The good news is that both babies look great, are 4lbs 3oz or so and my cervix is still closed and long enough, so they aren't going anywhere.
The bummer is that my Baby girl is still stubbornly breech. The peri gave me about a 15% chance she'll turn, but that if she is still breech at 36 weeks, she's not going to turn and to prepare myself for a c-section at 38 weeks.
I'm pretty horribly disappointed. I've been doing literally everything I can think of to get her to turn (chiro, acu, yoga positions, music and lights, you name it) and nothing is working. I'm feeling my dream of a drug-free, natural birth slip away. :-(
Re: 33 week appt and Baby A still breech :-(
I'm sorry baby A's still breech. FWIW, breech presentation is much more common with twins. I hope A turns, but if not, really, the planned C-section is not that bad at all -- I was able to enjoy the birth of my babies, and my pain post-delivery was minimal.
I know it's not how you pictured it, but with twins, you've got so many variables that it's just that much harder to go natural. Don't beat yourself up about it.
I hear ya! ?I took 10 weeks of Bradley classes only to learn about 32 weeks that DD was breech. ?I tried everything. ?swam almost every other day, etc. ?Nothing. ?I cried the whole day we scheduled the c/s...the whole day. ?Everyone tried to make me feel better by making me feel guilty--"don't you want a healthy baby?" ?"It doesn't matter how they get here, just that they're healthy" ?"C/s are better anyway" blah blah blah. ?STFU.
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I grieved. ?I did. ?For more than a week. ?And then I resigned myself to the c/s and prepared for it. ?More than anything I wanted to be empowered during the birth. ?I wanted to be in control of the process, not a victim of it. ?It was my body after all. ?anyway, I read everything I could; sought out advice about other's experiences, etc.
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And almost a year ago, I went in for my c/s. ?Dr did a quick u/s just to make sure the c was necessary. ?She found that BOTH babies were breech. ?I delivered at 37 weeks without ever going into labor. ?And because I was well informed, I was able to ask for exactly what I wanted. ?I got to hold one of the babies in the OR, DH held the other. ?They stayed in the OR for the first 10 minutes and then DH carried them to the nursery to get checked (not bathed); joined me in recovery where I BF; and then went straight to the pp room and met me there. ?I felt calm during the c/s; never needed any calming meds or anything ?I was sitting up within 20 minutes in recovery and eating 8 hours later.
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I'm sorry. ?Don't let people make you feel bad about feeling disappointed in the C/S. ?It's major surgery. ?It's not the picture you wanted for your birth. ?And that sucks.
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GL!!! ?I'm sending baby turning vibes your way!?
Joolia, that's really encouraging; thanks. I've gotten the same messages about a C-section. I know people mean well, but I agree with you that it's OK to be disappointed/sad/whatever; you have to process those emotions first.