SO .. I went to the Dr. its been a while I needed to get labs pulled since its been well over a year out of surgery ( gastric bypass) i figure i should just make sure I am in the green vitamin wise... I am starving to death but for LIFE .. ( its hard for some to wrap their head around it but basically there is a HUGE loss of absorption )
Anyhow- while the med asst was checking my vitals she was hmm'ing ..i said whats up - ( i hate dr's for myself - a total medical nut and have a medical background but worse at following up ) The Med Asst said Your puls ox is low then took my BP and said that was low too... I said well its the morning I have not eaten so maybe I am compleatly empty..( my rational ) i ask the number bp is 104 over 70 i think and pulse was 50 ( yes low)
The Dr comes in stethoscope and all of the sudded I am getting EKG
the EKG gives number even lower... YIKES Dr. sayd Normal is 72puls and people who gt pacemakers they tend to be set at 60 ( that is the lowest ) I was at 38 ( OH MY ) freak out in my head -
she asked how i am feeling i said fine .. askes if I been tired _ NO well yes I have twins ... and been eating crapy so yea tired but I HAVE TWINS ... and asked if I have been sick and dizzy -- and NO, sick .. dizzy yea but I have this bypss and if i eat the wrong thing I can feel odd effects ( its true) so I been testing my blood sugar its LOW so i just assumed I was having a reactive hypoglycimea episode...
anyhow the Dr says yo u should prolly go to the HOSPITAL ..
Me: hear (CHA 'CHING sound AND SEE $$$$$) umm o I'm ok I prefer not to go ..
Dr: ok well this is pretty serious and please becareful and drink lots of caffeine get blood work and if you feel faint call 911 and echocardiogram on FRIDAY ...
Me OK - Umm 38 eh ... so OK ... well
Dr: I dont wanna scare you .... but this is really serious your heart is not really beating are you sure you feel fine ...
Me: Yea I am fine
Dr: well get home safely and slowly and relax dont work till after you see me Friday get blood done and really relax and drink lots of caffeine ...
So I am processing this ... I got in my car in parking lot and had a minor freak out called my parents crying hysterically ... and my dad YELLED AT ME ( WHY ARE YOU CALLING WHY ARE YOU CRYING GO TO THE HOSPITAL ) My mom rationalized- said well find out if its cheaper to go to hospital vs dr... as some insurance I guess its cheaper for ER visit vs. Dr stuff.. and I said i was scared and nervous and then PISSSED because Its all their faults my genetics suck and more crying and freaking out - I have to tell M then thinking about the girls HOLLY CRAPOLA - I'm dying and cue major freak out and then go to get a double shot of espresso in my chai tea late SUPER LARGE !!!
make it home- and Im still processing trying to figure out hospital vs. Friday visit - have a meeting to go to tonight for our LGBT group to try to get sponsor ship for pride and spazzing out because I am aped up on caffeine....
sleepless night - feeling like the TIN MAN
wondering - and web researching ( WORSE CASE SCENARIO) making bucket liste saying good by to the girls ... WHAT THE FRANK....
Blood work today fasting get there a hour early 6am they dont open till 7 walk around walmart sobbing buying randomness...(OH a rainbow ubrells good idea so the LGBT people can spot us at events ) more energy drinks and mountain dew but gotta wait till blood work
lab finally opens 22 vacutainers get home seem my girls HUNGRY and downed a cup of coffee ready to crack that mountain dew and LAB CALLS we forgot to do a test can you come back .. ARE YOU KIDDING ME I JUST DRANK COFFEE you could not tell me to wait while i was there.....
and Now working all day trying to keep busy and deal with this amped jitter from, caffeiene
waitingf or echo tomorrow .. but all of the sudden i feel tightness and feel a bit sad ....then thinking ..hmm Grandma is not doing too well maybe we can just take her pacemaker...
OY VEY ... I feel better writing this to you all.... M used to have Neurological syncope (grew out of it ) but she fainted while scuba diving - anyhow she used to pass out at 38 pulse so ... eek...
I am a fatalist and a realist - but wow .. I dont mean to be a downer - its inevitable and who even know what is wrong with me we will wait and see.. but I am so glad whatever it is decided to show up on the DR radar.. I can get fixed- Pills surgery whatever -( see I am already candidate-ing my self for a donor heart )
I FEELLIEK SCREAMING - I am SCARED but really I am ok I AM IT ALL scared and OK ... is that possible !!!
waiting patiently for tomorrow but all amped up on caffeine so conflicting and weird ...
K wellI feel tight all ofthe sudden and I should go lay down .. which makes no sense to me but it does .. if i am LOW ( bradycardia) then why rest and relax.. I KNOW I KNOW ...
UGG WORST patient ever till I know- gonna go listen to this non pumping pumper with my stethoscope
I will keep you posted and that is/was my VAUGEness on FB
Re: TIN MAN- Bummer post -Kind of
Ahh Thanks TDMK & CLAIRE .. Woah i just re read my SPAZZY post ha ha not funny but laughing ...how i deal I guess I can handle anyone elses problems with a clear head- but ya know I STILL HAVE TODAY so I cant succumb ! but wow the caffeine-
Yes I am so thankful that it did hap at the Dr office and I did not just drop out in the middle of this desert !
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Man that's a lot to deal with!
I will be sending all the extra strength I have your way. Keep us updated, please!
Married to my amazing wife 6/12/10
TTC since 6/11
Unmedicated IUI #1 - 6/28/11 - BFN
Unmedicated IUI #2 - 7/25/11 - BFN
Robotic Myomectomy (Fibroid Surgery) - 11/15/11
Unmedicated IUI #3 - 4/24/12 - BFN
Progesterone Supported Leuteal Phase IUI #4 - 6/21/12 - BFP!!
Baby Boy G Born 3/24/13
On to #2, are we crazy?
IUI #1 - 11/28/14 - BFP! Beta #1 (11DPO) 34, Beta #2 (13DPO) 101, Beta #3 (20DPO) 3043
Ultrasound at 6w4d shows a single, fluttering heartbeat. Say hello to Sticky Ricki!
Sending you and M and the girls good vibes. Hang in there. Today will tell you more. let me know if you want to chat, friend.
06/12 - BFP!!!!
Beta #1 15dpo - 256
Beta #2 18dpo - 1097
6wk U/S on 07/02 ~ TWINS!!!
EDD 02/21/13
09/10/12 Found out it's two Boys!!!! Sam and Jake
Jacob and Samuel born 1/29/13 at 36 weeks.
This is so wrong that it made me LOL. Hope you get good news at the doctor today!
((((((Jay)))))))
I love your spazzy stream off consciousness posts, for the record.
I hope they get it figured out quickly.
AMH 0.5, AFC 5-8, FSH 7ish
IVF #1 - antagonist. Empty follicle syndrome. 1 retrieved, 0 fertilized.
IVF #2 - antagonist. Ovulated early. 3 retrieved, 2 fertilized, 0 blasts
I hope you get some answers soon. That is a lot to deal with. Sending all kinds of good healing thoughts your way.
I hope you get some answers today...thinking of you. You know how to reach me if you want to talk...(((hugs)))
almost spit my water out ... haha Thank you - i think most people hate it but I am just me made me *SMILE*
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We're a LIL MACABE here.... heh heh ... but she is so giving really she would prolly just rip it out of here own chest - when she has her cadaver lenses put in ( she had cataract I told her about them - and she os so Eastern European old school and English is her 5th language she's a holocaust survivor only one out of her entire family ...so i told her about her eyes and she OH OK - well tell him i say THANK YOU in her uber thick accent ... I love my SAVTA!!!!!
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