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Something doesn't feel right...

I can't put my finger on it, but something just doesn't feel right this time around.

I'm about 24 hours away from IVF#4/FET#2 and I dunno, something feels off.  

Aside from being drop dead tired, I'm not feeling any side effects from the Crinone like I ALWAYS have in the past.  I started Crinone Tuesday night with two doses right off the bat, then yesterday I had a dose in the morning and one at night and so far today I had one dose this morning.  I feel like by now I should have the sore and swollen boobs, but nope, nothing.

I started Estrace and Vivelle almost two weeks ago.  For each of my other 3 cycles, I always took Estrace 3x/day and changed Vivelle every 3rd day, but this time I'm only taking Estrace 2x/day and I think that's what makes me the most uneasy... why the change in dosage?  I mean, I trust my doctor knows what she's doing and wouldn't screw things up for me, it's just making me nervous, you know?  

Plus, my lining was "only" 9.6 on Tuesday... I've always been over 10 by ET.  I wasn't as good with my POM pills this time around and I hope I haven't screwed the pooch with this cycle because my heart wasn't in it.  This is our last shot this year...if we are not successful, we have to wait until January to try again when our new insurance kicks in.

I don't know... this is probably all anxiety rearing it's ugly head... and I'm so beyond tired, I can barely hold my head up.  Thank goodness I have acupuncture tonight - hopefully that calms me down a bit.

Sorry there's no real point to this post... just wanted to get my fears out there.

*SAIF Always Welcome!*

Kelli & Rob married since 01/28/2006

TTC since 03/06 - POF/PM dx 11/06

Donor Cycle #1 canceled - Donor's genetic history

Donor Cycle #2 canceled - poor response from Donor

Donor Cycle #3 - BFN :-(

FET#1 - BFN :-(

Donor Cycle #4 - 5/10/2012

Beta #1 (5/21/12) - 46 |Beta #2 (5/24/12) - 123 |Beta #3 (5/30/12) - 875

U/S #1 (6/5/12) - 1 beautiful nugget!

Miscarriage (6/13/12)

FET#2 (8/24/12) - Please let this be The One!


Re: Something doesn't feel right...

  • I completely understand this feeling! Its like when you leave your house and can't remember if you locked the door, turned off the coffee pot etc.

    You aren't alone - I am sure that it is from the years of TTC and failed cycles. It puts doubt into even the strongest 'believers'.

    I hope that it all starts feeling 'right' for you soon! GL!!!


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    TTC #1 Since June 2007
    April 2008 Diagnosed with Unexplained Infertility
    5 failed IUI cycles
    2009-2011 IF Treatment Break - saving for IVF and TTC on our Own... Praying for a miracle

    IVF (Long Lupron) Bravelle & Menopur, ER on 11/4 (Retrieved 17 eggs - 16 mature & 16 fertilized!)3dt on 11/7 (Transfered Two "perfect" 8 Cell 0% Frag Embryos) = BFFN

    Nov 2011 - July 2012 Taking time off to heal before FET
    (We have three beautiful frosties waiting for us)

    FET August/September 2012 = BFP!!!
    ET (8/31) 2 Expanded Blastocysts & 1 Collapsed Blastocyst
    Beta#1 (9/14) 14dp5dt = 1309 Beta#2 (9/19) 19dp5dt = 7557!! 1st U/S (9/28) 1 Beautiful Heartbeat! 8 Weeks 2 Days 2nd U/S (10/9) Heartrate=184!!! EDD: 5/19/13

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  • I think it probably is just anxiety. I hope everything goes well tomorrow.
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

  • I understand very well how you are feeling, for different reasons I was the same last cycle.  On the linning though, I was about 9.5 this time, and was also 9.5 ish after an increase in estrace my first FET when both my embies stuck.  9.6 is a GREAT number for linning. 

    It doesn't hurt to talk to your doctor about how you feel.  You deserve to understand why he/she changed the instructions (it doesn't have to be you questioning her judgement).  Sometimes knowing can make you feel better.

    TTC #1 Since 4/2010, Cycle 30
    Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant :p
    Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
    4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
    7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
    IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
    FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
    4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
    FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
    FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
    1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB :), 2nd u/s 146bpm
    baby girl born 5/10/13

    TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
    Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28. 
    IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
    IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
    IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
    FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
    FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!!  Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!

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  • lining was at 9. They were happy with anything 8 and over. I am sure it is anxiety and a bit of protecting your heart. GL! PPV!
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • I agree with pp that anxiety is playing a major part in how you're feeling.

    Sending lots of T&Ps your way and wishing you lots of luck today!

    TTC since 2008 dx PCOS & MFI
    Clomid/Femara no "O"
    IVF #1 BFN
    FET #1 cancelled for biopsy
    FET #1.2 c/p, July 2012 c/p
    IUI #1 & 1.2 canceled
    IVF #2 ER 12/1, Freeze all due to OHSS
    FET #2.1 cancelled due to DVT risk, FET #2.2 Jan 2013
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