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Not feeling emotionally well

I wasn't sure if I even wanted to post this, but what better sounding board than a forum full of anonymous women who are practically in the same position?

Last night my FI did something that he promised he wouldn't do anymore, apologized, and then proceeded to DO IT AGAIN. I don't want to say specifically what it was, but suffice to say that it's something I feel very strongly about and he knows it.

I cried for an hour until I fell asleep. I felt so hurt and betrayed, like a ton of bricks hit me and I still can't shake this overwhelming sadness I feel. I don't know how much of it is rampaging pregnancy hormones and how much is real. I know I'm prone to overreacting and not thinking things through before I make an emotional choice, but I feel so done and I don't want to be.

We have our differences, some of them pretty significant, and have almost split over them 3 times before, but somehow came to some semblance of peace. But now that I'm carrying his child, I guess things seem more "real" now that we will share parentage of a child that's not "mine" or "his" (we each have a daughter from a previous relationship).

I guess what happened last night was the catalyst to force me to think about those differences and wonder if we really can live with each other happily. I just don't know :(

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Re: Not feeling emotionally well

  • I'm new to this board (mostly lurking) but I have to comment to your situation.

    I do no know what your FI has done, but I am so sorry your dealing with this throughout your pregnancy. During the end of my pregnancy last year my husband would fly off the handle and yell at me. I thought it was mainly my hormones that got me so upset about it. Well just recently it began again, and no hormones this time. So trust how you feel.

    I think deep down I really hate my husband for how he treated me during my pregnancy and its affecting us now, and we may separate. So basically what I'm saying is trust yourself and your feelings. Dont marry someone who doesnt treat with respect or the way you deserve to be treated.

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  • Thank you for your reply... This sadness won't go away. I know what I have to do, but it's so hard. There's never a right time or place to break up with someone. I know it will completely destroy him. I've compromised and sacrificed so much for him, and I can't keep doing it. I'll never be truly happy if we stay together. I'm so numb right now I don't even have any tears left..
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