If there is a god (vent) . . .
dandywarhol
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If there is a god it feels as though s/he is messing with me. This is our first TTCAL cycle after our 3rd loss. Last week DH and I were discussing the possibility of being pregnant this cycle and all of a sudden in front of us was the biggest, most vibrant rainbow we had ever seen. We both commented on how big and beautiful it was an how we could clearly see the indigo. Then yesterday we were on vacation and driving around an area where we have never been and saw two road signs - both with the unusual names (Wellington and Palmer) that DH and I had seriously discussed as boy names.
Now, I am not big on "signs" but these seemed as if god/the universe was seriously trying to get the message across. Then today I woke up at 13dpo, took my temp, noticed a drop, and then took a HPT that resulted in a BFN.
/vent
(This is not intended to be a discussion about God, g_d, or god. Just an opportunity for me to vent.)
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BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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Re: If there is a god (vent) . . .
BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
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I totally agree!
Thank you for keeping positive ladies. I'm not big on patience so I hope you are right.
BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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I hope you're right about the signs. I do feel as if I received a sign from my daughter Sylvie about 5 months after her birth/death but that was the only one. I used to say/think "Maybe that's a sign" but these losses have shaken my sense of belief in anything other than chaos.
BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w.
BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
BFP #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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I like this answer, and I am a total believer in signs!
D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
Natural m/c: 10/17/11
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DX:PCOS
DH (Adam
Married 10/11/12
TTC #1 since 3/12
This and that maybe you are on the right path..... I'm new here, but I still love to hand out Hugs. The rainbows get me everytime. Our loss was a few days before our wedding and driving to the venue there was a tiny rainbow. I BELIEVE!!!
9/13/12 BFP 9/25/12 M/C at 6.5 weeks
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TTC #2 Since October 2011
RE testing results: DH- normal ME- DX:PCOS and One copy of MTHFR gene
IUI#1 Sept/Oct 2012-Follistim, Ovidrel, Metformin, Baby Asprin, Lovenox, Crinone, and Neevo Beta 10/24=BFN
No 2nd IUI but instead TI with Metformin, Baby Asprin, Neevo and Prometrium
BFP #4 5/4/13-EDD 1/19/14- grow little one, grow!
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