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AW Post-Poor me/BFN vent

As of today I am 14 DPO (using OPK's, started caring too late in the month for temping).  Took my first post-m/c HPT Sunday morning at 12 DPO, and completely lost it when I got a BFN.  DH is all "It will be ok, it's early yet" but I told him I was upset b/c I have to freaking do this in the first place and it's not fair.  Was pretty depressed all day Sunday, and yesterday.  Took another HPT this morning since there's still no AF and it was still a BFN.  I'm completely symptom-free either direction, and I know this cycle will probably be wonky.  Just freaking sucks that I have to go through all this "will I/won't I" crap all over again.  And I'm angry.  The slightest road bump with school or work or anything and I just get so angry I feel like I'm going to explode.  Borrowing a gif from last night, the slightest thing makes me so angry I feel like this girl. 

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Re: AW Post-Poor me/BFN vent

  • I hate seeing that BFN. It sucks donkey balls. Hopefully next cycle will be the one!
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  • imageMissMheMhe:
    I am sorry you are upset. Just remember, you don't exactly know how late you are in your cycle. You can O up to two days past a +opk. Or, maybe you didn't O at all and you are gearing up for a long cycle? Just take it one day at a time and try not to overanalyze your body. I say put the sticks away until next weekend. If AF hasn't shown up by then, test. Then if it's a - again, give it another week.

    This. You could only be 12DPO today--in which case, it's still relatively early. You're not out until AF is officially here. Good luck to you!  

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  • BFNs are never fun, but I agree with PP that you aren't necessarily out yet.  Fx for you!

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  • I went through this last cycle and I know what you mean. I had it in my head that we would get KU quickly but it just wasn't in the cards for us. You're not out til AF shows. I love your PIP it's too cute. Take a deep breath!!!

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  • Thanks ladies, I figured you all would completely understand, and that makes me feel a little less psycho!  I'll try to stay optimistic and go about my business without thinking about it...we'll see how that goes lol.
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    imageMissMheMhe:
    I am sorry you are upset. Just remember, you don't exactly know how late you are in your cycle. You can O up to two days past a +opk. Or, maybe you didn't O at all and you are gearing up for a long cycle? Just take it one day at a time and try not to overanalyze your body. I say put the sticks away until next weekend. If AF hasn't shown up by then, test. Then if it's a - again, give it another week.

    I completely agree with all of this.  BFNs really do suck, ((Hugs)) 


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    I agree with the PPs. Just step away from the pee sticks and test in a few days. It isn't over until AF shows up!
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  • imageLSzwaya:
    I agree with the PPs. Just step away from the pee sticks and test in a few days. It isn't over until AF shows up!

    This. I totally hear you on the anger, too. I went through (and still do) periods of what DH not-so-lovingly terms my "rage blackouts." The littlest thing could set me off and it was like steam would literally pour out of ears (god help the people who stole my spots in the parking lot! it got ugly a few times...) Hang in there and try to be kind to yourself. 

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