Constantly wishing away the time...
mkflower3000
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I'm so frustrated with myself, but I constantly find that I'm wishing away the time and that DD was older. Granted, she's a lot more fun and easier to deal with at almost 3 months than at, say, 4 weeks, but I'm sooooooooo ready to get to an age when they're really more interactive and communicative (not to mention can keep themselves amused for longer than 10 minutes). I feel bad because I know that we're supposed to savor the moment, that later I'll probably look back and regret not enjoying her when things went by so quickly, and honestly I should always just be happy with who she is! She's not overly fussy, but she's definitely not the easiest baby out there and is pretty needy and sensitive - she always wants me around, she gets tired after about an hour of being awake and becomes cranky, but at the same time she's a huge nap fighter which is tough, and she still wakes up about 4 times/night with no sign of sleeping longer anytime soon. I also think that she gets kind of frustrated because she wants to do more than she's capable of; for example, she seems to get mad quickly on the activity gym because she can't really control her arms yet but wants to grab a hold of the toys. So part of me also feels like she will also be able to enjoy everything more once she's a little older and more capable. I look at pictures of my friends' kids who are older and feel a little bit jealous of where their babies are developmentally. I think my biggest concern is that I'll always be like this - instead of enjoying DD, I'll always think 'well, this is OK, but I can't wait to get to this other stage!' I really hope that that's not true, though... I want SO badly to enjoy her completely!
Am I the only one? I guess this is sort of my perpetual bad mom moment... Why can't I just be happy with DD as she is right now?? Shouldn't we always love our children for who they are?? I mean, I do love her so much, but why am I so anxiously waiting for her to change?
Re: Constantly wishing away the time...
Completely agree, and I know I felt this way with DD1 but yet my husband and I discuss how she was never this bad, haha but I know deep down she was just now its times 2 and with a 2 year old destroying everything it makes your patience for that age a lot less. They also cry if not paying attention to them. I can actually have them laying on the floor next to each other and if I'm talking to say Aria and looking at her, Arilyn will cry, so I focus attention on Arilyn and Aria cries! I just can't win! This stage is BY FAR better than newborn, I hate wishing away newborn stage but seriously it is sooo hard! I just can't wait for them to keep hold of the toy they want or reach and grab it if they drop it and to hold their bottles! They want to so bad but just knock it out of their mouths continuously and it is soooo frustrating for everyone!
But it will get better and don't beat yourself up for feeling this way. You are not alone!!
Exactly!! That's another reason why I feel so guilty, but I can't stop my brain from thinking it... I try to remind myself to appreciate every moment, and it's not that I'm miserable by any means, but in the back of my mind I still constantly think 'but it'll be soooo much better when she's 6 months old!'
But it is good to hear that I'm not alone, and it's true - different people DO like different stages more than others. It does give me hope that I won't always be feeling like this
I also can't imagine trying to mind twins at the same time! Gosh, that must be really tough!
yup! I think each baby teaches you unique things: dd1 taught me patience, this one is teaching me to slow down more
I just wanted to say that I too thought LO would never sleep through the night. at 2 1/2 months she was up at least 3 times and I thought she just wouldnt be one of htose babies who sttn....
well RANDOMLY, one night around 3 months she started to sttn... 8 or 9pm to 7 or 8am and has been since. On her own she eats less frequently but more at one feeding. I feed her on demand and never cut her off. I started a bedtime routine around 2 months so maybe that helps.. but I just wanted to let you know it can happen!