Pregnant after IF

So scared for my u/s tomorrow

I long for the day when I'm not a shivering, terrified mess before an IF appointment!  I'm so scared that I am going to get bad news tomorrow - very bad news.  I have no reason for this other than I've seen so many girls have the joy of having a baby taken away in the blink of an eye and I'm so scared that will be me!

What if there's no baby?  What if there's no heartbeat?  What if there's a baby but it's measuring far behind?  See, this is what I do to myself and I work myself into a tizzy! 

There's really no point to this post other than to put my fears in writing. Sad

 

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Re: So scared for my u/s tomorrow

  • Me too! I am an anxious as all hell. I will have my fingers crossed for you....keep me posted! hopefully we'll both have great news!
    TTC #1 Since January 2011 Dx: PCOS and Anovulatory April 2012 BFP! Beta 1 5/22 - 1,000+ Beta 2 5/24 - 3,009 1st u/s 6/5 - TWINS!!! A/S Reveals we are Team PURPLE!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker image image image  12/27 - surprise BFP - due August 2014
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  • wishing you the best of luck!!! that was the worst wait ever, in between beta hells & u/s....definitely worse than 2ww in my opinion, nothing but nerves & stress...i hope you have a great u/s!!! we're rooting for ya!! :)
    **~*Noelle*~**
    Happily Wed DH in May 2010
    June 2012: DD#1 born after countless fertility cycles, our 4 year old miracle 
    TTC #2: current cycle: 225iu Menopur for 4 weeks, Ovidrel Trigger= BFP! Beta #1; 333, Beta #2 713! 1st u/s showed TWINS (7/18)
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  • I definitely know how you are feeling and I would love to say it goes away, but it doesn't.

    Just do everything you can to enjoy the fact that today you are pregnant.   I hope everything goes smoothly.

    TTC since Jan. 2010 DX Unexplained infertility
    3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs
    3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN
    Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!
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    TTC #2 October 2014
    Meet with RE March 2015
    2 Frozen & 1 Fresh IVF= BFNs
    September 2015 Frozen ET=BFP!


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  • I hope that you get nothing but good news tomorrow!

    I am 25w and still panic before every appt! I don't think it actually ever goes away! Good Luck!

    8 IUI's, 2 IVF's, 1 FET = twins! EDD 9/14/12
    **formerly mrsgcal**
  • We all have had that fear. Your in good company. Hang in there and think positive thoughts! 
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    I definitely know how you feel and I think most of us have felt that way!  I'd like to tell you it goes away, but it never completely does.  It does get easier though with each milestone.  Hoping everything goes wonderfully tomorrow!  Good luck!

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    Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

    IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    Trying for #2

    FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled :(   l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

    Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

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  • I felt the exact same way before my first u/s. IF messes with our heads so much, it makes it hard to enjoy these special moments!!

    Everything crossed for you!!!
    Renee- 37 DH - Chad - 39
    2/06 - surprise pregnancy - twins
    3/06 - m/c 1st baby at 6 weeks 
    5/06 -2nd baby had no heartbeat at 14 wks.
    D&E - Bled out. Blood transfusions. Week in ICU - Cheated Death!
    Diagnosis: Blood clotting and bleeding disorder, immune issues, & cervical stenosis
    5/10 - 1st IVF cycle - BFN
    FET - 10/12/10 - BFN
    1/11 - IVF with PGD - BFN
    IVF - May - BFN
    6/11 New RE - fingers crossed!
    9/11 - IVF - 4 transferred
    10/13 - BFP!!
    It's a boy! Clint Michael, Due in June!!!

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  • Mine is next week and I feel the same way. I keep wanting to make an excuse to try to go in early but, then again, I do not want anything to come up to where I have to go in.
    IVF #1 w/ ICSI: ER 3/12 18 eggs retrieved 12 eggs fertilized; ET 3/17 1 transferred 3 frozen- BFN

    IVF #2 w/ ICSI: ER 5/8 9 eggs retrieved 8 eggs fertilized; ET 5/13 2 transferred 1 frozen; BETA #1: 1,197; U/S scheduled for 6/11-TWINS!

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  • I am right there with you.  I am having first u/s today.

    Wishing you nothing but great news.

    DS 1-31-13 DD 9-3-14
  • I'm the same way - I'm very much "the glass is half empty" when it comes to myself, Hon.

    It is very scary waiting for that first u/s. Just remember that the odds are in your favor that you'll be seeing a healthy little bean who's doing just fine ((BIG HUGS))

    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
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  • You are in great company!  Unfortunately, I think that's the norm for most of us.  I've been a wreck before every single appt so far.  Try to just take it one day, one appt at a time, and allow yourself to believe and celebrate good news :)  Lots of luck tomorrow!
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  • I know how you feel.  I felt the same way.  I was literally shaking on the way into mine.  I wish you nothing but great news!  GL!
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  • I am so sorry you are feeling this way but know that we have all felt this way.  IF has messed with our minds over the years and in-turn, we can't fully enjoy our pregnancy without the worry. 

    FX that everything goes smooth!

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  • {{hugs}}

    I wrote the exact same post 11 weeks ago when I went in for my first u/s!  So, like others said, we know how you feel.  Try to keep your mind occupied and stay positive.  I'm the sort of "hope for the best, prepare for the worst" kind of person.  Just remember, the ODDS are on your side.  GL and we will await your GOOD news tomorrow!

    TTC since 10/2008  RE consult 6/2010 Dx:Unexplaied IF

    Failed multiple cycles of Clomid+TI and Clomid+IUI

    3/2011 inj+IUI #1 BFP. 4/2011 missed m/c. 

    Fall 2011 inj+IUI #2&3 BFN

    Jan/Feb 2012 IVF#1 BFP 2/23  EDD 10/31/2012 ~~~ Halloween ~~~

    Our IVF miracle, Baby Boy M, arrived on 11/8/2012!
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  • Well it would apperar that I am in good company. My first u/s is Wednesday, and I've never had a positive u/s.

    But there is something I've learned, and that is I have no control over what happens. I did everything "perfect" with my first three pregnancies and I still lost them. So being anxious makes me feel bad, it stresses out my wonderful DH so I just relax, remain positive and hope for the best.

    Hoping we all get WONDERFUL news this week :)

    Diagonsed PCOS TTC since May 2009
    First M/C December 2010 Second M/C August 2011
    Oct 2011~Second round clomid 50 mg; BFN
    Nov 2011~Third round clomid 50 mg: BFP
    Dec 11- Beta #1 91;Dec 13- Beta #2 186.2
    Dec 27- third miscarriage
    May 25th- Beta #1 369;May 27th- Beta #2 798
    Baby girl born Jan 23, 9lbs 3oz, 21 1/2" long
    May 27th-Beta #1 80; May 29th- Beta #2 304; May 31st- Beta #3 860
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    Well it would apperar that I am in good company. My first u/s is Wednesday, and I've never had a positive u/s.

    But there is something I've learned, and that is I have no control over what happens. I did everything "perfect" with my first three pregnancies and I still lost them. So being anxious makes me feel bad, it stresses out my wonderful DH so I just relax, remain positive and hope for the best.

    Hoping we all get WONDERFUL news this week :)

    Glad to know I'm not the only one who is on edge and dreading each appointment. Yes, you are in good company!

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  • Good luck tomorrow!  Its so nerve wracking!

    TTC since 5/2010
    DX with Diminished Ovarian Reserve - AMH of 1.1 - 7/2011; AMH of .42 8/2012
    BFP 9/1/10-M/C confirmed 9/8/10-Methotrexate 10/6/10
    IUI #1 (w/clomid)-9/5/11-BFN ; IUI #2 (w/clomid)-10/5/11 - BFP - 11/1/12-No sac seen; 11/2/11 and 11/9/11-Methotrexate 
    IVF #1- ER 2/2; ET 2/5;-Two 8 cell embryos transfered = BFFN
    Surprise BFP - 5/7/12
    U/S on 6/8/12 - H/B at 128 BPM; U/S on 6/14/12 @ 9wks-No H/B-D&C on 6/17/12
    IVF 2.0- ER 10/17; ET 10/20-One 12 cell, one 10 cell and one 8 cell embryo transfered
    BFP!   11/16/12 U/S- Two nuggets with perfect heartbeats! EDD 7/10/13

     

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  • TJ1979TJ1979 member
    I felt that way at each appointment as well.  And like PPs all said, it never completely goes away.  But it does get better with each milestone.  Try to relax and enjoy it (I know, easier said than done!)  GL - can't wait to hear!
    TTC with PCOS since November 2009
    IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
    IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
    IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
    beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
    beta #2 11/28 = 2055
    Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
    Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
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  • Oh gosh, I was so nervous for our first u/s, which was 2.5 weeks ago. I cried when I saw the hb!! Hang in there, lady! You are pregnant now, so embrace that happiness! I'm praying for you and waiting for your update tomorrow!
    TTC Since 3/2010
    Me-36, Unexplained Infertility, DH-35, all clear
    Clomid 50mg 12/2011 = BFN
    Clomid 100mg 1/2012 = BFN, with Cyst
    IVF #1 Lupron/Menopur/Gonal-f/HCG Trigger
    ER 4/19/12 = 11 retrieved, 6 fertilized,
    ET 4/22/12 = 2 transfered (day 3), remaining 3 weren't good enough to freeze
    Beta 5/3 = BFP, 87 Beta #2 5/7 560.9 Beta #3 5/9 1376.5 First u/s One Baby, 125bpm!
    Second u/s, 176bmp! Kicked over to the OB by the RE at 8w. Team Green!! 
    Baby girl J arrived two weeks early! Born into water, med-free. Hooray for Team Pink!

    TTC #2 - back to the RE, treatment started 12/2014. 

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  • No worrying allowed! Easier said than done, I know. I lived in fear week to week between my u/s. keeping you in my t&p sweetie!!  Tomorrow will be great ::hugs::
    S/PAIFW
    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
    IVF #3
  • I think those are all fears that we have all had at some point...even now. I feel better for a day or two after an appt or u/s, and then I start to worry again. I don't think the fears will ever completely go away, but just keep reminding yourself that each day is one more day of pregnancy, and that is a great thing!!!
    2/11 Diagnosis: DOR-AMH .62, LPD and MFI-4% Morph
    IVF #1-July 2011 7/9/11-Started Stims
    7/20/11-ER:No eggs in 4/5 follicles. Left the 5th follie intact and converted to an IUI
    8/3/11-Beta #1=BFN,
    Nov, 2011 BFP #1=m/c at 7 wks 3 days
    11/11-AMH .47, IVF #2 March 2012...or not!! Surprise BFP on 2/19. Beta #1=161. Beta #2 305 Our little miracle girl is on her way! Due Oct 29, 2012
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