Hello, let me introduce myself first..
For the first 30 years of my life, everything was smooth and worry-free. I was my parents’ most beloved child, found my true love in college, and happily married him after graduation.
At work, I was my boss’s most valued employee. Whenever I was in charge of a project, colleagues would inevitably say, “Oh, then I’m totally at ease.” I was constantly named “Employee of the Year,” with generous bonuses every year.
Later, I started my own business. Within just three months, I had broken into the market and started making money. By the fifth month, I was earning twice my previous salary. Growth was steady month after month. Right when the business needed more hands, I serendipitously met an amazing partner, and the company reached a whole new level.
Really, it seemed like at every step, whatever I needed, a pair of hands would always place it right in front of me, just in time.
My Two Girls: Ellie & Mia
Meet Ellie, My Firstborn
In 2020, my husband and I decided to have a child. After trying for over a year, we finally got the news in 2021 that a little one was on the way. In 2022, we welcomed our first child, Ellie. She made me a mother.
She is utterly adorable—big eyes, rosy skin, chubby little hands. Every time I look at her, I can’t help but give her a kiss. She is pure joy, and I love her more each day.
But as a first-time mom, I faced unprecedented difficulties. The postpartum tearing wouldn’t heal, and the pain was excruciating. Clogged milk ducts made my breasts hard as rocks. The severe sleep deprivation… And what was even more crushing was that, with zero parenting experience, I was clueless when faced with her unexplained wailing, night terrors, refusal to nurse, constipation, diarrhea, fevers… I desperately searched online, longing for one accurate, truly useful answer!
It was during this time that I thought, once I make it through this “dark” path, I must leave a light on for other new moms.
And Then Came Mia
Ellie had just turned one when I got pregnant again. In 2024, we welcomed our second daughter, Mia.
Completely different from Ellie, Mia is a great eater and sleeper. Although she had her fussy moments in the first two months, starting almost from month three, she became super easygoing. She feeds on schedule, gradually sleeps through the night, loves her solid foods, and adapted quickly when I had to stop breastfeeding due to mastitis.
This made me realize just how vastly different babies can be! It made me even more determined to write about my experiences.
Why I Had to Start This Blog
The Catalyst: A Life Pivoted
After Mia was born, my business also began to decline sharply. I had no choice but to close it and become a full-time mom. My work no longer involves Excel and Word, but instead revolves around changing diapers, washing bottles, making baby food, and managing household chores…
This has been a monumental challenge for me. All my past achievements seem irrelevant now. Managing two young children has brought me a sense of frustration I’ve never known before.
The Daily Reality
They are always fighting over things. When one is in my arms, the other immediately demands to be held too. When I try to cook, Ellie wants me to read her a book. When I attempt to load the washing machine, Mia has a diaper blowout, and I must drop everything to change her…
By the time I finish all that, I see the cup of hot coffee on the table has gone cold again. And it’s not until evening that I remember, “Oh my goodness, the clothes are still in the hamper, unwashed!”
Of course, being a mom is filled with happiness, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.
My Promise to You
Because I’ve walked this path myself, I won’t just tell you how joyful motherhood is, like many websites do. I want to share my real, unfiltered experiences so every new mom can find a “companion” here.
I want to tell you: you are not alone. What you’re going through, I’ve been there too. Your breakdowns, your helplessness, your moments of losing control—I’ve had them all. You don’t need to feel guilty. This is just a small, necessary stretch of the journey for every mom.
My Hope for This Space
I really want to share my parenting experiences—not just the warm, glowing moments, but to honestly document the pitfalls I’ve stumbled into, the tears I’ve shed, and the “survival wisdom” I’ve scraped together in utter exhaustion.
The Goal: A Mom’s Toolkit
I hope this blog becomes a “mom’s toolkit,” filled not with vague theories, but with:
- Practical Tips: Like how to quickly figure out why a baby is crying, tried-and-true methods for dealing with clogged ducts, or how to efficiently manage the daily grind with twins (or two under two) solo.
- Pitfall Avoidance Guides: Sharing the baby products I regret buying the most, and those “game-changer” parenting hacks. Letting you know which parenting anxieties you can let go of, and which principles are worth holding onto.
- A Community for Moms: I hope my stories connect me with more moms like you. We can cheer each other on in the comments, share our own tricks, turning the storms we face alone into a journey we walk together.
The Bigger Vision
My previous career taught me to analyze data, solve problems, and optimize processes. Now, I’m applying all those skills to this new “position” of Mom. I want to prove that a mom’s value is absolutely not confined to the home. The mindset, resilience, and creativity we built in our careers can shine just as brightly—perhaps even brighter—in this more complex, long-term “project” of raising humans, and can even be transformed into a force that helps others.
My hope is simple: that every mom who opens this blog can let out a sigh of relief and say, “So it’s not just me.” Then, she can find a bit of practical info, a dose of comforting solidarity, and return to her sweet, chaotic mom-life with a little more confidence and a little less weight on her shoulders.
This road? Let’s walk it together.
Re: Weekend Plans
Tonight: Going out with some friends to see a band at a little dive bar.
Tomorrow: DS wants to see Paranorman (ok, I do too). Back to school shopping and then the guys will go paint balling while I enjoy a quiet night at home with a movie by myself. If traffic is too bad (tax free weekend here, we may be hitting up 24 hour stores in the weeeee hours)
Sunday. Church (maybe). DS probably will see his Big Brother. To PetsMart to meet a Basset Hound I want to foster (whilst I make big sad eyes at J). Then Love and Logic parenting classes.
The house project continues with S's Dad and Uncle, so we're excited to put the puppy into daycare for a while each day, and BOTH be able to lend a hand up on the second floor at the same time!
I have a prenatal massage scheduled for Sunday, and I might try to take another hour to work on a volunteer project I've been REALLY neglecting. Other than that it's just going to be work, work, work. But I'm excited about it.
We DID get invited to an early breakfast tomorrow morning, not sure how we'd juggle that with the old guys around, but I'd like to try to join some friends for that. We're starting to feel more comfortable sharing our pregnancy news now after yesterday's ultrasound, so that might be a nice way to start spreading the word a bit more.
That's it for us!
Married to my amazing wife 6/12/10
TTC since 6/11
Unmedicated IUI #1 - 6/28/11 - BFN
Unmedicated IUI #2 - 7/25/11 - BFN
Robotic Myomectomy (Fibroid Surgery) - 11/15/11
Unmedicated IUI #3 - 4/24/12 - BFN
Progesterone Supported Leuteal Phase IUI #4 - 6/21/12 - BFP!!
Baby Boy G Born 3/24/13
On to #2, are we crazy?
IUI #1 - 11/28/14 - BFP! Beta #1 (11DPO) 34, Beta #2 (13DPO) 101, Beta #3 (20DPO) 3043
Ultrasound at 6w4d shows a single, fluttering heartbeat. Say hello to Sticky Ricki!
Fri: Pick up Ky and go home to do who knows what. Ann will be by sometime after work to pick up Ky and then i am free all evening. I might bake
Sat: Ann will drop Ky off bright and early! We have to miss tumbling since Ky is in a splint BUT my mom is off and we are all going shopping! I was supposed to have dinner plans with a friend on Saturday night at The Melt.ing Pot (neither of us has ever been) but she cancelled. I still have the reservation and am thinking about going but I hate eating alone...
Sun: Ann will pick up Ky around 9. Both of my parents work so I am on my own from 9 until dinner. I might jsut veg out and watch Grey's on net.flix...
Today - a couple more meetings then off to pick up a contract for new customer! Woohoo a sale!!! Then I am taking the rest of the day to relax. Tonight we are finishing cleaning the baby's room and putting together the cribs!
Tomorrow - My brother is coming over to help M with the garage and back yard. While they do the hard work, I will be doing laundry (my most hated chore in the world). I figure I better get in better habits now!
Sunday - Going down to see our best friend (we call her third wife, nothing kinky tho lol) and her husband and LO. M is going to help them hang a ceiling fan then we are going to lunch. After that I figure off to BRU to get our registry completed. I am hoping to be home sometime late afternoon so I can rest and relax.
06/12 - BFP!!!!
Beta #1 15dpo - 256
Beta #2 18dpo - 1097
6wk U/S on 07/02 ~ TWINS!!!
EDD 02/21/13
09/10/12 Found out it's two Boys!!!! Sam and Jake
Jacob and Samuel born 1/29/13 at 36 weeks.
Today's a good friend's Birthday, so I'm watching her babies for a dinner and movie night with her husband. Making bread play dough, we will see how this goes!
Sat: Station early morning! One part of my job I dislike: 4:30am!!! Working till boss says I can leave and then chill time!
Sun: 4:30am again, only till 10a though! Put Pulled Pork in the slow cooker, then lunch with mom and a nap hopefully. DP gets off of work at 8:30p so we will probably watch Weeds (dislike this season) and eat!
Friday - we're undecided. I really want to go dancing! V loves country and taught this foreigner how to two step, there is a gay country bar down town, and I LOVE it! Its such a great work out, and there is something about dancing as a couple that is so romantic! So walzing and two stepping it might be
Saturday:- Early morning, I'll go and pick up my prescription for femara/letrozole and take two of them!!! Then I'll stay in the same building and have my second acupuncture session - I'm excited for that. Later, V's softball team is having a draft party for their fantasy football league. Neither V or I understand or really care to understand the concept, but it promises to be a good get together. I'll spend the morning making potato salad and a pasta salad to take and share - at V's request. I think I'll be dd, because even though I haven't read that its a problem, I don't want to drink while I'm on the drugs.
Sunday:- I'm considering doing a brunch for the hangover softball girls, but still deciding whether I want to work that hard on Sunday
friday - heading to nyc tonight to visit family, so very very excited. taking P with me alone on the bus or train so very nervous as well. its times like these that i have to take a hard look and realize that there are times when i can't control her in public and it makes me want to melt. what is with this screaming she is so fond of nowadays? on the other hand i am happy to give D a weekend of sleeping in late.
saturday - early bday celebration with my dad. this will be his first time meeting P so this should be fun. most of my family has only just met her, so a lot of resentment there but i am trying to move past it as of late
sunday - heading back to boston, hopefully with all or most of my sanity