I'm back/My son's birthday

StephK86 · May 2012

I don't know if any of you noticed (I try to post here as least daily) but I was gone for a while. I had major surgery and almost lost my life because of it. I had a very sick gallbladder (one the size of a human head) with gallstones the size of baseballs. These attacks have been happening for over ten years but I finally have a Dr. who listened to me and sent me to the E.R. I was hospitalized for a week. The surgeon said on a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being the hardest) this was a level 10 surgery. The reason I almost died is my potassium was so low and heart rate so high they were afraid I might have a heart attack before or during surgery. I am alive though and feeling better every day.

The worst part for me was missing my son who passed birthday. He would have been two on April 28th. I had all these plans to do things at the cemetery and instead was stuck in a hospital bed. When I cried at night it was actually a male nurse who asked what was wrong and he hugged me for a long time. I did go this past weekend to decorate my Gavin's grave and release balloons with messages. I miss my son so bad. I really wish we could be celebrating together on Earth.

careyalis · May 2012

I am so very sorry to hear this! I am glad you are doing better now and that you made it through the surgery. Take care of yourself lady! ((big HUGE hugs!!!))

jbranden12 · May 2012

I'm happy to hear you are feeling better every day. I read about your surgery on your blog. I am so sorry you did not get to celebrate your Gavin's birthday the way you hoped. I am glad your family was able to celebrate and that you were well enough to visit him this weekend. Welcome back!

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StephK86 · May 2012

Thanks girls for all the well wishes. The hospital was so awful as far as nurses go. I had some really mean, nasty, nurses. The guy nurse I talked about was very nice though. He is a father (he told me about his kids) and when I told him my story he started to tear up a little bit. That's when he hugged me. Not like a creeper but in a nice way. The other nurses knew it was Gavin's birthday because they were there when my family brought my cards that were sent to me and a teddy to hold on to. I don't expect people to fall all over me at all but maybe they could have dropped the attitudes for a while. I am writing a complaint to to the hospital and my mom is ready to go slap some people around. (Not for that reason but for the way I was treated the whole hospital stay) I was left in limbo for days before surgery since they were trying to see if my potassium would go back up and also were determining if they had to do a procedure before surgery. I was not allowed to eat or drink anything for days. When my mom found out Friday that I could die and that they just left me there she wan't very happy. SO is ready to kick some butt as well.

I just want to put it all behind me and properly grieve my son. I still can't believe he is not here with me even after almost 2 years. I miss him so much right now.

johnnys june · May 2012

I was wondering where your cute pictures of your boys had been! *hugs* I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that -- but I'm glad you're feeling better. Your sweet boy was watching over you, lovey, and he knew exactly where you were and what was going on. He knows you love him and I guarantee that he doesn't feel bad one bit that you weren't able to "be there" at his grave on his birthday. Instead he was with you.

*hugs*

weddedwife · May 2012

I noticed you hadn't been around. Wow, I am SO glad you're okay! What a scary thing to go through. I hope now that your gall bladder is out that you will be feeling much better.

So sorry you had a crappy hospital experience. As if you haven't been through enough. I'm glad you were able to go and celebrate Gavin, even if it wasn't the way you envisioned.