So yeah. Thanks FB. Pg mentioned. Whiny, Vent.
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I can't do this anymore. I seriously can not bare it. I have been so good and even made through our loss anniversary with no issue.
The end of last year and beginning of this year we were staying with a friend. He needed help paying bills and we needed a place to live while we were in the process of buying the house that ended up falling through anyway.
He couldn't afford his bills because his tramp of a wife cheated and moved out to "find herself". She left him and their daughter behind while she went out all the time partying. She is 27. He is 29. Their daughter will be five in December.
I really hate that she is 7 weeks right now because she DOES NOT deserve another kid. She rarely spends time with Lillian. Last year right before Christmas she showed $500 dollars worth of clothes she bought for herself. Then a week later the had one Barbie and a few sets of clothes for Lillain to open for Christmas. I understand it isn't about presents but, seriously? You can spend hundreds on yourself and can't buy your kid stuff. She also started TTC right after she moved back in in Feb. Didn't bother to quit smoking and was just at our party not 2 weeks ago smoking and drinking like a fish. Yeah so this is killing me. Besides the fact that I hate her with every fiber of my being, now she gets yet another wonderful gift.
I am thinking I am going back on birth control and ceasing all things TTC. I am tired. I am worn. My head says throw in the towel and my heart says just a little longer. I feel so very alone.
Re: So yeah. Thanks FB. Pg mentioned. Whiny, Vent.
I think you're completely justified in how you feel. I do believe in second chances for people, but that doesn't make this kind of news any easier. I just hope that she gets her priorities straight.
Me too. The why is the hardest part. Thank you so much. I hope you are right!! Thank for being there.
It has been a thought in my head for a little while now. Sometimes my H is so understanding and there for me and sometimes I just feel completely alone. My family doesn't get me. I am lucky to have one friend that does but, we aren't close (She is married to one of my H friends so I have only known her a few years and seen them a hand full of times). I do have you ladies and that makes me smile. Just know that I am always here for you!
Yeah, I could give you a list as long as my arm of examples of her being selfish and immature. I just don't get it and I struggle with that.
BFP #1 12/29/10 EDD 08/29/11 Blighted Ovum 02/09/11 D&C 02/11/11
Clomid 50mg BFP #2 09/21/11 EDD 05/29/11 Chemical Pregnancy 10/4/11
BFP #3 4/19/13 Beta1- 106 Beta2- 524 Beta3- 3500 EDD 12/22/13 LO born 12/31/13
Thank you everyone, hugs all around. Glad I have somewhere where people get it.
((((HUGS)))
I'm so so sorry you're feeling this way but I don't blame you at all. I really wish I could make it better. Really. This crap is so unfair, it was never supposed to be so hard.
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BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
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BFP #1 – March 2011, missed m/c April 2011
BFP #2 – October 2011, m/c November 2011
Surprise BFP #3 – December 2011, diagnosed as cornual, terminated January 2012
BFP #4 – June 2012, m/c July 2012
Diagnosed with bicornuate ute and MTHR gene mutation
BFP #5 – October 2012, missed m/c November 2012
BFP #6 – January 2013, m/c March 2013
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June 2013 - Carrier found! Could this really happen?!
~All AL always welcome~
BFP #1 07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
TTA for 7 months
Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
TTC Again May 2014
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SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results
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I wonder the same thing, except I wonder if I should just stop because I don't see it happening.
It is SO unfair for all of us. It is just so sucky.
Everything I do seems to be a struggle, it would be great if one thing wasn't so hard and painful.
Thanks Jenn, hugs back to you.
It makes me feel better I am not alone, thank you ladies!