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Having a mental breakdown and yes it's only 9:10am
I'm sorry but I just need to rant. I've been feeling like this is "the cycle". So many things were different, W CM pretty much from the time of O for about a week (I am normally dry as heck right after O), what I thought was IB on 9DPO, a chart that looked pretty triphasic (just to name a few). I tested this weekend, why IDK and all BFNs. I cannot take this anymore!!!!!! I even stooped so low to take OPKs just to see if there was any truth to peeonastick.com's articles. Clearly it doesn't apply to me!!!
I spent pretty much the entire day yesterday on the internet researching what if anything--all of my symptoms mean and if it's possible to get a BFP still??? I feel like this morning at 12DPO to get another BFN, it means my hopes ave come crashing down. AGAIN! I'm at a point where I'm asking myself if this is really in the cards for me? I don't think I have enough tears left or enough energy left in my body to continue on this journey of disappointment. My sister told me try again next month- I almost bit her head off. It's comments like that that have kept me quite over much of the past two years in sharing my struggle with family. She doesn't get it. No one really does.
I hate when ppl just tell me to pray- as if I haven't been doing that for the past 23 cycles! My doctors keep telling me I'm in the "unexplained" category and to "relax". Honestly if someone tells me that one more time I may just lose it. It's been 23 cycles, not 4! Don't tell me to relax. I'm at a low this morning ladies, I'm sorry to be so emotional but I cannot take this devastation anymore. Oh btw my neighbor is 7 months pregnant with her 3rd and has a 9month old. Not what I wanted to find out on a Monday morning!
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Re: Having a mental breakdown and yes it's only 9:10am
I'm so sorry and completely understand what you're feeling. I'm on my 21 cycle of TTC and there are times when I just don't know how much more I can take. I'm starting my 2ww, and I know I'm going to spend this week and next analyzing every possible symptom and wondering if this will be the month for us. Part of me wants to be hopeful, but another part truly wonders if having another baby is in the cards for us as well.
I know how hard it is when family and friends just don't get it but hang in there and be kind to yourself. <<Hugs>>
I know EXACTLY how you feel.......this will be cycle 23 for me and I am also in the unexplained category. I really wish that there was an "answer" as to why I can't get pregnant.
Hugs, hang in there! One thing that actually helped me mentally was doing accupuncture, not that it has gotten me pregnant yet but I really has improved my mental well being and reduced the stress around TTC.
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
Big hug , i completely understand and relate to you , i stopped talking about my struggles to my family
last month my sister took a picture of my daughter and photoshopped it to appear as if she was twins , send me the pic with the title here is your second daughter
i did not find it amusing at all
they don't know or feel the struglle we feel
today my friend is due with her second , she's at the hospital right not and got pregnant on the first try
saturday she was complaining about her 1 1/2 year ols DD again makes u wonder why not me ?
TTC#2 October 2011. June 2012 diagnosed with mild PCOS and both tubes blocked.
10/1/12 miracle BFP 11/12/12 missed m/c (9w2d), baby stopped growing at 7 weeks
1/16/13 BFP, EDD 9/27/13, m/c 1/19/13
2/12/13 BFP, EDD 10/25/13 Please stick little one
A stowaway on board!
I don't even know how I would have handled that. It's nice to hear someone can relate.
Thanks. I keep trying to stay positive. I've been having some signs that are making me say ok take a step back until AF comes....like this uncontrollable nausea I've had all weekend. I just almost barfed in the bathroom at work. I'm trying not to look into it, as a BFN's a BFN!