Hello - first, I'm sorry this is so long - I just really need to get some of it out and hear from others!
I haven't been on the bump in a while but I'm a week postpartum and already struggling with anxiety and maybe some depression. I have dealt with anxiety in the past (the most severe being shortly before college graduation/my wedding 2 weeks later) but had gotten it pretty much under control. It actually went away almost completely while I was pregnant.
I had my 1st panic attack in a long time in the hospital one night and have been having them ever since. I have had almost constant heart palpitations since right before leaving the hospital on Thursday (which of course leads to more anxiety that something is actually wrong with my heart) in addition to the panic attacks. I am feeling really guilty because I feel like I can't properly care for my son with this going on.
The anxiety causes some depression and sometimes I have no appetite (no good for a EBF mom). I have also had some depression issues with the fact that I had to have a c-section instead of the completely natural birth I had planned).
I have an appointment with my midwife tomorrow (1st postpartum and staple removal) and will talk with her about it then but I wanted to hear from others going through the same thing. I normally have turned down medicines (the one I did take before my wedding I had a bad experience with - I think it may have been BuSpar) but I am seriously considering taking them this time because I really want to enjoy this time with my son! Are there meds that can be taken while breastfeeding? Any other tips and/or encouragement that I'm not the only one? I feel like postpartum anxiety is not talked about near as much as postpartum depression.