Sunday Vent and Celebration

I know I haven't been around a whole lot lately, but I really feel the need to Ben some frustrations and celebrate some good news.

1. I am really feeling like a horrible mom lately. I am just having so many issues with my patience and dealing with the terrible two's. Sometimes I feel truly blessed to be a mom, but other times, I feel so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm jus doing everything all wrong. Most of the time, DH is really supportive , and we finally have a good routine of teamwork down. He knows when I'm getting to the boiling point, and he will step in and let me go take a breather. But sometimes he says things that really hurt my feelings and my confidence in motherhood without realizing it.

2. I don't know how much more of this 6 year old attitude I can handle. I know she is going through this center of the world stage, but JEEZ! Both of the kids have just gotten over mono, so the last three weeks have been especially stressful. But seriously, I thought if I had to spend another week home with my 6-going-on-15 SD, I would literally run out of the house screaming.

3. BM's  mom has stepped in behind her again to push her into acting like she cares. This summer should bring everything to an end. We don't have anything with SD to make charges, according to the DA, but her older half-siblings have opened up about everything, at last. And since they moved across the country, the DA there is building a case. Supposedly, they plan to press criminal charges in a month. BM may have the opportunity to make  deal: terminate parental rights to all three children or face criminal charges of molestation and rape of a minor. I am just so ready to have this all over. Flame away, but we have decided that since SD seems not to remember or has blocked out everything that happened, we will not drag it up for her to relive. Which means that we have withdrawn her from counseling (the therapist said her behavior had turned around so rapidly, and she seemed to genuinely not remember anything). If she needs help later, we won't hesitate to get it for her, but right now, she seems like well rounded, happy child. We don't want to make her remember it. It has destroyed her siblings lives so horribly already.

4. I got a new job. I start working at a local veterinary clinic tomorrow. I hope having a job that I love and that I am schooled for will help improve my personal happiness.