Pity Party for One

Dragonfly1226 · May 2012

I am currently on BCP. My last pill is Sunday and when my period comes they are repeating my day three labs for the fourth time. I hope that my estrogen levels will be normal this time, but I really don't think they will be. I have no clue what they will try next or if there is anything else to try. I'm not doing very well with all of this. I feel pretty much defeated before we even have gotten a chance to try get pregnant again. And we haven't even dealt with any of the stress that goes along with actually trying. We were scheduled to do our FET in March. Now it is May and we're not even close to actually doing a FET. I am so sad and frustrated. This holding pattern we are in just sucks. How is it that I have lost hope before we have even tried?

Ali212 · May 2012

My estrogen levels never normalized in any of my IUI or IVF cycles. They were always extremely elevated on day 2 and nothing my REs did (BCP, other meds) helped my levels. I mentioned this in a response to one of your earlier posts on this but I pushed my REs on this issue to find a solution since clearly their "usual" plans weren't working. Eventually, they decided to just proceed with my cycles and they adjusted some of my other meds. GL! I know how tough this is when you can't even get into the actual cycle b/c of your b/w holding you back. I would really really try to push them to find some other way to work around your levels though since it can be done and it may be the reality of your situation (as it was for me, unfortunately).

Dragonfly1226 · May 2012

Ali212:
My estrogen levels never normalized in any of my IUI or IVF cycles. They were always extremely elevated on day 2 and nothing my REs did (BCP, other meds) helped my levels. I mentioned this in a response to one of your earlier posts on this but I pushed my REs on this issue to find a solution since clearly their "usual" plans weren't working. Eventually, they decided to just proceed with my cycles and they adjusted some of my other meds. GL! I know how tough this is when you can't even get into the actual cycle b/c of your b/w holding you back. I would really really try to push them to find some other way to work around your levels though since it can be done and it may be the reality of your situation (as it was for me, unfortunately).

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences! I feel like my RE has refused to say this to me. If this month's labs are the same my husband and I are planning on going in for a consultation to have an open discussion about all of it. (The most he has said is that we do have 7 frozen embies so it doesn't matter if my ovaries are shutting down. I am not okay with this attitude.) Another issue is that we are lucky to have insurance. But with these lab results our insurance won't cover our cycles so if we do go ahead we now need to figure out how to pay for them.

sherryberry2 · May 2012

I am sorry you're dealing with this. I know that defeated, frustrating feeling. My RE gave us a low percentage of our FET working. I am struggling with the possibility of being done. I thought we would do the transfer in August and I would at least know if we're done. We have now decided to wait until January. I am having trouble dealing with the delay and keep telling myself it won't work anyway. I feel like we're throwing money away but I have to try.

I hope you are able to get going soon. Good luck! I'll send positive vibes your way.

Dragonfly1226 · May 2012

sherryberry2:
I am sorry you're dealing with this. I know that defeated, frustrating feeling. My RE gave us a low percentage of our FET working. I am struggling with the possibility of being done. I thought we would do the transfer in August and I would at least know if we're done. We have now decided to wait until January. I am having trouble dealing with the delay and keep telling myself it won't work anyway. I feel like we're throwing money away but I have to try.
I hope you are able to get going soon. Good luck! I'll send positive vibes your way.

That totally sucks

I'm sorry. You're right though. The waiting is worse when you have little hope to begin with. I hope you get a BFP in January!