After going to a birthday party for one of my son's daycare buddies yesterday I was so emotionally and physically drained I just wanted to go in to a hole. It was at one of those indoor jumping places---which I thought was going to be awesome--and it was....until DS1 started hitting everyone. Every time I turned around I would hear "DS1 hit me"...... I felt like I was constantly trying to take him aside and "cool him off". But it was getting to the point that he wasn't even responding to it (which is starting to happen now---he's almost laughing at me----out of nowhere).
I felt like none of the kids wanted to play with him because he was constantly grabbing at them, yet he himself didn't want to be touched. So we got through the party---every parent giving me a glare. Then I figured I'd run to the grocery store for just a few items. OMG. Within getting inside of the store he was pretty much throwing a tantrum out of nowhere (he typically doesn't do this).
So again---the glares from others. Then when he finally calmed down and was being my "helper" and someone would try and talk to him he would snap at them and try to hit THEM (grown ups!!!). OMG..... and of course they look at ME.
I feel like I'm yelling at him all freaking day. And I am. He does nothing but hit his 1 yr old brother all day long. I'm done with it. I've talked to the pedi and she says to go over the top with saying how good he is when he is being good--and we do that--but it's not working. I know someone have suggested "time-ins" and spending time with him in the time out scenario--but I really can't do that when I'm managing both kids by myself. My 1 yr old is very mobile (walking) now and there's just too much danger around to leave the room.
My stress level is so high right now I want to cry. Literally. I feel like every muscle is so tight it's going to snap. Luckily I'm already on migraine meds LOL.
I knew having two children would be tough--but didn't think it would be for THIS reason.