X Posted on MC/PL Board- My letter to Arabella.

Roxycc55 · July 2012

I wrote this letter about 2 weeks ago. I read it on occasion now, but I felt like sharing it on here.

Dear Arabella Ann,

I love you and will love you forever. I am so sorry this had to happen. I thought I was going to have an entire lifetime to say things to you, so it's hard to fit everything into this letter. I hope where you are now, you can feel all the love surrounding you. I hope I was able to provide you peace and comfort and love on your short time with us, and as you left me. I will never really understand why this had to happen, but no matter what, I will always be thankful I was blessed with you. You will stay in my heart, and in your dad's forever. We loved you and were so excited for you. Now thar the excitement is gone, the love never will be. You meant so much to me in such a short amount of time, and you really changed my life forever, greatly for the better. I wish I could've helped you grow as much as you helped me. My only hope is that you are in a better place, and will never have to know the pain and suffering of this world. You will always be my first baby. I will always cherish the memories I have from when we already felt that you were with us, inside of me. I hope you felt the love I was giving you. I thought about you every second of every day, and will continue to do the same. You will never not be in my heart and mind, but with time it will be more happy than sad. As long as I live, you will live. As long as I live, you will be remembered. As long as I live, you will be loved. The bond I had with you will always stay with me. I feel so grateful to have been able to experience that with you. There is so much pain right now, but I know the pain is only there because of how much love is there too. I was ready to be your mom forever, and even though I will miss out on teaching you things and seeing you grow, I know I still always will be. I wish we could have experienced more together. I will always wonder ehy this happened. But no matter what else, I will love you for the rest of my life. And I feel your love too. Thank you for the time we were given together.

Love Always,

Mom