Dont want one and done

Re: Dont want one and done

• jeannaqueena member

  October 2012

  Girl, we are so in line with each other this month.  I am not my usual hopeful self around ovulation.  I think last month's BFN really hit me hard and I keep looking at my DS and thinking he is it.  

  I hope at least one of us gets a BFP this month!  

  TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
  BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
  3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
  TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
  BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
  Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
  Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
  Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
  Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
  Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
  Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
  Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
  Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
  Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie

  Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home

  Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16
  

  
  

  
  

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• gault530 member

  October 2012

  It sucks, there is no way around it.  How many months have you been trying this time?  The good news is you know you can get pregnant and carry a baby to term.  There are a lot of women that don't even know if that's possible. 

  Have you talked with your RE about how many IUIs you'll do until stopping or moving on?  Have you and DH talked about IVF or adoption? 

  

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• AprilDrew04 member

  October 2012

  I'm getting the feeling it may not be for us either.  I will probably go back to looking into adoption this November (after this cycle).  It took us 37 months, a surgery, and lots of meds to get DD.  This time we are at about 29 months of trying, but with no prospects of anything that will improve our situation.  DH has a really low sperm count, and meds didn't help it this time.  So we are giving IUI a try for a few cycles, then I think we are done actively ttc.  If that ends up being the case I want to adopt an infant/baby, as soon as we can.

   

  DD conceived after 3 years of ttc.

  MFI - DH had varicocele repair and took Clomid to get DD b. 02/2010

  TTC #2 since 6/2010
  10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
  A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013. 
  DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair. 
  Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies. 
  Wishing, hoping, waiting.
  

  
  

  

  

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• 74dragonfly member

  October 2012

  This was cycle 7 post miscarriage. I ovulate on my own and DH has great SA. I responded really well to Femera 50mg. The Dr thinks that I have a good chance for success. That said after three IUI I'd like to do IVF. In my mind if we don't have success by the Spring I will stop trying. For me I'm getting emotionally to the end.

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

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• gault530 member

  October 2012

  We didn't do IUIs (DH has 1% morphology, so it wasn't an option), but after many cycles with meds, moving to IVF finally made me feel like we found the answer.  I was really down and we waited a year to do the IVF (to save $$, we're 100% oop) but once we started I felt like we were on the right path. 

  Have you thought about seeing a counselor that deals with IF?  I see one and she has been so helpful in helping me with my issues.  She reminds me to focus on the now and not the "what if" because I can only control and deal with the now.  It's been very helpful!

  

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• ceebeetee member

  October 2012

  i have this feeling a lot.  although we haven't been trying as long as you have, it is one of my greatest fears that I will never be pregnant again, never get the chance to try to have the birth/delivery that i wanted but wasn't able to have with DS, never nurse a baby again, never be able to give DS a biological sibling....it sucks.  i hate that i am in this position and that everyone on this board is as well.  

  TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
  BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
  

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• baybreezer

  October 2012

  I'm on that same train. My DS is such a funny, charming, handsome little guy and I so want to see what any other children we have together would be like. And he's be such a good big brother. He loves babies and it makes me sad to see him so interested in babies knowing I can't seem to have another one.
  

  
  
  TTC #2 since June 2011
  Dx: low AMH, potentially blocked tube
  April-May cycles 50mg Clomid: BFN
  June-July cycles 50mg Clomid + Ovidrel + Progesterone: BFN
  Aug cycle 7.5mg Letrozole + Ovidrel + Progesterone: BFN
  Sept cycle 100mg Clomid + Follistim + Progesterone: BFN
  Oct cycle Clomid + Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI: ?????

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• 74dragonfly member

  October 2012

  Thank you. It is great having people understand.

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

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• cislebride07

  October 2012

  I think this everyday.  I feel so bad for my DS who still has no one to play with or fight with.  I hate that we're all in this situation and I am trying to come to terms that this could be it for us.

  Dx PCOS Three cycle of Clomid- BFN HSG- clear 6/09-Follistim and HCG IUI on 7/7/09 BFN 7/09- Follistim and Ovidrel IUI on 8/11/09 BFP! beta #1-342 beta #2-717 Joey was born on 5/5/10 Trying for #2 since 6/12 6/12- Gonal F and Ovidel IUI on 7/10. BFN 8/12- Gonal F and Ovidrel. IUI on 8/10. BFN 9/12- Gonal F and Ovidrel IUI BFN 10/22 Gonal F, Menopur, Ganirelex 11/4 trigger 11/6 ER 14R 10F 11/11 ET transferred one 4AA embryo beta 11/20! BFP Betas stop multiplying . m/c at 5 weeks moving on to FET if my numbers ever get back to 0!

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• Hnysckl426

  October 2012

  Could have written this myself! After two years I am beginning to think that this is my fate. DD wants a sibling and would be such a great big sister. I don't even know what to think anymore really.

  

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• queenbone member

  October 2012

  I'm sorry, it sucks so bad and this disappointment never seems to get any easier.
  

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• ChiTown Bridget member

  October 2012

  ((Hugs)) I so know how you feel and it's a scary feeling. I've been trying for 16 months but it I also had primary IF and it took me 6 years, 5 losses, and one failed ivf before I had DS.  For some reason having secondary IF is hitting me much harder. Maybe because I'm almost 37 and age is a constant worry of mine. Infertility blows.

  After many years and tears our baby boy is finally here

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• e74 member

  October 2012

  After this morning, I feel the same and it is so very devastating!

  DS#1 born 9/23/06 

  Twins DS#2 and 3 born at 31 weeks, 3 days due to a short cervix on 8/2/13.

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