not feeling like myself lately...

Ladybug32110 · July 2012

Okay so I don't normally share a whole lot on here but I want to know what you ladies think. I don't know if this is PPD or just sleep deprivation or from the mini pill but I haven't been feeling myself lately.

I am sad, when I am normally like "Hey!! Yay!! Woo HOO!!" type of person.. I feel like I don't even love DH, I have absolutely no sex drive. I do not have thoughts of hurting myself or D, actually quite the opposite where I feel like I do not ever want to leave her. This morning she refused to eat and I literally was like bawling- I don't think that is normal. I don't know... I don't have a lot of help from DH with chores but we live with my parents and they do all the cooking/shopping and my mom plays with D every night for at least an hour so I know people can easily deal with much more than this... Also, DH mentioned yesterday that he thinks something is not right with me, so he sees it too. Also, we are going on our annual vacation next week that I am usually ecstatic about but I feel like I don't even care.

D has not been sleeping well and I went back to work just a few weeks ago so this could be from sleep deprevation but I am going to stop taking the mini pill to see if it helps. I feel like it's not serious enough to be PPD but this I definitely don't feel like myself. Does anyone else feel this way? or maybe people with PPD were your symptoms more serious? Sorry if this sounds dumb, there's probably more to it that I forgot to include but I just wanted to get some advice... thank you

AshleyC0117 · July 2012

I'm sorry you haven't been feeling great. I'm not sure if it's PPD, but when I suffered from a small bout of depression the number one thing I noticed is a lack of interest in things that normally would excite me, which is what you're describing. I think it's worth mentioning to your OB.

Hopefully it's just sleep deprivation and you'll bounce back soon! But if it's something more there is no shame in getting a little bit of help.

hass2001 · July 2012

I think it's serious enought that you brought it up here and even your hubby mentioned it. There is nothing wrong with just giving your doctor a call and talking with them to see what they think. They like to hear from you! At least that is what my doctor always said.

I was crying non-stop after DD was born and was put on 50mgs of Zoloft. I immediately felt like myself again!

And you never know maybe it is just the sleep deprivation. Maybe the vacation next week will help get you back to normal

Ladybug32110 · July 2012

hass2001:

I think it's serious enought that you brought it up here and even your hubby mentioned it. There is nothing wrong with just giving your doctor a call and talking with them to see what they think. They like to hear from you! At least that is what my doctor always said.

I was crying non-stop after DD was born and was put on 50mgs of Zoloft. I immediately felt like myself again!

And you never know maybe it is just the sleep deprivation. Maybe the vacation next week will help get you back to normal

Thank you for your response, can I ask if your still on the Zoloft? I am afraid to get dependant on something ya know?

hass2001 · July 2012

Ladybug32110:
hass2001:

I think it's serious enought that you brought it up here and even your hubby mentioned it. There is nothing wrong with just giving your doctor a call and talking with them to see what they think. They like to hear from you! At least that is what my doctor always said.

I was crying non-stop after DD was born and was put on 50mgs of Zoloft. I immediately felt like myself again!

And you never know maybe it is just the sleep deprivation. Maybe the vacation next week will help get you back to normal

Thank you for your response, can I ask if your still on the Zoloft? I am afraid to get dependant on something ya know?

Yes, I have been on it since 2 weeks PP and still take it. A few times I have forgotten to take my pill and on those days I have noticed I get easily frustrated and cry. It sucks to be dependant on something like that but I much prefer that to an unhappy mommy!

Ximena M · July 2012

It sounds like depression. You may just need to get out. I don't know if you get a chance to take regular walks or exercise, but that really helps me. I also try to do something with a friend outside the house at least once a week. These seem like little things,but I was boarder line depressed before I started to do these things. Lately, we've been too broke for me to go out any place. I have to make sure that I get out of the house for a walk so I don't slide back down.

Good Luck! Take care of yourself.

huahualove · July 2012

This sounds a lot like how I felt when ds was going through his 3 month growth spurt that lasted over 2 weeks. He pretty much was screaming bloody murder most of the time he was awake if he wasn't eating. Dh works a whole lot and we have no family here so it is all on me. I wouldn't hurt myself or ds, but I felt really deppressed. I was about to call my dr when it started to get better. It helped that ds wasn't screaming quite as much and I talked to dh and my mom on the phone about it. I'm afraid to leave ds, I've only been away for 2 20 min times and he was with dh. I'm afraid something bad will happen to him because I keep hearing about babies dying and I was sexually abused by a sitter and my dad so I trust no one to stay with ds. By the time dh is home from work, he can't help watch while I go get my haircut or whatnot because places aren't open that late. I don't know if what I'm saying is really helping or making things worse, but I just wanted to let you know that I've been there. Some days are better than others, try to talk to people about it that you trust, and if you want to, call your dr if you think meds could help. Good luck!

Ladybug32110 · July 2012

huahualove:
This sounds a lot like how I felt when ds was going through his 3 month growth spurt that lasted over 2 weeks. He pretty much was screaming bloody murder most of the time he was awake if he wasn't eating. Dh works a whole lot and we have no family here so it is all on me. I wouldn't hurt myself or ds, but I felt really deppressed. I was about to call my dr when it started to get better. It helped that ds wasn't screaming quite as much and I talked to dh and my mom on the phone about it. I'm afraid to leave ds, I've only been away for 2 20 min times and he was with dh. I'm afraid something bad will happen to him because I keep hearing about babies dying and I was sexually abused by a sitter and my dad so I trust no one to stay with ds. By the time dh is home from work, he can't help watch while I go get my haircut or whatnot because places aren't open that late. I don't know if what I'm saying is really helping or making things worse, but I just wanted to let you know that I've been there. Some days are better than others, try to talk to people about it that you trust, and if you want to, call your dr if you think meds could help. Good luck!

Thank you.. It does help to hear I'm not alone, even though I know this it just helps to here it! I'm sorry you were/are having a hard time too.. this mommy thing is pretty hard but so so so worth it!

babybug11 · July 2012

Don't have much advice to give that the PPs haven't already said so.. ((HUGS))

huahualove · July 2012

Ladybug32110:
huahualove:
This sounds a lot like how I felt when ds was going through his 3 month growth spurt that lasted over 2 weeks. He pretty much was screaming bloody murder most of the time he was awake if he wasn't eating. Dh works a whole lot and we have no family here so it is all on me. I wouldn't hurt myself or ds, but I felt really deppressed. I was about to call my dr when it started to get better. It helped that ds wasn't screaming quite as much and I talked to dh and my mom on the phone about it. I'm afraid to leave ds, I've only been away for 2 20 min times and he was with dh. I'm afraid something bad will happen to him because I keep hearing about babies dying and I was sexually abused by a sitter and my dad so I trust no one to stay with ds. By the time dh is home from work, he can't help watch while I go get my haircut or whatnot because places aren't open that late. I don't know if what I'm saying is really helping or making things worse, but I just wanted to let you know that I've been there. Some days are better than others, try to talk to people about it that you trust, and if you want to, call your dr if you think meds could help. Good luck!

Thank you.. It does help to hear I'm not alone, even though I know this it just helps to here it! I'm sorry you were/are having a hard time too.. this mommy thing is pretty hard but so so so worth it!

Thanks! I really am feeling a ton better than I was, still not totally myself though. It is always good to know you aren't alone!

Kdrake8 · July 2012

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way

Can I ask if it could possibly be the mini pill? Is it a hormone based bc? I know I personally can't take any bc pills. When I do, I gain weight and breast size quickly, my emotions go out of whack, and I feel very sad, depressed, and angry.

I don't know if this is a possibility for you? I just thought I'd throw it out there. I hope you are feeling better soon!

Ladybug32110 · July 2012

kdrake8:

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way

Can I ask if it could possibly be the mini pill? Is it a hormone based bc? I know I personally can't take any bc pills. When I do, I gain weight and breast size quickly, my emotions go out of whack, and I feel very sad, depressed, and angry.

I don't know if this is a possibility for you? I just thought I'd throw it out there. I hope you are feeling better soon!

I am thinking the same thing so I think I am going to go off it for a few weeks and see if I notice a difference. I haven't had a problem with hormonal BC in the past but I know my body can be way different after pregnancy and while breastfeeding. I definitely feel like my emotions are out of whack

kandrze1 · July 2012

Ladybug32110:
hass2001:

I think it's serious enought that you brought it up here and even your hubby mentioned it. There is nothing wrong with just giving your doctor a call and talking with them to see what they think. They like to hear from you! At least that is what my doctor always said.

I was crying non-stop after DD was born and was put on 50mgs of Zoloft. I immediately felt like myself again!

And you never know maybe it is just the sleep deprivation. Maybe the vacation next week will help get you back to normal

Thank you for your response, can I ask if your still on the Zoloft? I am afraid to get dependant on something ya know?

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I would definitely talk to a doctor. Right after I had E I was pretty down and really, really anxious about everything. I'm on a low dose of Zoloft and its helping. I try not worry about being dependent on the meds. I had really bad panic attacks one year I was in college and briefly took something similar to Zoloft which I was able to stop taking once some issues were resolved.