I got back to work tomorrow. Who knew this day would come so fast. She is going to be with my MIL Tuesdays and Wednesdays starting tomorrow.... and in october she will attend a wonderful center on Thursdays.
My MIL is a labor and delivery nurse and has been so for the past 15 years. Great place to be right? I am so anxious and stressed and nervous about this. I randomly just start crying. Hallie is such an easy going baby, I just need to to keep telling myself it will be okay! I am just so nervous about napping. Hallie naps a lot in the morning but often on me or the swing.
We baught a new pack n play and infant to toddler rocker (she sleeps in this at my friends house when we visit).
I have made a huge list and made it all very clear. I even have a snuza. My husband told her she only needs it on when she sleeps, but I want it all times. I am going to have him call her to tell her. People think my snuzas crazy, but I don't care.
Sorry for this randomness I just needed to vent. The other night when she was unconsolably (Sp?) fussy, I had a break down and said we were selling our house and I was quitting my job.
HOW DID YOU HANDLE IT? Hallie was born early may so I no many of you still may not be at work!
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Re: She starts daycare tomorrow and I can't handle it.
Your DD is wicked cute!
Not going to lie to you, the first day SUCKS! Call you MIL often to find out how DD is. Try to do sometime nice for yourself like coffee, yummy lunch out, etc.
This won't bring you much relief on your first day, but it does get better. The anticipation of going back is awful. I wanted to crawl under a rock and cry forever the first day. The second day I didn't cry at all.
Hang in there!
Wow. I mean this in a completely non-snarky way, but you need to consider the possibility you may have an anxiety issue.that you should run by your doctor. Making your MIL keep the Snuza on the baby at all times is over the top. Seriously, some Valium may be in order.
Good luck going back to work.
This. After the initial first couple days I was fine and I even started enjoying 'me' time, even if I was working. I drop LO off a little early at DC so I can grab a cup of coffee and do my first morning pump at home alone, in silence...Haha. I miss him but once I became completely comfortable with him there I don't think about it too much. When my work days are busy, the day flies by!
It wasn't really all that hard for me. However, I only work 5 days in a 2-week period, and most of the time I have consecutive days off. DH stays home with her while I'm at work. He sends me text pictures of her throughout the day, and sometimes we'll video chat on our phones. As other PPs have said, it's nice to have some time away from baby. I missed using my professional brain, as well as talking about things that didn't relate to babies to other adults.
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Honestly, with my first it was tough. I only went back PT, but I was sure that DCP wasn't doing things 'right'. Well I quickly learned that she was fine at DC and if it wasn't done exactly the way I would do it, it was still ok.
When LO gets a bit older, you will see a lot benefits from DCP. She comes home with new skills that I wouldn't think to teach her, and she loves her DCP. She was getting bored being home on maternity leave with me and was so excited to go back and see her friends and 'nana'. That made it much easier when leaving #2 because I could see the benefit for me and the kids.
I can relate
I cried so much during her first days in daycare. I hated being separated from her after 14 weeks of being with her 24/7. Even though the daycare itself was very nice as far as daycares go, I didn't think very highly of her daycare teachers, and just felt like group care wasn't for us. We decided that I would go to a part-time work schedule and my mom will be watching her the rest of the time. I NEVER thought I would do something like that, I always assumed I'd be a full-time working mom. But the reality was so much harder than I expected.
Being separated from her has gotten easier. Like PP said, it does feel good to use the adult part of my brain again and I'm enjoying being back at work now.
Give it a week... it will get easier. Being a mom is a life-long process of separation and letting go... whether it's weaning, first day of daycare, first day of kindergarten, first sleepover, getting their driver's license, or sending them off to college. It will never be easy.
We did it! I cried. She woudln't take her bottle when I checked in... and I cried again. She only drank 4 oz all day, and would have probably had 10-15 in the time period normally.. But I know that is expected sometimes... but I still cried again.
Someone said to me today "it gets easier, but I won't lie, it doens't get easy". True but honest I guess!