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Seriously?! (pg mentioned)

km_mdkm_md member
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Ugh!

So I posted last week on the loss board about how I hate Saturdays. I found out about my loss on a Saturday and so they are usually really rough. DH and I have a family wedding today and while I am really happy for the couple, I just didn't want to go.  I woke up feeling awful. FIL is staying here for the weekend, so I have to try and look happy and it is making it worse because I can't get out what I need to. 

I tried my best to get ready and keep a smile on. I am really happy that DH has a Saturday off for once and we get to spend it together. Just as I was starting to feel better about the day, we get to the church and first thing I see - a very pregnant photographer! Seriously. Of all the photographers, why does the one at the wedding I am going to need to be pregnant. She proceeds to stand right in front of us and show off her big round belly. Ugh. I started welling up and had to look around (and of course a video camera is right by me while I am looking miserable). I start to calm down and then all the wedding lovey emotions get me going again.

Thankfully it was a really short ceremony, and I managed to keep it together somewhat. But why do I need these constant reminders? Is it a sign for us to try again or is it just the universe screwing around?

I knew that you ladies would understand. I've got a few hours to wait around now before heading off to the reception, where I will get to see the lovely photographer again, but at least the lights will be dimmed and there will be wine... 



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  • asglover514asglover514 member
    *hugs* I'm sorry lovely. Enjoy the wine while at the reception, at least you can move around to maybe avoid the photographer there.
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  • luciddreamer106luciddreamer106 member
    I'm sorry you had to be blindsided like that. Hopefully the reception will have enough distraction and you won't notice her.
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  • Fuzzy21Fuzzy21 member
    I'm sorry. I'm having a rough Saturday as well.  I also am attending a wedding this evening.  Like you said, at least there will be wine.  Hugs.  Today sucks.
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  • densquareddensquared member
    That's rough! Sorry you have to deal with that on a day that sucks for you anyway. Like PP said, enjoy the wine and avoid the photog!
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  • LAMCH1980LAMCH1980 member
    ((Hugs))  Drink and dance it up! 
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  • hopefulreturnhopefulreturn member

    I hope you're currently enjoying the wedding, time with DH, and your glass of wine!

    Although it doesn't always work, I try to convince myself in those situations that I have no idea what that pregnant woman's story is. Maybe she was once one of us. That often helps me stay in perspective, but it doesn't stop the hurt and jealousy all the time. 


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  • km_mdkm_md member

    Thanks for the replies! I try not to be bitter about it, I was just more upset at my own emptiness than angry for someone else's happiness. And May2012 - I try (keyword being try lol) to do the same thing - who knows if these pregnant women we see everywhere have issues with fertility or loss. 

    I was really in a funk all night. I tried to enjoy myself, but I was just in my Saturday depression. I danced a little, didn't drink a whole lot. DH was great though, while he doesn't really understand what I am going through he is really supportive. 



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  • AddyAllTogetherAddyAllTogether member

    I have a morning ritual of waking up and watching Price is Right while i eat my cereal. Literally the morning after my first M/C started Price is Right did an expectant mothers special and all the contestants were pregnant and all the prizes were baby related. I just sat there and stared at the TV. Are you kidding me!

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