I survived! (Thank you!)

foxxy1 · June 2012

Hi my wonderful Angel Mamas,

First, let me just tell you thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for kind messages and support. All of you...ALL of you are truly amazing and I'm just so glad for the incredible love and support here.

So onto yesterday...

The day before, I had a small cry when I got home after I talked to Ethan. I mistakenly believed that was going to be the end of it. It wasn't. The morning of his birthday I cried, and then again several times at work. The difference from my emotional state yesterday and back in April (Ethan's original due month) was I kinda needed those cries, you know? It was partially sadness, partially happiness that I survived this long, partially just being emotional.

And then when I got home yesterday, I was completely fine. It was like I had a peace when I was at home, everything was alright. The feeling reminded me of when I gave the eulogy at Ethan's funeral and I had a calm throughout his whole service.

Once again, thank you, Angel Mommies, so much for the love and support. Thank you to the PGAL, PAL, and TTCAL Mommies that have dropped in for their support as well. It really means a lot to me to have just a support system like this.

foxxy