Death surrounds me

StephK86 · June 2012

On May 31st my best childhood friend's heart stopped at the age of 27 she had a 4 year old little boy and was honestly one of the most sweetest, genuine people you could ever meet. She requested me on FB while I was in the hospital for my surgery because we have lost touch over the past few years. I accepted her request (from my phone) but was way too sick and drugged up to say anything at that point. My phone was actually off most of the time. My recovery was rough and I wasn't really going on FB. June 1st was the anniversary of my son's death and a few days later I finally logged in and thought about going to her page to say hi. When I went on there much to my shock there were R.I.P. Maria comments everywhere. I missed her funeral by one day. What pisses me off is some of my friends went and never thought to call me. I have tried to get in contact with her mom, her aunt also wants me to talk to her since we both have lost children but I haven't received a call back yet.

Now I don't know if any of you have seen on the news the surgeon who killed his ex in Buffalo, NY (where I live). Her son's father is my neighbor across the street and I have known him for about 14 years. She never said much to me but I still feel terrible she was killed in such a horrific way. Their son is also 4 and now has no mommy. My heart hurts for him as I see him ask for his mother and just sit outside as a ghost of his former happy little boy self.

A boy I was friends with from school died a few days before Maria (also 27) and my BFF's close friend died a day after that.

All this is such stress on me and brings me back to losing my son. I have been such a mess and have been physically sick because of it. This world is a sad, sad place.I wish I could be little again and unaware of all of the pain. Sorry for my long drawn out sob story I just had to get it all off of my chest.

fluttergirlmoonchild79 · June 2012

I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this. I heard about the shooting in Buffalo on the news this morning and I was touched by it with the woman being a single mother. I couldn't imagine knowing someone involved in the situation.

5 days before Corbin was born one of my very good friend's best friend died 2 days short of her 32nd birthday from an aneurysm. We had every intention of going to her funeral but then Corbin ended up being born that day. It was a sad day for my friend but she came to visit us the night of the funeral and said she found peace with Corbin being born. When Corbin passed, she lost it all over again. These days we both find peace in knowing that her Angie is taking care of my Corbin in heaven. She always wanted kids and never had the chance to have one of her own.

Death is such a shocking experience especially when it's unexpected or the person who passes is around your age. I hope less death surrounds you now and always. {{HUGS}}

pottermommy · June 2012

That is a whole whole lot. Huge hugs. Maybe go grab up that little four year old across the street and give him one too.

StephK86 · June 2012

Thanks girls. Oh PotterMommy I have been giving him a hug and his father advise. Same with my friend's mom I called her on Father's Day and talked with her for a while. I don't mind talking with them at all it's just hard to go through it all at once.

AquaFlowers · June 2012

I'm so sorry. (hugs)

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