy Vent here:&nbsp;I stalked FF again looking at charts. Getting a negative at 12dpo and then a positive yielded 1000+ charts. BFN at 13dpo and then a positive...was only about 200. Cue irrational panic...you know because FF's chart gallery dictates getting pregnant or not...


    Why are you not my FF friend?!?! Please friend request me so I can stalk you!!!
    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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  • imageRosiePeare:
    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 110: I'm actually down to about a 56 this morning. Notnbsp;POAS today has improved my mental status.CD amp;/or DPO:nbsp;13dpiuiCan I just get a BFPnbsp;Already!! I might be calmer, but it doesn't mean I want that BFP any less!nbsp; nbsp;Signs amp; Symptoms:nbsp;Oh, you know, everything that could be attributed to progesterone, or AF coming, or MF, or pregnancy: cramps, gas, peeing more, hunger, etc., etc....nbsp;Additional Crazy Vent here:nbsp;I think part of the reason I'm so calm is because I scoured FF yesterday for charts that "prove" I could still be pregnant.nbsp;

    You too Rosie!! I need your chart!
    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
    <3 Baby Boy Born 8/22/13 <3
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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 9

    CD &/or DPO:about 11dpo

    Can I just ____Get to Friday___________ Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: watery mouth continues, slight twinges on my left side yesterday, same side as O pains earlier in the month.  I also woke up feeling sort of yucky and tired. 

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I POAS yesterday, at 4:30pm, with urine that was practically clear...WTF was I thinking Hmm, the BFN was not a surprise!  At least I only wasted a wondfo!

    BFP #1 4/10/12 D&C 6/5/12@ 12.5wks EDD 12/17/12
    BFP #2 9/10/12 CP 9/19/12@ 5.5wks EDD 5/21/13
    BFP# 3 12/3/12...Lukas James born 8/15/13
    BFP# 4 8/4/14 EDD 4/13/15

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     Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10:  10

    CD &/or DPO: No clue. D and C was 8/16/12 and then natural m/c on 9/13/12. so I guess I am cd 34?

    Can I just _get  my period_ Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: so emotional, cranky and so over being a woman!

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I would just love my body to be back to normal. Is that too much to ask for to get a period? lol

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: I think I calmed down slightly since yesterday somehow, so I will go with a 6-7 although that may change throughout the day.  

    CD &/or DPO: 11dpo

    Can I just _______________ Already!!   POAS/Get a BFP!!
     

    Signs & Symptoms: I don't even know anymore....boobs seem heavier, hungry, breaking out, bloated, moody/emotional, tired, slight twinges.....could all just be AF arriving soon.

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I keep going back and forth about when to test...I was going to test tomorrow morning, but my DH really thinks I should wait until Sunday since that was my initial plan. AF is *probably* due on Saturday, so that would be after a missed period (provided she doesn't show). I somehow have made my crazy brain convinced that by testing now I am somehow increasing my chances of AF not showing up and if I wait, she will come on Saturday. Because you all know that POAS can make you pregnant and can keep AF away, right? **head hitting desk**  I need to stop with the crazy.

     

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 110: 1 during the day, 8 at night
    CD/or DPO: CD4, AF is packing up and should be gone in a few hours.
    Can I just _get a BFP_ Already!! Signs Symptoms: not a thing
    Additional Crazy Vent here: can't stand to be alone right now, hence the crazy nights DH is at work. I'd be 35/35 on Friday, the closer I get to my EDD, the suckier it all seems.
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  • imagekatharine25:
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    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 10

    CD &/or DPO: 12 dpo

    Can I just get to my beta on Friday or get a BFP Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: My boobs look HUGE and my temp skyrocketed. Thank you progesterone for messing with my brain. 

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I stalked FF again looking at charts. Getting a negative at 12dpo and then a positive yielded 1000+ charts. BFN at 13dpo and then a positive...was only about 200. Cue irrational panic...you know because FF's chart gallery dictates getting pregnant or not...

    Why are you not my FF friend?!?! Please friend request me so I can stalk you!!!

    How do I do this??!? 

    MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
    Rainbow Violet 
    born: 9/11/13

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 8

    CD &/or DPO: 10dpo

    Can I just _______________ Already!!   POAS

    Signs & Symptoms: Sore boobs, bloated

    Additional Crazy Vent here: My crazy level is down significantly from yesterday (11 yesterday), but still pretty high.  DH came up to me last night and felt my stomach and was like "yeah I totally think something is in there" - yeah, because you can tell that from feeling my stomach this early in the game...silly boys.

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 7 

    CD &/or DPO: CD21/DPO 6

    Can I just __POAS_____________ Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: ugh I don't even kow any more, all of my mind fetus symptoms seemed to have disappeared

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I keep playing the "what if" game, what if I get pg this cycle my due date will be etc, I've been driving myself crazy!

     

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    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: Last night 10, this morning about 6

    CD &/or DPO: CD 40

    Can I just _______________ Already!! Get AF, get my body back to normal, something!

    Signs & Symptoms: Any AF or MF symptom you can think of. Headaches, tiredness, being hungry, bad acid reflux, etc.

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I've never had a cycle longer than like 30 days, so this is driving me crazy. I just want to know what is going on. If I am going to have a longer cycle, so be it, I just want to know. 



  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 5, and growing quickly

    CD &/or DPO: 5DPO

    Can I just _get a BFP_____ Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: Nothing yet

    Additional Crazy Vent here: My OPK and FF are showing I O'd early this cycle.  That gave DH and I zero time (well, 1 day) to BD... that's it.  I feel like my chances of a BFP this cycle just went way down!!!

    BFP #1: 3/3/12, EDD: 11/11/12, Missed M/C: 4/3/12 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 4/6/12
    BFP #2: 6/29/12, EDD: 3/8/13, Natural M/C: 7/16/12 @ 6 weeks 2 days
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    BFP #3: Kendall Grace, born 9/30/13
    BFP #4: 9/3/14, EDD: 5/16/15, Missed M/C: 10/6/14 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 10/8/14
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  • imagekatharine25:
    imagepkaren:
    Your Level of Crazy on scale of 110:nbsp; 10!! FF took away my crosshairs and I don't even know if I ovulated anymore!!! So mad!! CD amp;/or DPO: CD 26
    FWIW I think ff took them away because you don't have a lot of preO temps, and you current temps are dropping below the ones you are open circles, ergo the cover line was probably set a bit too high. Your cover is around 36.3 to 36.4 That said, I think you'll probably get AF soon :X

    Thanks Katharine, I was thinking/hoping that was what was going on. I wasn't able to temp regularily this month, so it threw things off. I do feel like I did O, and I'm pretty sure AF is on her way bc of those temps. I just didn't want her to come too soon just so that I would have a regular LP.

    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
    BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: Currently about 7.5 

    CD &/or DPO: CD 16

    Can I just _______________ Already!!   Ovulate, please and thank you. I had EWCM on Sunday and Monday and watery yesterday. I typically have a temp dip the day before O, which happened on Monday. I totally expected and nice jump today, but it went down.

    Signs & Symptoms: CM is creamy and CP is more on the firm side.

    Additional Crazy Vent here: The u/s tech was out at my doctor's office on Monday, so they sent me to an outside facility to do my monitoring appointment. When I asked the girl about follicles, I got the standard, "I just take the pictures. The radiologist will read it and give the report to your doctor." Because they had to send me out, I had to reschedule the original appt with my doc from Monday to tomorrow (he just got back from vacation, so that was the first thing they could get me in for), so I have no idea if the clomid did anything (he did not have me doing a trigger shot this month) so I am flying blind, and so afraid this cycle will turn into another marathon 78 day cycle like my last one.

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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 6
    CD &/or DPO: 1

    Can I just have sexy time Already!!

    Signs & Symptoms: Lots of cramps, heartburn

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I just started AF after my m/c and it showed up exactly 30 days later. I'm on the crazy trail b/c I've never been so excited to start AF, I actually have a huge, silly smile on my face.

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    BFP #1: EDD 4/16/13~~blighted ovum w/ 2 gestational sacs~~Loss on 9/18/12
    BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
    9/13, 10/13, 1/14: letrozole + trigger + TI = All BFNs
    3/14: IUI#1 letrozole/Bravelle/Menopur + trigger = BFN
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  • Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 5
    CD &/or DPO: 11

    Can I just get excited Already!!

    Signs & Symptoms: Not a gosh darned thing [>:(]

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I am actually feeling crazy because I am not being crazy. Seriously. Follow me here... I feel almost disconnected from this cycle. Previous cycles I would obsess, and stare at my chart for absurd amounts of time, and scour FF for charts like mine that ended up in pregnancy (even before O... crazy) This cycle, I'm just wicked chill about it, too chill though. I'm actually starting to worry that I'm not caring enough. WTF? Maybe it *is* time to call a therapist, but I feel extra ridiculous calling a therapist because I'm not feeling crazy enough. I think I've officially lost my mind.


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    BFP#2 10/30/12 EDD 7/12/13 CP 11/2/12 
    BFP#3 11/29/12 EDD 8/10/13 CP 12/2/12 
    BFP#4 12/26/12 EDD 9/7/13 
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  •  Your Level of Crazy on scale of 1-10: 6 today since I finally got a positive OPK last night and this morning

    CD &/or DPO: CD 27

    Can I just ovulate Already!!   

    Signs & Symptoms: positive OPK, watery cm

    Additional Crazy Vent here: I'm so excited to get a positive OPK, now I just have to NOT think about the fact that my RE was off by over a week on when I would ovulate and what exactly that means...


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