Late Term and Child Loss

How is everyone doing?

Hello Ladies,

I am back after a much needed, relaxing, two week vacation at our cottage. I missed all you ladies and thought about you every day.

To the new loss moms: I have not yet had the chance to read all the new intros that I am heartbroken to see posted. I am so sorry for all your losses. It is not fair that you have had to join us but I am glad that you have found us. No one should have to go through this alone. Our circumstances all differ slightly but we all know the pain of losing a child. I hope you can find the support you need among us. Hugs to you all!

I will post the regular check ins on Thursday but in the meantime, how is everyone doing? Feel free to post any updates or vents needed. 

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Re: How is everyone doing?

  • Welcome back!  A two week vacation sounds amazing.

    I'm doing ok.  Everyday it gets a little easier, but I am still sooo sad, and missing my daughter all the time.  I met with a new OB and talked about TTC and how any future pregnancies will be monitored.  This gives me some hope, and something to look forward to. 

    I am going to a bridal shower this weekend and will be seeing a lot of friends for the first time.  I am trying to prepare myself mentally for this, and hoping to be strong. 

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers 

    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
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  • Unfortunately I am a newbie to the loss page.  Definitely not where I wanted to be but everyone is so nice and gives such a boosting reassurance.  My daughter would be a month old on Saturday but instead I'm sitting here still grieving her passing.  I thought as time went on it would get easier with each day but for me I struggle more and more each day.  I don't go back to work for another 2 1/2 weeks which I'm grateful for but at the same time think it is worse being home.  My husband seems to be handling things a little better than me which sort of angers me.  I feel like I am just sitting here asking for pity but that is not the case at all.  I just need to vent and get all my thoughts out, which is another problem I am currently experiencing. Lack of sleep because of so many racing thoughts.  While I'm very sad that I lost my first and only daughter, I am very grateful for the 10 days she blessed us with and will never forget the impact and how she touched our hearts in those 10 days. Thank you for asking how we were all doing and letting me vent!!!
  • I am glad you had a nice & relaxing vacation. It is nice to get away!  Welcome back & thank you so much for all of your wonderful support! I too wish that this board was not needed but am thankful it is a safe place to come to for support & know I am not alone!

    For me, today is 2 months since we found out our little boy passed away!  Thankfully work was really really busy so it helped me not to focus on it too much but now that I am home & my little guy is in bed, I am thinking about it more = (  I keep thinking how I should be almost 27 weeks and almost into the third trimester! 

    Hugs to everyone!!

    - Leslie 


  • Sounds like you had a great vacation!

    We're moving next this coming Monday and it's been extremely emotional for me. Not in the way I thought it would be from the aspect of this being the only home Corbin ever knew but from the standpoint of thinking he should be here with us and I should be trying to pack and move with a 9 and a half month old crawling around.  Our good friends and neighbors also brought their little boy home yesterday after being in the NICU for 202 days.  I'm extremely happy for them and they are wonderful, wonderful people and have had a very difficult road to get to this point, but I keep thinking that I should be going down to my neighbors and hanging out with her and our sons.

    Today is the first day of school for the kids in our neighborhood.  Watching the kids get on the bus made me teary thinking about how I'll never put Corbin on the bus for his first day of school and the school memory book a friend gave me that goes year by year from preschool to college will never be filled with memories of Corbin's school days.

    It's just been crazy emotionally lately because I'm so sad to leave our house and our neighbors who we love but absolutely love our new house and can't wait to move in all in the same breath.  

     

    In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

     

     

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  • Welcome back! I am very jealous of your two week vacation Smile I am glad you got to get away and had a good time!


    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13

    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • Thanks for checking in. I'm new here too, and still not sure how to answer the question "how are you doing?" I had a pretty good weekend, but have been a lot more sad today. I guess that's the way this process goes. Luckily I don't go back to work for another few weeks-I definitely still need time to adjust to this new, terrible reality.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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