Hello Ladies,I hope I find you all well and positive this week! If you have any questions you would like answered, please don't be shy! You can also ask the PAL ladies. Bake, little buns, bake!
When you first found out you were Pg, how many times did you POAS? Be honest! 
What was your first reaction when you got your BFP? How did you tell your S/O and what was their first reaction?
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
Re: *Pg With My Rainbow Check-In*
I only POAS once. I waited til 18 dpo so I knew it was right.
I told DH on a Sat. morning. He was making breakfast and I set the table. I laid it across his placemat on a napkin and waited til he came to the table (which took forever!). He saw it, grinned and said, "You're kidding!" We were so shrewd had missed our window that cycle.
Once the excitement of that moment wore off (and it was literally like, one minute) the worry already began to set it. There was this settling into seriousness, like- ok, here we go. It didn't seem real for quite some time and I know we both felt detached from it for a while. Not until I hit around 9 or 10 weeks did it really start to sink in.
I'm just trying not to worry this week. Our MFM told us this week that while it's good that things seem ok for now, she really thinks we're going to "hit a wall" at some point in this pregnancy, whether it's with PTL or IC. She just hopes its later rather than sooner. Based on the fact that PTL and shortening cervix were already presenting at 15 wks, that doesn't look too good. I'm just trying to take it day by day but I am truly scared we may lose this baby too.
I've lost count of the sticks I've peed on...7 maybe? And then I started peeing on leftover opk's because they are supposed to show up positive for pg too.
It wasn't a happy excited feeling, but more of a relief. DH and I just crawled back into bed and he held me for awhile. I had been praying and asking Avery to help us get pregnant on the earliest possible cycle where we wouldn't miscarry. I feel like I got a sign in numbers that she is watching over us and this baby will be okay. This baby's due date is in March 2013 and all of Avery's important numbers included 3 and 13, so that brought me some peace.
One sil is about to have a little girl on the 1st and another one just found out she is pregnant and due about the time when Avery was due. I'm having a hard time with these because I feel like all these new grandkids are going to overshadow my little girl. I'm really having a hard time with the fact that the first one is a girl. I am really scared that I won't be able to be in the same room with her without getting upset, and I really want to be able to love her.
No worries. When next Thursday comes and someone is available to post a check-in, then great! If not, take a break. I will post again when I get back.
What was your first reaction when you got your BFP? How did you tell your S/O and what was their first reaction? Just super emotional, we were watching a movie and decided I would test that night, so I was trying to hold my pee as long as possible. Then we paused the movie, I went and peed on it and gave it to DH to see it first. After he showed it to me I think I just said "Oh my God" about 5 times, then the waterworks started. I was so sad for Peyton, so excited for this new LO, and so TERRIFIED. The main thing I remember saying to DH was "You have to help me!"
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Just trying not to dwell on my milestone...even though it's still about 5 weeks away it seems like it's coming up fast... I can already feel the anxiety from it. Just trying to focus my energy in a positive way, work on the nursery.... trying to stay excited.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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What was your first reaction when you got your BFP? How did you tell your S/O and what was their first reaction? I told her about the evap/pink line and showed her the test and right away she was like "umm, I think this is positive." I got annoyed with her for trying to give me hope. TTC had just been soooo stressful that I felt like I couldn't let myself be hopeful. She dropped it but suggested maybe I should test again that day. I did while she was napping that afternoon--this time with a frer--and got a clear pink line within about a minute. I woke her up and told her she got a "gotcha" (our name for when one of us is wrong and the other is right) and that the wondfo had been positive.
I think we both felt very relieved to get the positive. Like at least we are done with the TTC part and wondering if I will still be fertile and all that. Of course actually being pregnant brings a whole other set of worries. Since my period was due for another couple days I kept testing to make sure I still had a line the next few days. At 14 dpo I still wasn't getting a positive on the digital and the line of the frer hadn't really gotten darker. So we started worrying about a very early chemical pregnancy. I stopped testing for the weekend and then on 16 dpo did get a darker line on frer and a positive digital. I also got a beta done that day and it was over 400 and then was 1400 48 hours later.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I'm sort of struggling with what to think/how to feel about the pregnancy. Part of me wants to be hopeful. Another part of me thinks it is silly to be hopeful and best to protect myself emotionally by pretending it is not happening. I am a planner, though, so I find myself thinking about when I should tell my work, and how my maternity leave would work, and whether we can afford for my wife to take some unpaid leave, etc. It's really hard to just pretend it's not happening.
BFP #2 7/11/12. EDD 3/23/13. Ada Alice born 3/20/13.