Everything has been insane. Paula is perfect, my emotions are understandably in shambles but getting better. DH is beyond incredibly with our daughter; I alays expected him to be great, but he is astounding. He had to step in very early because she had to make a quick NICU trip for low blood sugar, so for the first few hours of her life it was Paula and daddy together. He does so much... come to think of it, I have yet to change a diaper; she typically gets changed after a feeding and I have to hand her off to him when she's done eating so I can try to get my boobs back in place!
I had an induction due to pre-e (no symptoms) and yet, everything was incredibly perfect. So happy with how the birth went. But because of the pre-e, I am anxious about my health. Last night was a terrible night. I had been swollen and feeling off since being home on Thursday, and I know swelling can be very normal (doc in ER said it's common for up to 2 weeks). But because I had pre-e, I became more and more nervous and afraid that maybe mine didn't go away. I went to the ER, MIL had to come stay with Paula; she is in town from Ohio but staying with her sister because we have a cat and she is very allergic, but we had no choice. We also had to give formula for one feeding while I was gone and it broke my heart, and I was terrified to know that if they did admit me, I wouldn't see my baby until I got home, which could have been days. It was awful.
I checked out okay but the docs were concerned enough to tell me to call first thing Monday to get an appointment with the clinic doctors. I think they have my blood pressure on their radar, honestly. I was also given a week's worth of Lasix for the swelling, which I posted about in tears on the breastfeeding board because it is likely to make my supply tank. It really scares me and all this added stress has really taken it's toll on how well I do with nursing; her once perfect latch seems to be off because there's considerable pain. I emailed the LC who I we took the birth class with so hopefully she gets back to me regarding latch issues as well as keeping my supply going while taking a diuretic.
But seriously, I have never been this swollen in my life, ever, at all. It is kind of gross and scary. I'm about to make a missing person sign for my ankles.
Anyway, just talking about those issues above have made me extremely tense, so now I will just reiterate how in love we are with our daughter. She loves to be swaddled but she is SO STRONG and breaks out of her swaddles and wakes herself up, so I have caved in to letting her sleep some in the swing. She weighs 7 pounds 8 ounces but almost all of the newborn clothes we have are too big! We're currently using disposable diapers because I am so overwhelmed with my own health concerns, as well as still not able to move as freely as I'd like due to my vaginal situation (which isn't bad, though), so I decided to hold off on starting cloth diapers because I have already overextended myself. Within a couple days we'll start trying them out though, I think. We're doing prefolds so it will be a lot of trial and error.
DH has to be at work in 4 hours. We had planned on doing this alone, since family is so far away and MIL is allergic to our cat and she neevr liked me anyway, but with the health scares everything changed. She'll be coming to stay with me while DH is at work, and she and I are clicking perfectly after almost 10 years of a horrible non-relationship. Paula has changed everything, and MIL has been quite the rock for us.
But really, I miss this place so much. I want to know all about everyone's squishies but I have no time to look through post after post and I HATE that, since I spent the past 9 months reading basically every single post on this board. I actually feel a bit of a sense of loss without knowing what's going on with everyone every day!
Re: I miss this place SO much! Also, postpartum swelling :(
I'm sorry you are going through all of that. I hope your supply doesn't plummet. Good luck!
I'm so glad to hear Paula is doing well! Can't wait to see pictures!
As for newborn clothes, Howell was 9 lbs 5 oz and it looks big even on him so you have some time with that stuff yet.
I feel the same way about missing the board and not getting to read thru all the posts! Things will settle down, soon, I'm sure!
I can't even give a big post back to you right now, too much going on, but be gentle on yourself! Hope all checks out at your clinic this week and good luck on the cloth transition- it's really a lot easier than you think! We use prefolds and covers and I am Loving it so far! If you have any questions feel free to ask.
Paula is adorable, love that jet black hair!