I have been struggling with severe anxiety and some depression since college. I started taking 10mg prozac a year before having DS and it changed my life. I finally felt better. I stayed on the prozac during my pregnancy and nursing DS. I felt so happy and content all of that time. After wearning DS, I weaned myself off of the prozac and felt good for a while. When I became pregnant with my DD, the depression started up. I started having trouble sleeping etc. I thought it was the pregnancy.
After I had DD, I felt great for a couple of weeks, then the trouble started up again. I would have a few good days and then a few bad days. Now, the bad days are frequent and the good days rare.
I went to my psychiatrist and she told me I should go back on my 10mg of prozac since it made me feel so great. I agree, but I'm feeling so guilty about exposing DD to this because we are nursing. Nursing is very important for me and I don't feel like weaning is an option, but I need to get well. My midwife said that it is fine to take while nursing and that a happy mom is the best thing etc etc, but I can't get past this. DS was a very tough baby and is a tough child. He never slept well. DD is the best sleeper and such a relaxed baby. I can't help but have these thoughts.
I'm planning on taking the prozac tomorrow morning, but the guilt is awful. Anyone have a similar situation? I'm trying so hard to tell myself that it's a small dose and that she will probably not have any reactions. This guilt paired with the terrible anxiety is just killing me! uggh