Talk me back to sanity!

Svenny1011 · September 2012

I'm sorry, I just need to vent for a second here. This whole TTC business is really becoming annoying, and I feel like throwing up my hands and just saying forget it. Perhaps it is the cycle 13 thing that is doing it, or the 2 losses, but either way, I feel like it isn't going to happen. Not because I can't get pregnant, but b/c the whole process is exhausting.

Take for instance this cycle. DH always wants to know when my FW is, so I told him this weekend that over the next 5 days or so is good. He said okay. We've managed to get ONE day of sex in, on Saturday......I'm probably Oing tonight or tomorrow, and I don't see sex in the next day happening. We've started a new construction project at the house, which always puts DH in a crappy mood. Plus he's traveling out of the country for work tomorrow, so that makes him extra moody and stressed. Therefore, sex is the last thing on his mind. I try to instigate it, but it comes off as "desperate" - he's just not in the mood.

Now, I get that this happens, but as each cycle goes on, I'm feeling more and more impatient, like we MUST hit every cycle perfectly otherwise it is a waste. This, in turn, does not help matters either. I'm at a loss and need to get my head out of my a$$. One cycle isn't going to make it or break it - I know this, but it is so hard to stay rational sometimes.

Okay, that is the end of my crazy psycho vent. I'm totally going insane this cycle. Possibly (I hope) the hormones.

chelsmcl · September 2012

That really sucks. I get really frustrated too if DH is going away anywhere near 'o' time.

Strangely enough for me cycle 13 was pretty tough too, but I try to remind myself that in the grand scheme of things it's really not that long, and it will be worth th wait.

Good luck!

Ranitasback · September 2012

I've had my share of crazy cycles so I totally feel your frustration. I've got no magic words, but ((virtual hug)). Hope you feel better

honeygirl500 · September 2012

I get it. Sorry your dh isn't on the same page as you. You maybe need to have a talk with him how important timing is. We used to occasionally have this problem too. Now he is starting to realize we have to have sex no matter what. He needs to suck it up.

Svenny1011 · September 2012

In general, we are on the same page for TTC. He is just very affected by stress so that throws a wrench in things. He works from home - he is there during the construction all day, so I get how it can be sucky. But yeah, he needs to deal better. And I'm guilty too - since I have had to deal with the infertility aspects of TTC, I feel crummy a lot and probably take it out on him to some degree by feeling impatient and pushy.

I'm going to try one last ditch effort before he leaves on this trip - maybe come home from work and try something. If we could get today in, I'd be ecstatic, just to get O-1 or O (kinda feel like with a +OPK in the AM, and a slight temp dip today, that O will happen sooner than later). I'd feel like we at least had a chance and it wasn't a total bust.

Why can't I just be like a 16 year old and get KU by just looking at DH?!

rrdiva1 · September 2012

I have had cycles like that, especially once I got past 12 cycles.

Try to stay encouraged! FX You get one good humping in before he goes.

RequiresExalted · September 2012

That sounds so frustrating! I hope you and YH are able to get on the same page, and hit the FW!!

*hugs*

chelsmcl · September 2012

I must admit that once me and DH had a huge fight on my 'o' night so I pretended to forgive him to get him in the sack, then after the deed was done I told him that I was still mad at him. He was mad at first and then we found the whole situation really funny so we made up. IF makes you do crazy things.

WhyMe11 · September 2012

Oh God ! your comment hits home ! I have been there, especially the last 3 months when I started clomid, I mark my O days on the calender and let him know as well ! But some how he cannot keep track of it ! why is that we are so obsessed with this and they are not !

* Hugs *

Laura004 · September 2012

This whole TTC thing is one crazy journey! My husband travels for work too, and seriously no matter how hard we try to plan, I feel like he is always away during the PEAK days! Ugh!

I hope you get to try at least once before he leaves! GL to you!

Svenny1011 · September 2012

Well, we tried this morning and no luck. Wouldn't have been good anyway, as it is looking like I Od yesterday (if I put in dummy temps for the next 2 days I get crosshairs tomorrow). Oh well, at least we tried.

Now......do I use my progesterone suppositories or no, given our timing was only O-3? I suppose there is still a chance, but highly unlikely.

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