TTC after 35
danieleandwayne
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You know that moment...
danieleandwayne
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in TTC after 35
... when all your frustration, sadness, and disappointment finally come welling up and you can't push them down anymore because you did something stupid like, oh, say.... hit your head on the ledge on your way up the stairs from the basement??
Yeah, I just had that moment. Tears are over, for now. I hope my little cryfest is simply a result of hormones and is indicative of AF's imminent arrival...
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"You have to do your own growing no matter how tall your grandfather was."
-- Abraham Lincoln
Me:39 MH:39
DD born 6/1/2013 after 15 months of TTC with one loss.
TTC #2: BFP 4/22 but stalled growth and no HB at 9w3d on 5/30
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Re: You know that moment...
*hugs* I'm sorry.
I have those days too - where I'm holding together pretty well, and then something happens that normally wouldn't faze me, and bam...I'm falling apart. Sounds like this was you today. The hormones probably have something to do with it too. Hang in there, hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
Melissa
Me 41 DH 46 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. TTC #2 **5th cycle 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy is due 04/28/13!!
I'm sorry for your moment. My DH is OOT for a boy's weekend. Last night I was reading one of the bumpie's DH's IF blog (yes from his perspective) and just cried my eyes out. I went to bed and had another cry, just feeling sorry for myself and how much the world sucks at the moment. I'm glad DH wasn't around to witness my sob fest.
Me:40 AMA, DH:36 0% morph, TTC#1;
BFP#1 4/2011, MMC 6/2011 11wks Trisomy 13;
BFP#2 11/2011, CP
FSH: 17.9, AMH: 2.2
IVF#1 w/ICSI: ER 4/3: 5R,4M,4F
ET 4/6 All 4 (1-8A+, 2-8A-, 1-3A) BFP#3
Two weeks of beta hell = Blighted Ovum
IVF#2 Aug/Sept: ER 8/27: 4R,3M,3F
ET 8/30 (1-8A+, 1-6A+)
Beta#1 9/10: 350; Beta#2 9/12: 796; Beta#3 9/20: 9155
Expecting Boy/Girl Twins! My babies were born 4/23/13 at 36w1d!
Ouch. That sounds painful.
I've spent quite a bit of time this past year being thankful that I haven't gotten into any car accidents.
I hope you don't develop a headache. At least you can take Advil ...
Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY! Aiden was born 08/20/2013.
IVF #2 is in progress. ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI. ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived. We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14. 1st beta - 111. 2nd beta - 159 didn't double
3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic. Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome? 06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope! 06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally! 06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great 
EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
I'm glad you got to have a good cry, although I'm sorry you are having a tough time.
I felt particularly down this week, and had a breakdown when a bossy checker at the supermarket insisted on telling me about their new rewards program. These things happen.