Never realized *this* waiting would be so bad
Luckily, my IF struggles haven't taken me to some dark places, such as blocking every pregnant friend on FB, or not attending baby showers. But a few months ago, I do remember reading someone's post, someone matched with an e-mom, frustrated waiting for the baby to be born, and I thought to myself, "if only that was my biggest worry" wishing I was at that point in my adoption journey. Well, now I feel bad for thinking that, because that's where I am right now...however, I will say, I am mostly going crazy worrying about if this baby is healthy, and if e-mom will have a smooth delivery.
She was supposed to go in to get checked last Friday night, possibly to see about getting induced, but that didn't happen. Her daughter ended up with a fever. Now that it's back to the work week, she has too many obligations to check into the hospital (kind of crazy to think about it this way). She is just waiting for it to happen naturally. Deep down, I do believe it will and I pray everything is alright, but it's so hard not to worry, especially when she estimated her due date at 9/15. I have to believe that is not actually the right EDD but again, we have no way to know.
Re: Never realized *this* waiting would be so bad
TTC September 2010 thru October 2011
SA February 2011: Normal
RE App. October 2011 - Recc. Clomid and IUI
Taking a break from TTC to pursue adoption
Met our 2 year old son in Russia July 2012!
Court trip October 2012
Home November 24 2012!
Back to RE Summer 2013. TTC journey continues:
Dx DOR, endometriosis, low sperm count
Clomid + IUI#1, #2 = BFN / IUI #3 = ???
Laparoscopy scheduled December 2013
Ugh, I'm so sorry it hasn't happened yet. I agree, her EDD must be off. I'm going to pray that she has some time to get checked soon...it really is in her best interest, not just the baby! Patience is so hard in situations like these, I'm thinking of you!
One of the hardest things about adoption is coming to terms with the fact that you can't control the early part of your child's life/pregnancy. I believe most of us come to terms with the idea that we won't be biologically related to our child much more quickly and easily than that another person will be making health decisions for our child before we have any real/legal say in the matter, and that in those formative days/months/years, those choices can impact our children's entire lives.
The best I can tell you is to have faith that the same forces that led you to choose adoption as a way to build your family and brought you this far will be at work in carrying you the rest of the way. Whatever comes, you will be able to handle, one step at a time.
You will all be in my thoughts and prayers!