So, tell us about your theory on capitalization. I always read capitals as yelling online, but sometimes it seems you use them differently? I'm curious.
married 03/08/08 -- ttc with PCOS (dx 2005) & DS
IUI #3 gave us the best 2nd anniv. gift ever: 2 babies! (born 03/09/10)
Peanut and Little Man are getting so big! 2 years old already!
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Depending on where im typing from. My ipod sometimes flips out and gets stuck and its a PIA to go back. Also big hands small keypad sucks.
I am a very animated talker so i also use caps not to tell but in words i emphasize in the thought in my head.
I dO realize that all caps is seen as yelling i think i rarely do ALL caps
Sorry if. Everyone rhinks that. I just think if there is no cause for yelling and some one types caps that it just them really trying to get a point or convey something.
Also if im typing from my work comp it is allways cap lock because thats how the forms n fields are set.
With your trans issues, have you ever seriously considered top surgery/hormone therapy/or even a sex change?
yes, i have always thought and discussed top surgery. When i was younger i used to actually wish i would get breast cancer ( i have a wicked fam history of cancer) and then i would elect a mastectomy. I had a huge chest and i used to bind and it was horrible (for me). Since i had my weight loss surgery i basically no longer have a chest just what i call ( my ziploc bags of water) I went from a DDD to maybe a B. I was able to pass a a guy even with a big chest and binding but I used to wish wish wish they would just disappear and or i could chop em off.
As for taking T when i was young and naive it was appealing but i also have a mall medical background and quickly did my home work and realize they know nothing about long term T effects. I also realize that no matter what i did surgery or medication in my heart and brain I will always be a born female. I have learned to accept this... I am ok with it though I prefer not to be feminized. However, my laugh and smile really kill that.
My personal take on sex change and transitioning - is its just not for me because no matter what i do .. i will always know i am a born female and i will never be able to impregnate my wife as a man does a woman.
What is the best thing about working from home? The worst?
Working from home was not always for me .. BEST THING EVER ( see not yelling just trying to say how its coming to thought in my head) - is being with the girls. I never thought I was the stay at home type but I miss them when I am not around and just think about them all the time.
The worse thing for me is as much of a self starter I am - i tend not to be such the go getter at home with work because in my own mind ( m and I have issues with this) working from home was not a legitimate job to me even though it so totally is. There is tons of time to slack off and I am typically not a slacker but at home its comfortable so big room for lag. I also feel that there a days when i am a horrible no good employee. On the flip side of that when I had a functioning lap top if i would puts around during the day i would work all the time at night. So, there is a huge propensity to work all the time and this this ruins the salary pay rate. I can be a work-o-holic if i have a lap top in front of me. My mindset on that is if i do all my work now at say 11pm then i can puts around during the day. I wanna wake up take a shower and drive to an office. I wanna real lunch break and talk to co workers. I really miss that.
If money and age were not such huge factors how many kids would you have?
What are you doing to pass your Jewish heritage to the girls?
I would say 4 kids.... i dont have any reason why 4... 3 would be good too ... but if no object then 4.
Passing the Jewish heritage - this make me so sad. The two major holidays are coming up and I feel guilty about this because we normally go to CA but our last trip for the girls b day was horrible. I would love to do things i did when i was kid that were more traditional, like Shabbat dinner and celebrate all major holidays and go to a Jewish nursery school. Truth is with twins and our finances as such we just cant put them in nursery school ( when did that stuff get so expensive)
M is not Jewish but her mom bff who practically raised her is - so we do celebrate the major holidays with a dinner here and there. I also have the girls signed up with the PJ library so they get free books until they are 6 and we read them and sing songs. I will still fast and observe they are too young to do that but when they are ready if they choose they can.
I should also explain that Judaism to me is not really a religion ( it is ) but i see and celebrate it with more of a cultural outlook. To me being Jewish is similar to being African American . I know this may sound hard to swallow. Most holidays and celebrating is done for the uprising of a group of people. Just as AA were slaves and in many efforts became free. (does that make sense to anyone other than me ) I dont see Judaism as similar to Christianity or Catholicism ( those are religions to me )
Ok well I guess I am now deeming myself a cultural Jew.
Oh, also, did you get any news about your heart yet?
Heart- no really hard firm news. My maternal family history is horrible, horrible and the Cardiologist says the ultrasound report looked ok and blood work numbers look Ok and I need to have a stress test and the original Dr. also failed to tell me that along with the LOW rates there were some other abnormalities on the EKG ..
I left the office annoyed but kinda relieved if it was major i am assuming they would have done more.. so I told M .. I am fine I need a drink now!
I had to protest a pregnancy test that is requiered prior to the stress test I told then urse sorry but i will not do a preg test .. she said well you dont get the stress test then.. and i said well there is no way I am pregnant and I refuse... and i said I am a LESBIAN, a GAY FEMALE its impossible .. so she stood up and was freaked out threw her hands up and said every one in entitled to their own and had to talk to someone ... and then i had to write on the paper that i refuse test because i was a gay female ... and the nurse sat down and said well its to protect yourself in case something happened to your child and i replied its impossible and .......a lady behind me another client said dont you ever want children .. I said i have TWINS at home and that is what my wife is for ...
so no, to answer your question no new answers - but last night and today I really feel weird very tight in the chest and cant quite catch a full breath but i also had a bowl of cereal last night which is a no -no with a bypass.???
Oh, also, did you get any news about your heart yet?
Heart- no really hard firm news. My maternal family history is horrible, horrible and the Cardiologist says the ultrasound report looked ok and blood work numbers look Ok and I need to have a stress test and the original Dr. also failed to tell me that along with the LOW rates there were some other abnormalities on the EKG ..
I left the office annoyed but kinda relieved if it was major i am assuming they would have done more.. so I told M .. I am fine I need a drink now!
I had to protest a pregnancy test that is requiered prior to the stress test I told then urse sorry but i will not do a preg test .. she said well you dont get the stress test then.. and i said well there is no way I am pregnant and I refuse... and i said I am a LESBIAN, a GAY FEMALE its impossible .. so she stood up and was freaked out threw her hands up and said every one in entitled to their own and had to talk to someone ... and then i had to write on the paper that i refuse test because i was a gay female ... and the nurse sat down and said well its to protect yourself in case something happened to your child and i replied its impossible and .......a lady behind me another client said dont you ever want children .. I said i have TWINS at home and that is what my wife is for ...
so no, to answer your question no new answers - but last night and today I really feel weird very tight in the chest and cant quite catch a full breath but i also had a bowl of cereal last night which is a no -no with a bypass.???
First, J, I am sorry you don't have any more answers.
Second, I am so sorry the nurse treated you this way. I do training for providers on LGBT issues and was all - they need some SERIOUS training on how to be inclusive, sensitive, etc. Even if they MUST test you, and I guess they may have to do that, she could have, at a minimum said - I know this does not make any sense for you, and....it is required for the test. At least start out that way. Good grief. So sorry.
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IUI #3 gave us the best 2nd anniv. gift ever: 2 babies! (born 03/09/10)
Peanut and Little Man are getting so big! 2 years old already!
finally blogging again at This Will Be: An Adventure
Two Mommies Healing Hearts
What are you doing to pass your Jewish heritage to the girls?
IVF Oct/Nov 2012
Beta #1 = 77, Beta #2 = 190, Beta #3 = 1044
Cautiously optimistic.
IVF Oct/Nov 2012
Beta #1 = 77, Beta #2 = 190, Beta #3 = 1044
Cautiously optimistic.
I am a very animated talker so i also use caps not to tell but in words i emphasize in the thought in my head.
I dO realize that all caps is seen as yelling i think i rarely do ALL caps
Sorry if. Everyone rhinks that. I just think if there is no cause for yelling and some one types caps that it just them really trying to get a point or convey something.
Also if im typing from my work comp it is allways cap lock because thats how the forms n fields are set.
our Blog -http://dosbabies.wordpress.com/
yes, i have always thought and discussed top surgery. When i was younger i used to actually wish i would get breast cancer ( i have a wicked fam history of cancer) and then i would elect a mastectomy. I had a huge chest and i used to bind and it was horrible (for me). Since i had my weight loss surgery i basically no longer have a chest just what i call ( my ziploc bags of water) I went from a DDD to maybe a B. I was able to pass a a guy even with a big chest and binding but I used to wish wish wish they would just disappear and or i could chop em off.
As for taking T when i was young and naive it was appealing but i also have a mall medical background and quickly did my home work and realize they know nothing about long term T effects. I also realize that no matter what i did surgery or medication in my heart and brain I will always be a born female. I have learned to accept this... I am ok with it though I prefer not to be feminized. However, my laugh and smile really kill that.
My personal take on sex change and transitioning - is its just not for me because no matter what i do .. i will always know i am a born female and i will never be able to impregnate my wife as a man does a woman.
our Blog -http://dosbabies.wordpress.com/
Working from home was not always for me .. BEST THING EVER ( see not yelling just trying to say how its coming to thought in my head) - is being with the girls. I never thought I was the stay at home type but I miss them when I am not around and just think about them all the time.
The worse thing for me is as much of a self starter I am - i tend not to be such the go getter at home with work because in my own mind ( m and I have issues with this) working from home was not a legitimate job to me even though it so totally is. There is tons of time to slack off and I am typically not a slacker but at home its comfortable so big room for lag. I also feel that there a days when i am a horrible no good employee. On the flip side of that when I had a functioning lap top if i would puts around during the day i would work all the time at night. So, there is a huge propensity to work all the time and this this ruins the salary pay rate. I can be a work-o-holic if i have a lap top in front of me. My mindset on that is if i do all my work now at say 11pm then i can puts around during the day. I wanna wake up take a shower and drive to an office. I wanna real lunch break and talk to co workers. I really miss that.
our Blog -http://dosbabies.wordpress.com/
I would say 4 kids.... i dont have any reason why 4... 3 would be good too ... but if no object then 4.
Passing the Jewish heritage - this make me so sad. The two major holidays are coming up and I feel guilty about this because we normally go to CA but our last trip for the girls b day was horrible. I would love to do things i did when i was kid that were more traditional, like Shabbat dinner and celebrate all major holidays and go to a Jewish nursery school. Truth is with twins and our finances as such we just cant put them in nursery school ( when did that stuff get so expensive)
M is not Jewish but her mom bff who practically raised her is - so we do celebrate the major holidays with a dinner here and there. I also have the girls signed up with the PJ library so they get free books until they are 6 and we read them and sing songs. I will still fast and observe they are too young to do that but when they are ready if they choose they can.
I should also explain that Judaism to me is not really a religion ( it is ) but i see and celebrate it with more of a cultural outlook. To me being Jewish is similar to being African American . I know this may sound hard to swallow. Most holidays and celebrating is done for the uprising of a group of people. Just as AA were slaves and in many efforts became free. (does that make sense to anyone other than me ) I dont see Judaism as similar to Christianity or Catholicism ( those are religions to me )
Ok well I guess I am now deeming myself a cultural Jew.
our Blog -http://dosbabies.wordpress.com/
Heart- no really hard firm news. My maternal family history is horrible, horrible and the Cardiologist says the ultrasound report looked ok and blood work numbers look Ok and I need to have a stress test and the original Dr. also failed to tell me that along with the LOW rates there were some other abnormalities on the EKG ..
I left the office annoyed but kinda relieved if it was major i am assuming they would have done more.. so I told M .. I am fine I need a drink now!
I had to protest a pregnancy test that is requiered prior to the stress test I told then urse sorry but i will not do a preg test .. she said well you dont get the stress test then.. and i said well there is no way I am pregnant and I refuse... and i said I am a LESBIAN, a GAY FEMALE its impossible .. so she stood up and was freaked out threw her hands up and said every one in entitled to their own and had to talk to someone ... and then i had to write on the paper that i refuse test because i was a gay female ... and the nurse sat down and said well its to protect yourself in case something happened to your child and i replied its impossible and .......a lady behind me another client said dont you ever want children .. I said i have TWINS at home and that is what my wife is for ...
so no, to answer your question no new answers - but last night and today I really feel weird very tight in the chest and cant quite catch a full breath but i also had a bowl of cereal last night which is a no -no with a bypass.???
our Blog -http://dosbabies.wordpress.com/
First, J, I am sorry you don't have any more answers.
Second, I am so sorry the nurse treated you this way. I do training for providers on LGBT issues and was all - they need some SERIOUS training on how to be inclusive, sensitive, etc. Even if they MUST test you, and I guess they may have to do that, she could have, at a minimum said - I know this does not make any sense for you, and....it is required for the test. At least start out that way. Good grief. So sorry.