Intro - Starting the process

jenjen930 · May 2012

Good morning ladies!

We just got our BFN on the second attempt at IVF this weekend. It was devastating. Back in my pre-IVF days, I had decided to limit this to 2. Since I was not pumped full of hormones or irrationally emotional back then, I figure that I knew what I was doing, and should probably stick to that decision. Our cycle was almost perfect, until the end. I don't think we can do any better, and am tired of the whole thing. The needles, the ultrasounds, the 6:30 am appointments, the feeling like crap for weeks at a time. Now that we have decided to not do any more treatments, I have this deep sense of relief. I am ready to move on to the next stage of my life and leave this all behind. :::sigh::: It feels so good to be done.

My DH and I have always talked about how we would be happy to adopt. In fact, I have done quite a bit of research (and started saving money for it) for the last few months, knowing this could happen. I have lurked alot on this board too, and I always found when I was done that I had a sense of peace. It helped to know that IF treatments that might never work were not the only way to make my dream come true.

So we have officially decided that we are going to pursue adoption, and I am soooooo excited about it! I feel like I can hope again now, and can do and think about things that I haven't been able to do or think about in a long, long time. We told our families, and they are super excited too. Every single person is on board with this, and I am extremely grateful for it. It feels good to have a purpose again. I am still going to be a mom, I am just taking a different path to get there than I origianlly thought. I can't wait to get started!

We will be pursuing domestic infant adoption through an agency, at least for our first. I really want to bring a precious little baby home from the hospital if I can, so I can enjoy as much of motherhood as I can, right from the start.

Sorry this got long. I am so looking forward to this new journey in my life, and getting to know you ladies.

Zanymermaid · May 2012

Congratulations on your decision! I too went through infertility treatments - four IUIs and two IVFs so I know how emotionally, physically, and financially exhausting it can be.

maryoosa · May 2012

Hi Jen,

I know you from the IF board--- I'm over here too.

Good luck in your journey.

Marisa

bumpuser794640 · May 2012

Congratulations on your decision, and welcome to the board! I too felt that deep sense of peace and relief when we decided to adopt rather than pursue IF treatments - it's great!

GL with all of your decisions and the process.

Bubs101 · May 2012

I'm new here and coming from failed IVF (and miscarriage) as well. I can totally relate to the feeling of relief and excitement! Welcome from a fellow newbie.