I really don't want one... =(

starcrossd · June 2012

At my 38-week visit my doctor noticed I had a small sore on my vagina. She swabbed it and also gave me a blood test. She gave me some acyclovir to take while we waited the test results. My sore was gone when the test results came back two days later. The lab results came back, it said that I had HSV-1, just on my genitals. The blood test showed that I had gotten it recently because I didn't have many antibodies.

Now she says I need a c-section because the baby hasn't had enough time to build up antibodies. But I don't have any sores now, and I only had the one sore for two days. I really, really don't want a c-section. I had planned to do things as naturally as possible. I'm really sad about it... and I don't know how to talk to people that are asking questions about why I'm having a c-section. I feel embarrassed and disappointed.

Do I really have to have a c-section? I still want to do things naturally. But is that selfish? Now I just feel guilty. Has anyone else been through this?

Today is Monday. My c-section is scheduled for Friday. My due date is next Monday.

jb2rn · June 2012

I totally understand not wanting a c section, I did not either.

However, you need to trust your MD on this one. I would not mess around with HPV and the risk to your baby. Get a second medical opinion if you don't feel your OB is making a wise decision, I would not trust non medical people on the internet for this purpose.

I do have to ask, though..is there concern about your partners fidelity? How could you have gotten HPV recently?

As for what others say, I would just say "there are some medical issues I am having and my doctor recommends c-section". Enough said.

Best of luck to you!

DawnLilly · June 2012

I cried for two weeks straight after chiro, spinning babies and a failed external cephalic version couldn't flip my breech little one. I mean two weeks literally. Every day, multiple times a day. I had been planning on a natural med free water birth. I'm holding DS now and while I'm still disappointed it pales in comparison. I started doing kegals and holding my ab muscles tight for 20 second reps at pB week pp. My scar looks amazing, I'm 10 lbs short of my pre pregnancy weight, I stopped bleeding 4 days ago and DH and I had very slow careful but amazing sex last night

Don't be scared just do what's best for you and the little one. I wish I had tried to enjoy the last couple weeks more and savored the last little bit instead of being so depressed.

mlf625 · June 2012

You tell other people you and your OB feel c-section is the best choice for you and your baby. That's all anyone needs to know.

jb2rn:

I do have to ask, though..is there concern about your partners fidelity? How could you have gotten HPV recently?

I was wondering that, as well.

FemShep · June 2012

What's most important is getting your baby here as safely as possible. Don't take chances with this-imagine how you'd feel if your baby experienced a preventable, serious illness because you didn't want a CS.

In terms of what to say if people ask, simply say your doctor recommended a CS. Or ask them why they want to know-it's really no one else's business anyway.

arevans31 · June 2012

Hsv can cause serious health issues in the baby. If we're to have gone undiganosised and the baby got sick it can affect all the organs. I would definitely listen to your ob on this one

mben1119 · June 2012

Unfortunately, your OB is right. With HSV-I, that early and untreated, it could be very bad for baby. A c-section is going to be your best option. And don't tell people why-just say your doctor ordered it, and to mind their own business.

nealbl · June 2012

My OB mentioned possibility of Csection at my second to last appt. Baby was not progressing at all even though I was having contractions. My body wasn't progressing either. I was devastated. No matter what anyone else told me I didn;t care I just really didn't want a Csection. Now since having one I was really ok with it and I am having a RCS and I am really ok with that too. I don't think anyone can make you feel better about a csection before you have it. You just kinda accept it after the fact.

I wouldn't mess around with your baby getting anything and if the doc says csection I would probably listen.

mstrauss4 · June 2012

It is very important that you have a C Section. If you research this virus you will notice that if this is your first outbreak your child will not have enough time to build up antibodies towards it and it could cause blindness. The first outbreak is the worst.. If you had had this prior they would have put you on valtrex for a month to assure no outbreak during delivery. Do what your doctor recommends

mommytoconnor · June 2012

I'm an OB nurse and can tell you to listen to your OB. If you have HSV, by pushing baby, thru birth canal, it can pass to your baby and cause many problems. You don't want to risk this. It is the safest way to deliver your baby. I would recommend you just settle on the fact that this is how you will bring your baby into the world. Don't be embarrassed or dissappointed, as it doesn't matter how your baby is born, it doesn't make you any less of a mother and you didn't fail. As far as telling people about why, it isn't their business, but if you want something to tell them, you can say that baby is breech, or that your pelvis is small, or something like that. Good luck.

starcrossd · June 2012

Thank you so much, everyone, for your support. I've just been really devastated about it. When I found out and told my husband, it did cause a huge fight. Neither of us had ever had a cold sore or anything like that before. My doctor said it was likely from oral, and he simply didn't know he had the virus. (You can have it without ever having symptoms.) He said he was leaving and wanted a dna test on the baby, etc, etc, ... which made everything even more devastating. I didn't cheat and I firmly believe he didn't either. Later that day he ended up saying that he'd rather be a fool than an a$$hole and we'd get through it together.

We told our parents what's going on. We've been telling everyone else that the baby and I are fine, just minor complications, but my doctor insists it's for the best. It's just really hard not being able to talk to people about it because it makes me feel more alone.

I go in for a c-section Friday morning. Thank you to everyone for helping me understand that it's the right thing to do. I'm just mourning the loss of the birth I had planned, which is hard; but it's safer. I'd rather mourn this than a complication with my son.

MSUMamaof2 · June 2012

starcrossd:
Thank you so much, everyone, for your support. I've just been really devastated about it. When I found out and told my husband, it did cause a huge fight. Neither of us had ever had a cold sore or anything like that before. My doctor said it was likely from oral, and he simply didn't know he had the virus. (You can have it without ever having symptoms.) He said he was leaving and wanted a dna test on the baby, etc, etc, ... which made everything even more devastating. I didn't cheat and I firmly believe he didn't either. Later that day he ended up saying that he'd rather be a fool than an a$$hole and we'd get through it together.
We told our parents what's going on. We've been telling everyone else that the baby and I are fine, just minor complications, but my doctor insists it's for the best. It's just really hard not being able to talk to people about it because it makes me feel more alone.
I go in for a c-section Friday morning. Thank you to everyone for helping me understand that it's the right thing to do. I'm just mourning the loss of the birth I had planned, which is hard; but it's safer. I'd rather mourn this than a complication with my son.

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Oh my goodness. I'm so sorry your DH reacted that way. If it were me, I'd be much more upset about that then mourning the birth I had planned. I'm sure both are really tough. Please take care of yourself and good luck with your c-section. It's not nearly as bad once you've gone through it. Healthy baby and mom are truly the most important things, and I'm sure you realize that.

denise_m · June 2012

starcrossd:
Thank you so much, everyone, for your support. I've just been really devastated about it. When I found out and told my husband, it did cause a huge fight. Neither of us had ever had a cold sore or anything like that before. My doctor said it was likely from oral, and he simply didn't know he had the virus. (You can have it without ever having symptoms.) He said he was leaving and wanted a dna test on the baby, etc, etc, ... which made everything even more devastating. I didn't cheat and I firmly believe he didn't either. Later that day he ended up saying that he'd rather be a fool than an a$$hole and we'd get through it together.
We told our parents what's going on. We've been telling everyone else that the baby and I are fine, just minor complications, but my doctor insists it's for the best. It's just really hard not being able to talk to people about it because it makes me feel more alone.
I go in for a c-section Friday morning. Thank you to everyone for helping me understand that it's the right thing to do. I'm just mourning the loss of the birth I had planned, which is hard; but it's safer. I'd rather mourn this than a complication with my son.

Did you explain to him that hsv-1 is not the same as "genital warts" and is a different virus? Hsv-1 normally shows up as cold sores or fever blisters. Most people become infected in preschool and can carry it symptom free for decades. The virus can remain dormant your entire life before showing any symptoms, often times brought on by stress. It can be spread by sharing a cup with someone who has the virus.

While the "sores" normally show up on the lips, they can also show up on the face, arms, eyeball (painful and where dh has gotten them), and on the genitals.

HPV can also be spread without any sexual contact. Just an FYI.

KatFish2011 · June 2012

I hope everything is alright after your c-section. Mine was an emergency and I cried when my OB/GYN said I had to get one. PLEASE DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU ARE LESS OF A MOM BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T GIVE BIRTH NATURALLY. It is a lie. I dealt with that feeling for a little bit and it pops up from time to time. But looking ad DS and all that he has gone through, I am much more happier that he was born that way. Yes, your DR made a good decision. Your LO will be just fine. Your DR is looking out for both of you. You are a mom just as a mom who gave birth naturally.

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