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April 2011 Moms
SandiaPinaMama
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BFP#1 "Watermelon" born 3/2011
BFP#2 "Pumpkin" 7/14/12 ~ EDD 3/23/13 ~ Natural M/C 8/3/12 @ 7 weeks
BFP#3 "Pineapple" born 4/2013
BFP#4 "Grapefruit" EDD 3/29/16
I lost the baby
SandiaPinaMama
member
Hi girls.
This is still the board I consider my home board, so I wanted to post here. I hope that's okay. I'm not really sure where I would want to post about it.
I would have been 7 weeks on Saturday. Instead, I lost the baby. At a fair. It was awful. I'm not sure what to do with myself now, and I can't get a grip on my emotions. One minute I'm fine and planning the next cycle, and the next, I'm crying again. Poor DS must be so confused. I am.
ETA: Can I tell you guys something I probably wouldn't post elsewhere? This is so much easier I think with DS around. I mean, yes, I'm still missing the baby I thought I would cuddle, but then I get to pick up and cuddle DS, and it's better. And just now, I'm sitting here with tears pouring down my face, and then I look at DS, and he's got a shredded paper towel (how'd he get that??), and he is putting the tiny little pieces into his hair like snow. I had to laugh at him, and then I'm feeling better despite myself. This makes me feel just terrible for the poor women who go through this with their first pregnancy(ies).
BFP#1 "Watermelon" born 3/2011
BFP#2 "Pumpkin" 7/14/12 ~ EDD 3/23/13 ~ Natural M/C 8/3/12 @ 7 weeks
BFP#3 "Pineapple" born 4/2013
BFP#4 "Grapefruit" EDD 3/29/16
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Re: I lost the baby
I am not a native to this board, but as a BLM I just want to say that I am so sorry for your loss. If I hadn't had my older child to keep it together for when I lost C, I would probably have been in a much worse place. So I do understand.
I am so sorry for your loss.
As for feeling differently, I can completely understand. I had a blighted ovum at 9 weeks before Josie was born. Sure it sucked, but I knew I could (and had) have a successful pregnancy and birth. I also realized how common this is and figured I would have a m/c at one point or another since I planned on having 3 children.
I had a CP before this pregnancy. It sucked, not necessarily because it was a loss, but because I didn't want to start the TTC-ing over again.
I got pregnant the next month after my m/c and I wish you the same kind of luck!
Take care of yourself and give that little boy lots and lots of cuddles! Big hugs to you!
Christian Alexander - 11/13/06
Amelia Rose & Owen Thomas - 3/29/11
I am very sorry that you're going through this. Hope you get your fill of snuggles from DS.
Little Man Z - 2011
Baby Girl E - 2013
Again, I am so sorry for you loss, I posted on TTGP, but wanted to tell you I felt the EXACT same way when I lost the baby in my second pregnancy. I couldn't imagine going through that without already having a LO at home. It is heart breaking whenever it happens, but having a child at home made it a lot easier for me.
You will get through this, but right now be sad and let all those emotions come out.
Take care of yourself.
(hugs) I'm sorry for your loss.
and yes, I had 5 m/c before finally getting my twins and it hurts beyond words to suffer a loss (much less multiple times) without knowing if you will ever become a parent. There are days you just don't even want to go forward anymore because it hurts so much.
I'm glad that your son is able to help you through this loss in his own special way. Hug him a little closer and kiss him a few more times than normal today.
I am so sorry.
Take comfort wherever you can find it.
growing a foosa