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I made it...sort of

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Yesterday was my little brothers wedding. We live 2 hours away from each other so we left 3 hours early. On our way traffic from construction was so backed up it took us over an hour to get out of the "city". So as I'm rushing to now just make it on time, a truck in front of me kicked up what first looked like a flat piece of cardboard, and turned out to be a piece of plywood, right into the front of my car. It broke some of the plastic stuff underneath my car, but nothing major (yay!). We ended up missing the wedding. MISSED MY BROTHERS WEDDING CEREMONY. I feel like such a d-bag (excuse my language). 

It was the first time seeing a lot of my family since we lost Rowan since our family is so scattered. So some of that was hard, only one aunt actually "said" anything. I could see it in my grandpa's eyes though and feel it in his hug. I hate seeing other people's pain more than my own sometimes. I don't know if it's the reminder of my own or what, but it sucks. 

I never know how to answer people anymore when they say "How are you doing?" Some people I don't think knew, so I hate saying "Oh I'm good!" Because that's a lie. So my go-to answer has been "OK" and if they push for more, I say "As good as I can be." That satisfies most. So I made it emotionally even if I didn't make it to the ceremony. 


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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member

    I'm so sorry you missed the ceremony, that really sucks. Glad you weren't hurt by that truck though.

    I hate it when people say nothing. To me, that's worse than hearing them stumble through some awkward condolence. Glad you were able to make it though the reception though.

    I never say I'm good anymore, because it's not true. I usually say OK.

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  • tuscanbride2007tuscanbride2007 member

    What an ordeal! I am sorry you missed the ceremony :(.

    I feel like some days I am trying to make other people comfortable around me. "Ok" or "taking it one day at a time" has been my standard line, but other times, I just automatically say good even when it really isn't.


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  • mollywobbles13mollywobbles13 member
    Wow what an ordeal! So sorry you didn't make it to the ceremony. I sometimes don't say anything when someone asks how I'm doing. I do that tilting the head, frowning, and the shurg of the shoulders move. If they don't get that I'm not OK from the that they are just too dense.
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