it feels so akward to be around anyone but my husband right now. I know what they are all thinking and i feel like i just want to move on and not think about it. Its hard as it is when it seems everywhere you look someones pregnant or having a baby or something. The past few days my family has been really reaching out and i almost feel embarrassed, like i let everyone down...im just so lost.
Re: pushing family away
You need to do what is right for you right now. Do not feel bad about wanting some time on your own (or with your husband) to deal with things. You didn't let anyone down. You have nothing to be embarrassed about. I would try to remember that your family may be grieving too, and they are probably only trying to help; still, you are grieving. You need time to heal.
Could you try explaining (or having your husband explain) that you appreciate them reaching out, but need some time to heal on your own? I think that most people would respect that you need some space.
I am so sorry for your loss.
BFP #2 07/12/2012 (EDD 03/23/13); m/c 07/28/12
BFP #3 12/05/2012 (EDD 08/19/2013); baby girl born 08/09!
Sorry for your loss. Thats how I felt. I started mc-ing on Wed and had my baby's first bday party this last Saturday I just told my husband to tell who ever we had told not to mention in. Everyone was respectful and didn't mention it and was nice. I don't like to think about or I get emotional. Today was one of those days.