Inexplicable Urge to Cry Today

sammer818 · May 2012

Hey Ladies. I'm not really sure why, but I'm having the urge to have a big ugly cry today. I think I can feel it building up inside me and I'm afraid it's going to happen at a very inappropriate time. Crying is definitely a release for me, and I haven't cried in a long time, so I'm about due, but it still sucks. I'm feeling really down and hopeless today and I'm not really sure why. I think I'm really starting to get overwhelmed by the whole TTCAL thing. I'm also getting towards the end of my 2WW and I'm terrified that it's going to end with AF and a BFN. I have no rational reason to think this, but I still do. I was doing so good for so long. *SIGH* This post really has no point, I just needed to get it out there.

JennOH85 · May 2012

Hang in there, Sammer. There's no two ways about it: the 2ww is always an emotional roller-coaster (and sometimes it feels more like a janky carnival ride that starts to shake when you get to the top of the hill). FX that this is your cycle, dear. I've been having a pretty craptastic day for no real reason, too. I just ate few handfuls of jelly beans and potato chips, and let me tell you, that was not the answer. Now I feel sad and fat. ::runs back to own pity party::

AngnShaun · May 2012

Nothing wrong with a good cry. It can be theraputic sometimes.

delino · May 2012

(((HUGS)))

baby&thesea · May 2012

Ugh I know that feeling of being right on the verge of a big ugly cry. Sometimes I try to present myself with the opportunity to get it out by watching a sad movie, writing out my feelings, or just laying down for a few minutes. The end of the TWW is definitely when I struggle also. You are not alone. Hope you feel better soon.

sammer818 · May 2012

PS: Angnshaun - I love your siggy challenge picture. AMAZING.

hungryhippo · May 2012

baby&thesea:
Ugh I know that feeling of being right on the verge of a big ugly cry. Sometimes I try to present myself with the opportunity to get it out by watching a sad movie, writing out my feelings, or just laying down for a few minutes. The end of the TWW is definitely when I struggle also. You are not alone. Hope you feel better soon.

This. For me, that's grief talking. Allow the grief to wash over so it can then wash back out. When I try to push back on it, that's when it comes at really "inappropriate" times.