My high maintenance baby is so much work. I've never been so tired in my life. I start out my day well, lots of protein and fiber...but it goes downhill from there. I'm so flipping tired but since my baby doesn't sleep, I don't either. Then I crave all the easy junk I can eat while holding my needy baby. Then when she finally goes to sleep for the night ps it's 11:37 pm and she's still awake all I have the energy for is wine lots!! and dessert. OMG I feel disgusting and have a ton of baby weight to lose but this is flipping impossible! : Plus I'm nursing and I'm starving 24/7. Ugh. Pity party, table of 1 right here. I'm feeling more and more overwhelmed every day. But I don't know if it's just the lack of sleep and extreme exhaustion or PPD creeping in? There is no point to this post. :
Re: I'm going to be fat forever
I'll join the pity party! I don't see much more weight coming off until he's sleeping better. Exhaustion is not a friend of weight loss, unless it's acceptable to drink pots of coffee, but LO isn't a fan of that approach.
This damned MSPI diet we're trying is also making it extremely difficult, as most of my go-to high protein snacks are dairy based. Although it does also remove a whole bunch of not helpful foods like ice cream and most chocolate, though then I have no restraint around things I can eat, like Oreos and Rice Crispy squares.
We'll get there eventually!
I'm way late to the party, but I agree that you're probably beautiful, even if you don't feel it. I know that EBFing means it's hard to even take a break from everything, but even if you can get a break from holding LO for a little bit, it'll be a huge relief. As for weight loss, I'm right there with you. Everyone kept telling me that the weight would just fall off, especially if I BF. Yeah. Not so much. 6 weeks PP, I was still up 3 sizes by squeeeezing into a pair of pants. Now, at almost 5 months, I'm still up 2 sizes, but could grossly squeeze into a size bigger. I have to go back to work now, and not a single thing in my wardrobe fits my lower half. Skirts don't even work, because they all have zippers and would set right below my bra. I'm actually hoping that going back to work will give me a better routine to eat healthier and stay more active, instead of sitting with LO all.day.long.
*Don't get me wrong. I love my LO more than anything in the world and would stay this size forever if it was best for him. I'm just grasping for things to make going back to work easier.
Hang in there. I hear it gets better.
Micah Leonard