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Hope this hasnt been posted yet...Loving two (poem)

LOVING TWO

I walk along holding your two year old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you? Then she is born and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you've never shared me before. I hear you telling me in ...your own way "Please love only me." And I hear myself telling you in mine "I can't." Knowing, in fact, that I never can again. You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again. But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying her- as though I am betraying you. But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection. More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast. But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times -- only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other. I watch how she adores you -- as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you, I've given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you- - only differently. And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll never share my love. There's enough of that for both of you- -you each have your own supply. I love you- - both. And I thank you both for blessing my life. -Author Unknown

Re: Hope this hasnt been posted yet...Loving two (poem)

  • Thank you for posting this, its beautiful :)
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  • I love this, thank you for sharing!
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  • Beautiful - thank you for sharing!

    BFP 5/21/10, Missed m/c 7/5/10 at 11w3d (baby measured 7wks), D&C 7/7/10

    Aug/Sept 2010 - CD3&10 b/w & u/s, genetic testing, SA, HSG, & Lap/Hyst to remove septum

    12/09/10 BFP -- 7/05/11 DS born at 33w5d. Came home after 23d in NICU at 37w0d

    June 2012 - TTC #2! -- 10/05/12 BFP --  5/23/13 DS2 born at 37w1d! Yay full term!

    Surprise BFP 6/25/14 LO#3 due Feb2015!

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  • Beautiful!  I'm in preggo-tears right now!  Crying lol
  • I still tear up reading this myself. It is beautiful! It gave me hope and I was just hoping it would do the same for you all. What we do is not easy, and as much as I hate to say it....I dont think fathers ever really grasp that "mother love" . I read it to my kids father and he just couldnt understand why I was crying so much.
  • OMG!!!!  I wish I had seen this one year ago when I was pregnant.  I spent my ENTIRE 9 months feeling that I couldn't love #2 and worried about sharing my time and how things would be different with #1 and just everything that poem expresses.  Many people told me it'd be all right and I didn't know how to trust in it.  My husband said I was giving my daughter the best gift, a sibling.  But every ounce of that poem is true -- the very second my second daughter was born, I was completely in love and all that stress melted away.  My daughter loved her from the first moment she saw her and the way they adore each other now (26 months, 5 months) is something I never expected or was prepared for.  It blows me away every single day.  It is the most heartwarming, touching, beautiful thing in the whole world.  I am truly, truly blessed.  Now I spend every day feeling guilty that I didn't enjoy my pregnancy the way I could've and should've.  If we could only have a crystal ball....enjoy your pregnancies and know that you have the most perfect love to look forward to and share with your child.  It is AMAZING!!!!
  • Oh my gosh I'm too hormonal to read this. Like seriously... bawling.
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