Let me preface by saying my DH is the greatest guy in the world. We have been under so much pressure lately because we are attempting to close on our first home, both trying to graduate college in Dec. and had an unexpected (but still wanted) pregnancy. I also have been unable to work because I am in a M-F 40 hr. a week internship along with another class.
Now to the nitty gritty. My DH and I have been together for 8 years and we don't really argue, laugh alot, and generally enjoy eachother's company. He does very nice things for me, for example, cleaned my car top to bottom inside and out followed by a delicious home-cooked meal. After ALLLLL that he does for me, I still look at him and want to pounce. Just the sight of him makes me so mad I can't stand it. I know I'm being ridiculous but I just can't stop Any advice? ANyone else go through similar things?
Re: I literally want to kill him...
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I felt this way a lot during the first tri -- mostly weeks 6-10 when I felt the worst. Actually, it wasn't necessarily that I wanted to kill him as much as I just wanted to be left alone and every little thing bugged me. My DH said that his new moneymaker idea was invent a dorm / hotel where all pregnant women go for the first 13 weeks. hahahaha . I told him it existed, and it was called The Four Seasons, and I'd be happy to go any time. ;-)
Second, I totally feel you. My DH is very amazing as well, but since being pg I still occasionally look at him and get the urge to knock his teeth out for absolutely no fathomable reason. One I even told him to leave the room because I really wanted to kick him so bad. I feel guilty lol but he understands it really has nothing to do with him.
Hi larious! And Op- you're not alone. There are some days Dh just can't do anything right and I blow up over every stupid detail. I really try to check myself bc I do not like myself either on those days!
I understand that feeling...you are not alone. You are, however, VERY blessed. My husband is a full time soldier and very strong man. One would think, with this being his first child, he would be excited...but he isn't. Your man cooks for you? I cook in our house...not because he can't, but because it is expected of me. Your man does stuff for you, like clean your car? Mine asks me to clean his for him, and clean up after him, and the list goes on. And expects me to work full time, keep the house spic and span, and do whatever he asks without question...all while attending school online and taking care of my other two kids from a previous marriage. PLEASE don't get me wrong...I love my husband with all my heart, and he has provided a wonderful life for me and my kids, but there are days I would like nothing better that to beat him to death! Shouldn't he be waiting on me a little? Shouldn't my load lighten a little the bigger I get? I am 18 weeks going on 19 and measuring 8 mos! We will find out in 3 weeks if it is twins...or more...God help us!
Every time you feel the urge to uncontrollably be angry at your man...remember you have it a LOT better than a LOT of people. You could be waiting on HIM hand and foot like some of us are. Try to tell yourself, it is not his fault and it is ok to have weird anger...that is the hormones talking in your head! Then remind yourself to be thankful for the thoughtful, caring man you have and remind yourself how much worse it could be. Those angry thoughts will fade in time with your hormones. Your relationship is obviously rock solid and that love will make everything ok in the end. In the meantime...when you see him and feel that sudden urge to pounce, ask for a hug. Right then, right there...no matter whats going on around you. Sometimes that little comforting touch of our man can make the crazy thoughts fade and the hormones to shift in our favor. Good luck on your closing, your school and your baby! Enjoy them all. It is a blessing to get to live in one place and not move every 3 years (though it may be a headache process to get there). And its a blessing to have your man home every day or night (mine is gone a year at a time and sometimes for months in between when he is training). It is a blessing to not be going through your pregnancy/birth alone. Enjoy your blessings every chance you feel like screaming!
My DH expects a lot from me as well. I work from home and he automatically assumes that I have the time to do all of the cooking, laundry, and chores just because I'm not at an office. I think that his mom must have spoiled him to death as a child.
LadyHeather be sure to tell your DH what you need at this time. This is your time (especially) to be pampered. Reach out and tell him when you need something like an extra hand doing dishes. Just because he's at the station or in the office doesn't mean that you aren't working hard. Sometimes I think that we, as women, put our needs last in our families.
OP, I don't want to kill my DH, but I do want to kill my MIL and family members for small, insignificant annoyances. They live in different states, so they're easy targets for my fury.
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness." - Eleanor Roosevelt
Yes I'm with you my man has been so awesome and yes we just went through all of the same stuff closing on our first home and numerous other things going on. He's been great he cooks and makes sure everything that needs to get done gets done but yes I'm with you sometimes I freak out on him and don't even mean to. Sometimes I even scream at him and then cry 10 minutes later most of the time for the rest of the night because I feel like such a jerk!
I don't really have any advice just want to let you know your not the only one out there. My man has really learned to understand I don't mean anything by it and that I will always love him even if right now I don't know how to show it.
Oh, also wanted to weigh in on the home-buying situation -- we went through an EXTREMELY stressful month -- I found out I was pregnant the same day we put our hosue on the market - it sold in a record 4 days, and then we had to figure out where to live - buyer wanted a quick close, so we also needed a quick close. We ended up buying a place and moving in like 3 weeks and it was super stressful, but once we got settled... SO HAPPY!
So hang in there and good luck!!