Maybe that's a bizarre thing to say. It's frustrating to wait, and sometimes discouraging to see people who have been waiting for less time than you get matched while you still wait, but it has seriously opened my eyes to see how awesome adoption is.
I know that our baby will come to us exactly when s/he's supposed to- or else it's not our baby. Just like with our biological son, if I had gotten pregnant any sooner or any later, that baby wouldn't be Noah.
It just blows my mind how each adoption story is so unique and amazing: We got a call last week about a baby that needed a family and after much prayer and talking, we took our names out of the hat for her. It was hard, but we didn't feel like she was "our child" for multiple reasons. Fast forward to this week and I hear of a family in our town and our agency who WAS pursuing that baby (the baby was in custody of the agency and therefore the agency would be choosing the family) and I got very excited for them- AND I was stoked that I would somehow be able to hear how this sweet baby's story ended up.
Yesterday we heard that the family in town were not chosen for this baby. Within 10 minutes of hearing this news and being heartbroken, the mom of this family called her (our) agency to tell her the news that they were not matched. Our agent listened to her cry and comforted her- and then gave her the news that she had just walked out of a meeting with a birth mother who had chosen them! How cool is that? At the exact time they were getting the sad news about that first baby, they were being chosen for their baby!
I guess I am just amazed at how it all works out- and LOVE hearing everyone's stories!- and the longer we wait, the more I try to fight being anxious and try to enjoy this ride. This sounds odd, but it's almost like getting married- you wait and wait and plan and plan for the day and then suddenly it has come and gone! I am hoping that I can start to really try not to wish this time away. We will get the call when we get the call and for now I'm going to try to just prepare our home and our hearts and enjoy this last bit of time we have as a family of 3.
Sorry if this post is random to the max, I just wanted to share and I hope the story encourages those of us who are waiting!
Re: The longer I'm in this waiting game, the cooler it gets.
Wow, that's an awesome story!
I agree with you. Waiting is hard, but it makes the outcome a million times more worthwhile. :-) You have a wonderful attitude.
I wish I could feel this way, but we don't even know that we (or anyone else on our waiting list) are being shown to anyone. I know only of one time our profile was shown and that was back in February. We don't get any info on whether birthmoms are even seeing our profile.
I would feel happy for people who are being matched, but since the waiting list we are on has not had any matches (it has only grown longer), it is hard to keep the right perspective. In fact, it feels like really, really, really hard work to keep the positive attitude that you have. I wish I could more easily look at it the way you do.
We're looking at using a consultant to get our profile shown more widely, so maybe that will help get my attitude going in the right direction. Right now, this is almost worse than the IVF. At least with IVF something was happening, even if it was negative. At least we could see the other couples in the clinic and share in their emotions. With this, we've got nothing except this board...which is getting harder and harder to visit.
Sorry to be a Debby Downer.
after several m/c, DD#1 born 7-7-08, more m/c and failed IVF, started adoption process March 2011, matched Oct 2, 2012, DD#2 born 10-31-12
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Oh, it's IS hard work! It's a definite conscience effort every day and I still cry randomly- I'm just trying to think of it in a new perspective.
We don't hear when we're shown to BM's either. That's crazy that the waiting list keeps getting longer! Is there another agency nearby that you could work with? That's a great idea about the consultant!
wife to joe 2.2.08. mama to noah 9.5.09.
After multiple m/c's, a MTHFR diagnosis and the Lord calling both of our hearts in the same direction, we're adopting!
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